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A/N: Okay so as I promised I pulled the other version of this story to rework it as it needed some. It has gotten longer and a little more detailed and will be rated M beginning in chapter 7 so fair warning to all... Thank you to Hippogriff-Tamer who continues to Beta most of my stories including this one. PLEASE do not forget to leave a like and review as they make my day :)
A/N2: Okay here is the Letter. It almost tripled in length lol.
Chapter 3
Elena watched him leave before walking to her desk and sitting down. Thinking about her friends and family she pulled out a stack of stationary paper, she began to write.
To my friends and family,
By the time you find this letter, I will be long gone from Mystic Falls. I am sorry but it has to be this way. If I stay, you all will continue to get hurt trying to protect me. I left to protect the ones that I love. I do know that most, if not all, of you will think that I have been compelled to leave but that is not true. Even if I had been compelled earlier on in the day, I am doing this for you as much as for myself.
Jeremy:
I am sorry that I am taking the cowards way out by leaving this letter instead of saying goodbye the proper way. I want to tell you to be safe little brother. Don't let anyone hurt you and if you must, leave Mystic Falls and get as far away as you can. The supernatural is drawn to this town and if you stay you will either one day lose your life to a vampire that has not regard for human life or you will be compelled to kill yourself. Either way, I want you safe even if I can not be there to make sure it happens. I ask that you forget me, Jeremy. It isn't easy for me to ask this of you and you may think I am being unfair but I am a danger to you. It would be better for you to forget you ever had a sister than to constantly be reminded of the pain I have put you through these past few years. I am responsible for Jenna's death, and by extension, our parents deaths too. If it had not been for me they would still be alive today.
I will always love you, Jer. Remember that if nothing else. And if you can't forget me just don't come looking for me. I will return one day, but like I said before, my life will put you in danger and the last thing that I want is to lose you too. I would rather live in a world where you have forgotten I exist than to lose you forever. Go be happy Jer. Live a long and happy life. Get married, have children...forget the supernatural. If you must, have Damon compel you to forget everything. Love your sister, Elena
Matt:
Matt, you have the been the best friend anyone could ask for. You have always been there for all of us and I thank you for that. Matt, I ask that you do the same as I asked of Jeremy. Be happy and live a long life. You deserve a happy life away from all the supernatural. You need to marry, have children, and be happy. Leave Mystic Falls behind. There is a whole world to see...go see it...go explore it. Find your place in it. Forever your friend, Elena
Bonnie:
First off, I am sorry about what happened to your mother. I can even understand you blaming me for her death, for in a a way, I guess I am to blame. But if anyone knows what it feels like to lose a parent it is I. As I have lost both sets of parents. I am also sorry that you always seem to end up in the middle of all the supernatural chaos that has been our lives for the past few years. Bonnie, if I haven't been the best of friends, I am sorry. I will understand if you never wish to speak to me again. Frankly, I wouldn't want to associate with me after everything that has happened. You and I both know that I never asked for any of this but this is our life and there is nothing that I can do to change things.
There is one thing that you do need to know. You are destined to become the one thing that you were born to hate. The reason I know this is because while I was being detained yesterday I was visited by a spirit. She told me things that you would never believe and if you wish to hear them yourself then call her. Her name is Arrisa. All you need to do is call her name and she will appear to you and tell you the same thing she told me. But you are destined to be with the one that you hate but he will become your greatest love. Give him a chance Bonnie, please. They are not as bad as you think. And by they I mean the Originals. Yes, I am saying what you are thinking I am saying. Kol Mikaelson is your soul mate. I am also aware that my opinion of them has changed seemingly overnight but there is a reason for it. All I ask is you listen to the spirit and trust in your soul mate. He can teach you so much if only you would let him. He was once a very powerful warlock and one day will be again. Until we see each other again, Elena.
Caroline:
I don't know exactly what to say to you but this. Choose carefully the one who holds your heart. For it is the one man that you do not want, who is the one that you are destined to be with forever. Yes, like Bonnie, your soul mate is an Original and you know of whom I speak. Klaus. He is your soul mate whether you like it or not. But he is also the only one that can love you completely the way you deserve to be loved. Caroline, please give him a chance. Yes, I know he has done some terrible things, I will not deny that. But put yourself in his place. Think what it was like for him to be separated from a part of himself for a millennium. Think of what it was like for him to be cursed by his own mother. Caroline, I know you don't want to hear this, but underneath it all, there lies a man who is broken and in need of your healing touch. For you are the only one he will allow close to him to do it. He may never say the words but know that he does love you. He has already shown you in so many ways his heart but you refuse to see it. If you only knew what I do then you would understand why I am rooting for him to win your hand. Let your compassion, Caroline, be your guide. Listen to your heart and not your head.
There is one more thing I need to tell you. And I learned this from the vision I received while in the cave yesterday. Klaus is the originator of your bloodline. You can not kill him... for if you do you will kill yourselves. I learned yesterday that if you kill an Original their entire line dies with them.
Be happy Caroline, see the world. But whatever you do don't stay in Mystic Falls. Forever your friend, Elena
Stefan:
You will always hold a place in my heart as you were my first love. But we have grown apart and no amount of time will fix what was broken. You will find the love of your life; in fact you already have met her and had a relationship with her at one time. If things had been different you two would have been together long before you met me. You know of whom I speak so I will not give you her name. But you will have to earn her trust once more. Just remember this. Underneath her uncaring facade lies a heart that only wants to be loved for herself. Don't let that deter you. Be the man she fell in love with all those years ago. In other words be yourself.
There is one other thing that you need to understand. I do not wish for you to follow me or to try to find me. If you have to vervain Damon to keep him from doing just that then go for it. I am safe and I am with the one my heart chose to be with. By the time I finish this letter you will know who it is that holds my heart and always will. But for now know that I am happy for the first time in a long time. Be happy Stefan even if that happiness does not lie with me. Your soul mate awaits. Love, Elena
Damon:
I am not exactly sure how to say what it is I need to tell you. You have come to mean so much to me but there is a part of you that loves another and always will. And that is okay because it is that part that is leading you to your soul mate. And yes, I know who she is though you might not like the answer should you ever ask it. The love you once held for this person is still there buried under hurt and denial. But, Damon, you have to let me go. You seek her in me and it will never happen. I am not her nor will I ever be. I was never meant to be yours or Stefan's. I was always meant for another and I am now with him as I was always meant to be. As I told Stefan you should figure out who I am with by the end of this letter, though I am sure you will not like the answer once you find out. You can't rescue me this time, Damon. I am not in any danger and I am happy. I know that that is what you wanted for me and I am. You will have to learn to live your life without me in it because I will not be returning to Mystic Falls for a long while. At least that is the plan and as you know plans can change depending on certain circumstances. However, my life is no longer in that town. My life is with my soul mate and the love of my life and though I love all of you I can no longer put you in danger. The supernatural seems drawn to that town and to me in particular. Yes, I will be turning as soon as I get to my new home. I know I didn't want to at one time but things change. Be happy Damon. Love, Elena
Katherine:
Yes, you may find it hard to believe that I am bothering with you in this goodbye letter, but as the troubles in my life began after you showed up, let me say thank you. Because without your interference in my life I would never have met my soul mate. You and I have never seen eye to eye, Katherine. I never did understand until recently why you hated me so much even from our first meeting. You believed I took Stefan from you, which when I looked at it from your perspective, I guess I did. However, when you are on the run and not around do you really expect the man you supposedly love to really stay true to you? Especially after lying about what happened to you? He and Damon both believed you were stuck in the tomb below the church. When they found out you lied about your whereabouts they were both hurt. Sometimes Katherine you have to think before you do something that will cause you to lose something precious.
Now, I know that you have closed yourself off from everyone but eventually we all have to let another in. I know that you flipped the switch so to speak after what Klaus did to your family and I can't say I blame you for it, but you cannot let that one event ruin your life. I know you have spent most of your immortal life running from him and maybe it's time to stop running and face your biggest fear. He had you at his mercy before the sacrifice that ended my life. He could have easily killed you and yet he allowed you to live. Why do you think that is? He bit you once he had broken his curse and yet he still cured you. That does not sound like someone who wants you dead, Katherine. I think he likes torturing you but I very much doubt he could kill you. I think that there might be some affection on his part that still lingers from your time as a human and that is what is keeping you alive.
Now, Katherine, I know you do not want to hear me say this but I am going to anyway. You need to cut the self centered attitude. Your soul mate needs you and you need him whether you like it of not. You know who he is. In fact, you have always known. You may not think you need him or he needs you but he does. Besides that you love him if in your own way.
Katherine, you can only wallow in hurt for only so long before you become so cynical that you can't really live your life. Let him help you through the pain because you are going to have to turn those emotions back on at some point. 500 years of closing them off is a long time to live without love. And I do believe it was you who told my soul mate true love is not real, unless it is returned and if we cease to believe in love, why would you want to live? You might be the only one right now who knows who my soul mate is with simply those words. Your Doppelganger, Elena
Alaric:
Ric, I don't know how to say thank you for everything you have done for Jeremy and I but it's time to let you go, so that you can live your own life. Meredith Fell is a wonderful woman. I do hope that you two actually do hit it off. I thank you for everything you have taught me and I assure you those lessons will be remembered in my new life. I know that you will not like my decision to become a vampire. Not after everything that has happened to me because of them. But between us I had a feeling it was only a matter of time before I was turned. I know far to many vampires for it to be otherwise. Eventually one of them would have given me their blood to heal me and something would happen to kill me and I would end up in transition. And me being me would have gone through with it just to make sure Jeremy had at least one member of his family there for him. I want you to go live your life Ric. Walk away from all of us before something terrible happens to you. Your step daughter, ward and friend, Elena
Now for my favorite family.
Rebekah:
I know that you are angry with me for stabbing you in the back and I accept your anger. It was wrong of me to pretend to be your friend but to be honest right at the end I truly did want to be your friend. The only thing was at the time we didn't know if we could trust you not to go running back to your brother with our plans. Of course if we had known then what I know now I probably would never have daggered you in the first place and then your animosity would be obsolete.
Now, Rebekah, I know that you have a soft heart and given the life that you have lived it's not to hard to see why you have become so jaded. It isn't a life I would have chosen either and yet I am choosing it. You can call me crazy if you want or even make my life a living hell for all eternity if you like, but I am choosing to turn. I also know forever is a very long time to hold a grudge and I do hope that one day you can forgive me for I really do want to be your friend and maybe just maybe something more.
Now, for the reason I am writing to you. You need to forgive your soul mate. I know that you know who he is. In fact, you knew the moment you two met that he was the one. I am sorry that things didn't work out between you two when you met but please give him another chance especially now that there will be nothing standing in your way, well except maybe your brothers. But do not let that deter you. You deserve just as much happiness as they do, and between us, I say that you should stand up to them and let them know that you are a strong independent young woman who knows her own heart and mind and will follow her heart. Trust me. You do not want to live a life devoid of love. Because, despite what Klaus says, love is not a weakness but your greatest strength. It is what kept all of you together even through all the hardships and trails you have faced in your thousand years on this earth. Your brothers love you and so does your soul mate. Do not blame him for forgetting you since it was Klaus that made him forget.
You will be gifted with something special when we met again and hopefully it will give the two of us a new start. Elena
Kol:
Okay, so I haven't known you long, but I do know that you are very unpredictable which makes you volatile. I do know that Klaus fears you which could be the reason you were daggered so much. But I also know the reason for your restlessness. You miss being one with nature. I cannot fault you for lashing out because of this. I would do the same if I lost my connection to something so vital to my nature. I also think that is why you are so enchanted by Bonnie. You envy her and you like her. As you should, seeing as she is your soul mate. Do not let her deter you. Witches, I am told are naturally a vampire's enemy, but you can break through her defenses but only if you do it with no hint of arrogance. When you see me next a gift is also yours and it is one that you will find most welcome. Elena
Niklaus:
Now I have come to my second favorite Original. (I say second favorite because Elijah will always be my favorite Original.) The big bad Hybrid himself.
First off, I will say that you will be receiving a gift in the mail soon but I suggest that you use it wisely for it is the last time you will receive it. I have never understood your need to create more beings like yourself but I guess when you are the only one of your kind its instinctual. You shouldn't need any more hybrids as you have a family that loves you no matter what you do. Case in point, look at what they have done. They have stayed by you for over a thousand years. It's not their fault you keep them locked up in coffins when they say or do something that angers you. You view their love for you as a weakness on their part but its not. Like I told Rebekah, love is not a weakness but a strength. It is what has kept your family alive for well over a millennium. But you really do need to stop daggering your family anytime they disagree with you. Siblings are supposed to argue, its part of our nature. Klaus, let them live their lives as you will live yours. You don't need an army behind you, Klaus, you need your family. They are there for you if only you will let them in.
Now for the second thing I have to say to you. I forgive you for terrorizing my friends and family. I even forgive you for killing me.
The third thing I need to say to you is this. Caroline. I know you love her even if you will not label your feelings for her as such. And even though she does not want to admit it she does like you. No one goes on and on about someone they hate like she does about you. Tread carefully and you will win her hand and her heart. Don't think that I haven't seen the change that comes over you whenever you are near her. It's almost like you want her to see your hidden good side. It's a side of you that I bet you don't allow a lot of people to see and maybe you should. Being nice to others never hurt anyone. True sometimes one has to be ruthless to get their point across, but Klaus, love is not your weakness, but your strength. And if there is anything I understand about you, it is that you have a deep love for your family. You may have kept them trapped in coffins for getting on your bad side or even to protect them from your murderous step-father but you still love them. Don't be afraid to allow yourself some happiness. Your Doppelganger, Elena
Finn:
I know I don't know you well so my letter to you will be short and sweet. You once found and turned your soul mate yet before you two could actually have a life together you were daggered and kept hidden away for over 900 years. Well, Sage is on her way to you. You can thank Elijah for finding her. I had asked him about your family the day before the ball and he told me about all of you. I asked him what would put a smile on your face and he said that there was only one person that made your life as a vampire worth living and that was your soul mate. I also asked him if there was a way to find her and he said he already had. So be happy Finn. This life you live may not have been the life you wanted or would have chosen but sometimes you have to make do with the life you are given. You have to find a balance. No one said you have to kill there are other ways you know. Try and be happy Finn. Elena
Now I am sure all of you are wondering why I did not leave a letter for Elijah. Some of you have already guessed the reason and for those that have not the reason is quite simple really. I am with him. He is my soul mate and my true love. I asked that he take me from Mystic Falls and he agreed as he needed a break from his family even though you were all only just reunited.
Yes, I know what my friends and family are thinking and no I was not compelled to go with him. I am aware that I said this at the beginning of my letter to you all but I will say it again. I. Was. Not. Compelled. I left with him of my own free will. I love him and he loves me. Maybe that is the reason I want to see all of you so happily settled with your own mates. I know you all must be shocked by this admission but you have to understand. I always shared a connection with him even from our first meeting. None of you could understand why I trusted him so inexplicably even after he had gone back on his word. The reason is simple. He let me make my own decisions even if they were wrong. Case in point, my decision not to tell him about the spell his mother had planned on the night of the ball. It is a decision I still regret making but I was the one who made the decision not to say anything. I could have found a non-verbal way to tell him and yet I didn't. Even so, he not only forgave me my error he told me that I wasn't to blame. Out of all my family and friends he is the only one that doesn't coddle me or try to control everything I do. He treats me like an equal even though I know I am not. He sees me not my predecessors. And most of all he loves me for me, warts and all, as they say. That is more than I can say for both Stefan and Damon.
I am sorry if these words sting but they are true. You should never try to control the one you say you love because when you do it isn't love. I'm happy for the first time in a long time so please try and be happy for me.
Stop the fighting because nothing will come of it but pain. Esther will find that she will no longer be able to use me in her quest to end her family. For, if she were to succeed she would throw nature into chaos as it has had over a thousand years to get used to the race she created. She wishes to kill her family because she thinks that you are all monsters, which in your minds might be true, but think of the good that has come of it as well. How many that were turned by you used their new gifts to help humanity instead of harming it? Stand together, because you are stronger together than apart. If you get nothing else out of this letter let it be that.
Until I see you all again in this life or the next,
Elena Gilbert Mikaelson
P.S – Yes, I know that I signed my name boldly. It was done on purpose as I am to marry Elijah once I am turned. So with all my love I shall say ado.
When she was finished she folded up the letter knowing that her brother would find it. She grinned when she thought about her brother finding the letter and then showing it to the rest of their circle of friends as well as to the family that had caused so much pain in their lives. Imagining the shock at the way she signed her name, she smiled as she quickly threw a few things that she wanted to take with her into a small bag and then texted Elijah to tell him she was ready.
