Again, I left this one mostly intact with just an added sentence that was written after this was originally uploaded.
So this is the chapter I was more worried about people reading. . . I kinda just wrote it. . . like randomly. . . And then when I read it i was like "What the hell?" And I when I sent it to my friend she said she didn't really get it either so i don't know. But I figured I could put it on here. The second part is really small but it's the beginning of the kinda explanation of the weird part. So tell me what you think! I hope you like it. I kinda do but it came from my head and I know exactly what I was trying to say so I must admit I am rather bias. So love you all and thanks for reading! Enjoy :3
It's dark, but you feel like you're being blinded by the light. You feel the sting of tears, the sting of pain and betrayal. You feel the sting of love and the sting of hate. You know it must be done. It's tearing you apart at the seams.
Box after box you fill until you have one box filled. It feels like you have been there for eternity. The silence in the room is deafening. The emptiness is crushing. You throw away the last of it, but it is not the end. You feel the tears finally falling, crashing down your face. You are finally grieving. You are finally as free as you can ever hope to be.
You're heart has been torn out and thrown away, discarded and disregarded. You must put the pieces back together.
You have been left with a heart only partially dead and with the will to rebuild. You can survive. You will be strong. You will move on and be as happy as you can be.
You are alive.
She turned the water on and rinsed her face off, scrubbing under her eyes to get the mascara and eyeliner that had started to run. He still had such an affect on her even after he was gone. Even after he had done what he did to her and to Ash.
"Why do I still love him?" she whispered, squeezing her eyes shut so she didn't have to see the relatively small box that contained everything she had left of Nicolas Gautier. It was only a few articles of clothing, one pair of shoes, and a pearl necklace, a pair of real silver earrings, her favorite book, and a stuffed aardvark. Things Nick had left at her apartment and things he had given to her. The only objects left in the physical world proving that he had ever existed in her's. And she was going to get rid of them.
What do you think? Please please please tell me! If it's absolutely terrible or just mildly terrible then I will take I off I SWEAR lol. So tell me whatever you think about it. If you like it/dislike it/don't get it/do get it/hate it/are indifferent towards it/want to destroy it and forget it ever existed, tell me. All input is welcome! Just be as kind as possible. . . lol. Thank you!
