Don't choke on the bone fragments.

Chapter 2.

Disclaimer: Shonda Rhymes and all the other fabulous writers.

"Karev! I want those lab results yesterday! Could you please go to the lab and ask how much longer it's going to take?" Addison yelled at her inter for that day. "And wash that smile of your face, I'm really not in the mood" She snapped at him again. She still fell miserable after the elevator incident that morning. And she had always been crabby when she was hung-over, today was no exception.

Approaching the nurses station, she noticed a tall red-headed figure seated in the waiting area. The woman was about half way in her forties, She looked absolutely stunning. Her chestnut-Braun hair was cut slightly under her jaw, she was wearing a blue jeans with paint stains on it her torso was covered with a large green blouse, accented with a black belt that was tided very tight around her middle. Her shoes were, simple but elegant, four inch heels. She looked casual and relaxed. Addison walked towards her, at the sound of her clicking heels the woman's head shot up. She rose from her chair and opened her arms. "Jaz! Long time no see!" Addison grimaced at the nick-name but her face lit up again as she hugged her back. "I've missed you two, Sisi!" The two women stared in to each others eyes, an arm length between them.

Addison broke away first. "I've to check on some patients and make sure my intern hasn't angered the laboury-moms, and then I off to lunch, wanna join?" The other woman nodded. "sounds great"

"ok, I'll see you in", she checks her watch, "thirty minutes?" Addison suggested. Again a nod. Addison started walking away towards the nurses station but then stopped for a second, "I'm serious Elinor, I missed my big sister!" she calls over her shoulder. Elinor laughs and replies; "well of course, although I didn't miss you, you have always been a pain in my ass, lil sis" she winks and watches Addison disappear in the crowed of doctors and nurses.

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Addison sat down in a chair across from Elinor, who was sipping her coffee while reading a newspaper. "Hi, SiSi" Addison took a bite from her salad and warmed her hands, folding them around her teacup. Elinor looked up "I thought you didn't like the nick-names? Especially at work?" Addison ignored her "Tel me El, why are you here? Where are David and Lesley?" Elinor sighted "David is in France for business an Les is at the hotel, in bed, occupied with four DVD-boxes of Sex and the city, so I could come here and talk to my little sister who, so I've heard, is going trough a divorce!" Addison's smile faded "you heard about that?" Elinor raised an eyebrow "of course I did!, even mom called me after thirteen years of silent treatment!" Addison gave her a worried look "are you ok SiSi?"

"Yes"

"You sure?"

"YES"

"Really?"

"Addison, stop it!"

"All right"

"How about you and Derek?"

"I don't want to talk about it"

A silence fell between the two of them.

"Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd?" Izzie Stevens Interrupted the silence.

"It's just Montgomery, Stevens" Addison told her annoyed.

"Oh! I'm sorry! Dr. Montgomery, It's just that Alex told me about Mrs. Dickens, she in room 10564. pregnant with triplets, two of them conjoined at their heads, and he, Alex, I mean Dr. Karev said that you said you'd need another pair of hands, so I hoped that-?" the intern stopped her rambling.

"You want to work with me again after the quintuplets?" Addison questioned amused.

"Yes, please"

"I'd be honoured to have you, Stevens"

"Really? Oh and thank you!" Izzie's face began to glow, an happy smile formed on her lips.

"you're welc-" Addison answered, but Izzie had already disappeared to the interns-table. She turned back to Elinor, who had an amused smile on her lips and a twinkle in her eyes. "What!?" Addison questioned.

"I have no idea what the two of you were talking about but to see my little sister so, she searched for the right word, teaching-motherly-kin-dah-bossy, that's just-"

"Oh, shut up SiSi!" Addison grinned.

"No, really, why didn't you and Derek have another kid? You'd be an amazing mom and Derek would've made a wonderful dad" Addison's smile fell, tears began to form in her eyes.

"I guess we were never ready" she paused for a moment and forced a confident smile "Don't you think it's a little late to think about that now?"

"Don't you regret it?"

"Stop it Elinor!" Addison sat back in her chair, she stared at the interns-table, they where all laughing and eating, Christina van raising dollar billets from the others, she noticed that the other four were all looking at her now. She quickly turned her head back to her salad.

"I mean, you two were perfect for each other and-" her sister was still talking about her and Derek.

"You don't know everything, Eli!" Addison suddenly spat.

"I know about the affair; he ignored you for almost two years, before you decided to get his attention by sleeping with his best friend!"

"There is more, and it is between me and Derek!"

"Oh, come on!" Elinor hissed "don't go all mystery-woman on me!"

Addison shook her head "I'm not, I'm just not that desperate, that I'm going to reveal my all my deepest feelings and secrets in the middle of the hospital, with my husband's girlfriend twenty feet away, so my annoying sister isn't bored to death because her husband practically lives in Europe, because of the amount of business trips he thinks are more interested than his family!" At the end of her tirade Addison was yelling. She felt the whole cafeteria stare at her.

Elinor looked at her with a surprised expression. Addison gathered her things and started to walk away but Elinor's voice stopped her; "You've made mistakes, Jazless, we all have, but you are to decide how to deal with them! Not Derek, not Mom but YOU Adds!" She smiled a sad smile and continued; " You should enjoy your life again Addie, Don't dwell on the past! We all know that what happened to Lars broke you and Derek, it ripped you apart! But the two of you never tried to repair it! Never tried AGAIN, YOU GAVE UP!" Elinor Yelled as she rose from her chair.

Addison gave her a look of disgust, why in the name of god, Couldn't her sister understand? She has always been a very private person, she didn't want the whole hospital to know about her dead son! "You, Elinor, have absolutely no clue of what you're saying! We didn't want another one! We wanted him to stay with us, if not physically, we kept him with us in our heads, in our dreams and in our hopes! And THAT was just to precious for me to replace with another one! After a long time we got finally ready, we were! I got pregnant and he got absent, I didn't want to raise a baby alone! Luckily for me I didn't have to, because I lost it when I fell and there was like every-freaking-day no body home to help me!" Hot tears rushed down her cheeks.

A dead silence fell.

Addison Forbes Montgomery had just told the whole hospital about her past.

She opened her eyes and looked to her left, a pair of piercing blue eyes observed her with a mix of love, loss, pity and disgust.

She couldn't look him in the eye. Suddenly she turned and rushed out of the cafeteria.

For the second time that day Addison found herself throwing up in a supply-closet.

Unable to breathe.

Unable to move.

She was broken…