A/N: Hey, guys! I'm at home sick today so I decided to go ahead and do some writing since I've been keeping you all waiting forever. Hope you can forgive me! I may do one or two more chapters today as well. Enjoy!
DISCLAIMER: I do not own Austin & Ally, nor am I associated with Austin & Ally.
I step into the dorm, head down, afraid to make eye contact with her and ashamed for throwing my feelings in her face this soon. I realize I've probably turned her away from me at this point, and Dez has knocked some sense into me. I've done all the wrong things and the only person I can blame for her distance at this point is myself. I have to try a different approach.
I sit back down where I was. She has continued the movement of scraping her foot across the floor in my absence. She won't look at me, so I clear my throat. She gives in and I meet her eyes, dark brown and beautiful. She is so beautiful.
"I'm sorry." I say, to go ahead and get that out of the way. I feel like I'm apologizing for more than just telling her I love her five minutes ago. It's a lot more than that.
She shrugs, but doesn't say anything. I don't want to have to force her to talk but she hasn't said a word to me the whole time she's been here. I decide that maybe it's me that needs to do the talking first.
"I'm Austin Moon, I'm twenty years old. I come from a wealthy family and I was a teachers' pet in high school. Everyone loved me. When I got to college I went crazy. I started partying. I drank, I smoked, I slept with more girls than I can count. I hated my roomate, you've already met him. His name is Dez. My sophomore year I had a dream one night that would end up changing my life forever... I would never go back and change that for the world. Now I'm a different person. I'm no longer Austin Moon, likeable rich kid. I'm not Austin Moon, crazed college kid. Hell, I'm not even my favorite version of myself: Austin Moon, hopelessly in love with the girl that loves me. Now I'm Austin Moon, hopelessly in love with the girl that loved me..." My voice cracks, and I take a moment to compose myself and run a hand through my hair. "I know you don't understand, and to be honest I'm not sure that you ever will. I know that you're probably confused and a little bit frightened or weirded out by me, but you have to understand one thing, Ally: I truly do love you. I will not impose my love on you, and I will not force you to try and believe me. However, I will wait for you until the end of time if that's what it takes. If you ever start to wonder what happened, or what is happening, I will be here. And if you want, we can start now. We can sit right here in this shitty dorm and I will tell you every single detail, from what I know and from what you've told me before, about us. And if you don't want to, that is fine. Like I said, I'll wait. Just tell me the word and I'll let you leave right now. It's totally up to you."
I'm a little bit surprised when I see the corner of her mouth twitch into a small smile. "Alright." She says, the first thing I've heard her say in what seems like forever. Alright. I don't know that I'll ever be able to get the sound of her voice out of my head.
But what does that mean?
"Alright?" I asked tentatively. I needed more explanation.
"I mean... From what I've heard from everyone else you're most definitely telling the truth about all of this," she sighs, "so I guess the least I could do is listen to what you have to say about all of this. And maybe some day I can understand what has happened to me, but I think for right now I just need to sit back and listen. You know?" I can't help but smile. I felt a warmth in my heart that had been absent in the past few days. "So I'll stay a little while. You may want to go get Dez and bring him in here, he probably doesn't want to sit out in the hall forever."
I hope up and open the door slowly. Dez expects to see Ally, so I can see the look of surprise on his face when his eyes meet mine. "Come on in, it may be a while." I tell him. He just smiles.
Once back inside, all of us seated, I put my hands together and move them up and down for effect. "So," I say, "where do we begin?"
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