Sorry for uber long wait for an update, I had to go and pay and download Microsoft 2010, and I lost the first edition of the chapter. So I had to hurry and re-do it. I'm not gonna lie, I hate the way this chapter came out, but I'm not gonna re try it again, so here it is. I promise the next chapter will be better~

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He paced around the room, reality slapping him in the face like a bitch. There was absolutely nothing he could do to stop what was happening, if he even tried he was sure that Grimmjow would harm someone close to him. He felt so weak, so helpless, all his life he had a decision, a choice, and now it was all being ripped away from him.

There wouldn't be any getting up in the morning to the smell of Yuzu's bacon or pancakes. There wouldn't be any rants from Yoruichi about why you should always study before tests. There wouldn't be Renji to joke and make him laugh at the stupidest things. There wouldn't be Ishida to be a prick and know it all. There wouldn't be Rukia to midget around and put people in their place. There wouldn't be Chad to just be there. There wouldn't be Orihime to brighten his day with a smile. There would only be himself.

It was against his will, Grimmjow was stronger, and Grimmjow could kill all of his friends and get away with it. There was nothing he could; he had to go with the blue haired vampire. It was horrible, a horrible way to disappear, a horrible life set out for him, so why did he want to go with the man so much?

Ichigo gripped at the blue rose tightly, blood trickled from the palm of his hand and dripped to the floor, mixing with the tears that fell from his sorrow filled eyes.

~XXX~

"Never knew ya had it in ya Grimmy!" a very tall, slinky man cackled, smiling a piano tooth smile. Grimmjow scowled and flipped the taller man off, walking past him in agitation "D'aaaaaw whats the matter, didja little human go and reject ya?"

"None of yer damn business" Grimmjow grumbled heading for the large staircase in the poorly lit room.

"Well Ichigo didn't really like things being forced upon him" Shiro smirked.

"Oh no he enjoyed it, in fact he even asked me not leave, but unfortunately I haven't slept in a while so I'm going to go take a nap for the big shebang tonight" Grimmjow snorted, giving a large smile before ascending up the stairs. Shiro snarled and went to go after the man but a hand gripped at his shoulder and pulled him back.

"Mah mah calm down Shiro, think of the bright side, the silver lining, you'll get to be reunited with yer brother!" a fox like man said, his silver hair shading his face lightly.

"I'de rather not drag him into this hell of a life" Shiro growled back, jerking away from the man and walking off.

"Give him time Gin, I'm sure he will come around once his brother gets here" Harribel, a blonde haired vampire with an enormous bust suggested with a little shrug of her shoulders.

"I suppose your right" Gin replied with a sly smile, he cracked his eyes blue orbs flashing "So what do you think his brother is like? If he is fated with someone as brute as Grimmjow then he must be quite the monster"

"Tck if he is anything like Shiro then he will only be another pain in my ass" Nnoitra, the slinky man, said, brushing his long black bangs out of his face. Gin chuckled lightly and sauntered off after his lover.

~XXX~

"What is it?" Ichigo asked, eyeing the small key chain charm his father had tossed to him. They were in the clinic, his father had just finished cleaning and wrapping up Ichigo's hand.

"It's a lucky charm, your mother had given it to me way back in the day. Right now it seems like you need it more than I do, just don't lose it" Isshin answered, a small smile tugging at his lips at the memory of his wife.

"T-thanks" Ichigo stuttered, fiddling with the small trinket.

"What's wrong?" Isshin questioned, quirking an brow eyebrow at his son's odd behavior.

"Nothing, just thinking" Ichigo said examining his now bandaged hand in disgust.

"You know Ichigo….I'm always here for you" Isshin started, gazing down at the floor gloomy. Ichigo swallowed around the lump building in his throat and looked back at his father. His dad had always kept his distance, letting Shiro or his mother deal with him, he never could have 'connected' with his son, but now Ichigo was one of the only things he had left, everyone disappearing from his life so suddenly. He just couldn't lose Ichigo.

"I-I know dad, e-everything is fine r-really…" Ichigo reassured, trying his best at a smile.

"It's not fine!" Isshin broke out; he glared up at Ichigo "You're not fine! Quit saying that! Quit bearing along with everything, you're just a teenager; you can't handle all of this Ichigo! Quit pretending it's alright, I'm you father for fucks sake! Quit pushing me away like I'm some piece of trash!"

"D-dad everything is ok I just had a moment…really" Ichigo tried again, Isshin scowled and raised his hand before bringing it back across his son's face. Ichigo felt red hot pain scorch through his cheek, he raised his good hand to the red skin and rubbed at it, staring at his father in bewilderment.

"You come to me after blacking out in a storm, a storm for the whole night, with aq bloodied hand, blood caked around it, asking for me to patch you up, saying everything is fine? I'm your god damn father! Do you think after living with you for your whole life that I can't tell when my own damn son is lying to me?" Isshin ranted, a scowl bigger than Ichigo across his face.

"S-sorry, I'm so s-s-sorry" Ichigo muttered, he gazed down at the tiled floor , he didn't have to raise his hand further to know tears were beginning to spill from his eyes. Hurt flashed across Isshin's face, he gripped Ichigo's shoulder and pulled him against his chest tightly, enveloping his son in a hug.

Ichigo buried his face in his father's shirt and let loose, racketing sobs erupted from him as a mixture of tears and snot dripped on Isshin. Isshin held his son close to him, not minding the mess collecting on his shirt and rocked back and forth.

"I'm so sorry…" Ichigo kept repeating it over and over, as if trying to make up for it all.

"It's ok Ichigo, calm down" Isshin cooed, trying his best at calming his son down. They sat like that for what felt like an eternity, Ichigo's body huddled against Isshin's as they sat on the tiled floor of the clinic's room.

"M sorry" Ichigo repeated rubbing his nose against his father shirt and backing off, rubbing at his eyes with his arm.

"I'm sorry I hit you…" Ishhin apologized releasing his son from his grip and pulling at his shirt in distaste.

"G-gomen" Ichigo laughed.

"It's not funny!" Isshin laughed, punching Ichigo lightly in his shoulder "Ya hungry?"

"No" Ichigo's stomach growled loudly "Okay yeah…"

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"Tck fucking goddamn bastard" Shiro growled, kicking harshly at a stone nearby, it went flying from the impact and thudded against a nearby tree.

"Mah mah what did that tree do to you?" Gin grinned coming up beside Shiro.

"Why the hell does it have to be Ichigo?" Shiro asked ignoring the question "Why can't Aizen just tell that bastard to back off and go fuck one of his whores"

"Y'know Aizen, he wouldn't get off my ass cause ah you, once an ass always an ass" Gin replied, stuffing his hands in his jeans.

"He is just gonna use him! He is an asshole; we all know that, almost everyone here is an asshole!" Shiro said, kicking another rock.

"Well that's not fer us to get involved in, it's not are decision and you know it"

"The least you could do is try to calm me down ya asshole"

"You know I ain't like that Shi"

"Tck, dick"

"Love you too"

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Anybody, anybody could be one of them. Ichigo glanced around frantically as he walked beside his father. Face after face, man after man, woman after woman. Anybody could be one, he couldn't trust them, and they all could be one of them.

"Ichigo is something wrong?" Rukia asked.

"Y-yeah just a lot of people here" Ichigo lied.

"Suddenly Closter phobic?" Ishida inquired, pushing his glasses up his nose.

"Meh he spent a whole night out in a storm, I'd be pretty freaked out too ya know" Renji laughed "So whats the occasion, ya usually hate the skating rink"

"Just kinda felt like skating, Yuzu and Karin should be there" Ichigo said, walking with his friends to the large newly opened rink.

"This is so sweet of you Kurosaki-kun!" Orihime giggled, walking with a slight bounce to her step.

"It's the least I could do before-" Ichigo cut himself off, and shook his head, remembering Grimmjow's warning.

"Before?" Ishida narrowed his eyes at Ichigo in question.

"Before winter break, it's so close and me and my dad are planning on taking Yuzu and Karin to the mountains for a small vacation" Ichigo rushed out, too fast, Ishida stared out Ichigo quizzically.

"I'm so glad that you're doing this for us Ichigo!" Orihime chided "We haven't hung out since….since Shiro left"

"Yeah" Ichigo sighed.

"Ichi-nii! Over here!" Yuzu yelled, holding onto her elder sisters arm for support as she attempted to skate over to her elder brother. Ichigo grinned and kicked off his shoes at the table him and his father had pre-ordered. It was going to be a good day, it had to be, he had to make it last. And it was. They skated till dusk fell, till the stars came out. They all laughed when Isshin feel multiple times. They helped each other out and had fun. It was a day full of laughter, full of smiles and a day to remember. Ichigo wanted them to remember this day; it was after all, their last day with him.

And now here he was, in his bed facing the ceiling. He was still fully dressed, his hair a mess as it always was and his nose pink from how cold it had been. He had laid there waiting for everyone to fall asleep, he had to go. It wasn't a choice or anything like that; he had no choice in this matter. It was either go, or be token and risk your friends getting hurt.

Ichigo slipped out of his room with ease and headed for the front door, he gripped the charm his father had given him in his hand and headed out into the brisk winter night. But a voice startled him.

"Kurosaki-kun" , Ichigo nearly screamed out, he turned to the person and his eyes growing wide.

"Orihime, w-what are you doing here?" Ichigo whispered.

"Ah! I didn't mean to scare you but… you seemed really sad today and you haven't visited Shiro's spot yet… so I knew you would come out and, and, are you leaving?" Orihime rushed out. No secret that she had always liked Ichigo, anybody could tell by the way she gazed at him. Ichigo felt guilt burrow inside his stomach as her eyes shined with tears threatening to spill. But he couldn't let her get hurt, he wouldn't allow it.

"Leaving where to?" Ichigo laughed bitterly, his mouth burned with the utter shit he spewed from it, like acid.

"Oh its just that early felt more like a goodbye than anything, and Ishida-kun was so worried too, so I- Ah! Well I guess since I was wrong, I'll just go! I feel so stupid now!" Orihime laughed, but Ichigo could tell she was worried. She turned to leave but Ichigo grabbed her arm.

"Wait…Orihime" Ichigo found himself saying.

"Y-yes K-kurosaki-kun?" Orihime stuttered a blush creeping upon her face.

"I didn't mean to worry you, and I'm sorry…" Ichigo whispered pulling her into a deep hug.

"Its ok Kurosaki-kun, theres nothing to be sorry about!" Orhime replied hugging him back softly.

Ichigo pulled back and gazed into her eyes softly, she was so worried, it was the last time he would see her. She had stayed out in the cold waiting for him, for him. Ichigo leaned forward and pressed his lips against her sweetly. It was a cold bitter kiss, it burned Ichigo to be doing such a thing with her, his body involuntarily jerked away from the beaming red orange head.

"I-I'm sorry..I can't …..i-I have somewhere to be" the words tumbled out of his mouth like fire, and they hit Orihime like ice, her face consorted in hurt. It hurt him but he felt his body moving on a will of its own, moving towards the place. He couldn't control it, he couldn't help it. It hurt to touch someone else. He needed his touch.

He was standing there, a dark scowl on his face as Ichigo approached him. Ichigo fell to his knees by Grimmjows feet, panting heavily and his face consorted in pain.

"Give me one reason why I shouldn't rape and kill the bitch in front of you" Grimmjow growled dryly "And it better be a damn good reason"

"I did it so she could remember me" Ichigo scowled, glaring up at Grimmjow in hate.

"Awww whats with the look kitten, ya miss me?" Grimmjow snickered.

"S-shut up… I did what you wanted now make it stop" Ichigo pleaded, gripping lightly at his chest where the throbbing pain pounded. Grimmjow growled lowly and deeply in his throat.

"Don't tell me what to do human, it might be the last thing you do" Grimmjow warned.

"P-please" Ichigo pleaded once more, his skin heated and bubbling for just one touch by the blue haired vampire.

"Since you asked nicely" Grimmjow muttered, leaning down and tracing Ichigo's warm cheeks with his cold hand. Ichigo leaned into the touch and inhaled deeply, the scent of roses filling his senses.

"Hmmmm as much as I would love to stand here and watch you loll around at my hands, we have to get back Lord Aizen will worry if I don't come home soon" Grimmjow stated.

"Mmm too tired to move" Ichigo groaned, sleep trying to take over him.

"Tck damn humans" Grimmjow said under his breath as he lifted the surprised Ichigo from the ground bridal style "just close yer damn eyes and if you start snoring I'm dropping yer ass got it?"

"Mhm" Ichigo moaned, snuggling against Grimmjow's chest as his presence seemed to wrap a warm tight blanket over his body, it felt so good but it was wrong.

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Grimmjow was far beyond annoyed; he had a warm pulsing thing pressed up against his chest snoring as loud as it fucking could, not to mention that he was going to have to introduce the thing to his 'family'.

Grimmjow frowned and settled down on the cement covered ground, he trudged up slowly to the large mansion doors, one of Aizen's ghouls bowing and opening the doors for him. He scowled and hissed at them through his teeth.

"Must you be so rude to them?" Aizen inquired, staring at the human in his arms curiously.

"They are dumb ass robots that do your biding at te click of a finger, I have every right to be as rude to them as I can" Grimmjow remarked, dumping Ichigo's sleeping body on the floor in distaste. Ichigo woke as soon as his head thudded, none to gently, against the perfectly waxed floor.

"Asshole!" Ichigo scowled, glowering at Grimmjow. Grimmjow grinned animalistically and laughed loudly.

"My, my what a charmer" Aizen joked, or tried. Ichigo flushed crimson and turned at the new voice, many pairs of eyes meeting his honey brown ones.

"W-what" Ichigo stuttered scooting back and away from the curios eyes.

"Welcome Kurosaki Ichigo to my family" Aizen greeted with a small smile. Ichigo glanced around and back up at the brown haired leader.

"Pretty fucked up family" Ichigo choked out. Aizen narrowed his eyes at Ichigo.

"You need to learn to watch that mouth of yours boy, not even five minutes here and you've already set a lovely example" Aizen said sourly.

"Not like I want to be here by choice" Ichigo retorted, ignoring the scowls pointed at him.

"Mah mah can't we all just get along with him?" Gin grinned holding out a hand to Ichigo. Ichigo eyed the hand warily but took it and let the silver haired man help him up.

"Who'er you" Ichigo asked cautiously, Gin held his hands up in the air innocently in response.

"Leave em alone Gin" Grimmjow snarled grabbing Ichigo's shoulder and jerking him back by his side.

"Jeez, touchy so soon?" Gin smirked.

"Shut up, Ichigo we are leaving" Grimmjow ordered. Ichigo dumbly followed, too tired to care, he felt like he had to follow everything Grimmjow would say top him. It was stupid really, but he couldn't help it, he had to.

"What the hell, hes like some kind of dog!" Shiro yelled flailing his arms at Gin dramatically.

"You were like that too ya know. You used to be all 'Gin Sama~!' I miss it when ya were like that, when I could scare ya" Gin smirked at the memory.

"tck" Shiro blushed softly.

"Bleck" Nnoitra frowned.

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