Sorry for the lack of updates! I have been busy. I am so so sorry.

Its dark and cold. I have no idea where I am. I see a figure standing at the end of the road. He keeps staring at me. Once I realise who it is. I begin to run. I didn't know where but I ran. Not many people were out. I ran to Waterloo road. The only place I knew I was safe at but I saw the gates were locked so I was trapped in a corner. Dad had something hidden behind his back he lifted it. It was a knife. I screamed when he stabbed me.

I woke up sweating and heavily breathing. I saw that it was only 1:30am I lay awake for 10 more minutes and got a drink of water. I heard footsteps. I saw Lexi standing there with her teddy bear.

"London, what's wrong." She asks.

"Nothing! I just wasn't feeling well." I lie.

"Will you come and sleep with me?" She asks.

"Yeah! Come on then." I say.

I picked her up and put her on my hip. I walked upstairs to my bedroom. I placed her beside me and we both feel asleep.

Next morning:

I woke up to my aunt shaking me saying that I need to get changed. I ran around to get my things. I got changed and went to school. I saw Emily and Denzil sitting under the tree.

"Hey! My two troublesome friends. I'm in for today but I'm not tomorrow for my part the exclusion. So how are you two?" I say.

"We're fine. Miss Mason want you. Because your case workers here." Denzil says.

"Great what I need?" I say. "See you two later."

"Bye!" They shout.

I walk over to the building and saw Miss Mason.

"Here you are. Let's go and see your case worker." She says.

I follow her up to the rooms

We walked to pastrol care. I saw my case worker sitting there with my folder. She also is sat there with loads of paper. When finished with it.

"I'm getting sick of this I want to see my mum." I say.

"Sorry, that's just not going to be possible until after the trail. Not with you being a witness." She says.

"Great! So I stuck up for my mum and I don't get to see her or I don't bother and I can visit her while she rots." I say.

"I'm afraid that's pretty much!" She says.

"London what you have too remember is that giving evidence you could be helping your mums case." Miss Mason says.

"Yeah at least she's coming home soon." I say.

"London I have to tell you. You many have to get yourself ready for the worse." The case worker says

"What's that suppose to mean?" I ask.

"You say your mum lashed out at your dad because he was hitting her." She says.

"That's because he was." I argue back.

"When your mum was examined after she was arrested she didn't have any injuries." She says.

"So? He was smart. He always hit her were it didn't show." I say.

"London! There's no record of your dad being violent. Your mum never saw treatment for injuries or going to the police." She says.

"Surely that's not unusual." Miss Mason ask.

"No it's not! But with pleading probability we can't do that in his." The case worker says.

"So what your saying is that I'm lying." I say.

"I'm not but when your on the stand." She tries to explain.

"But I saw him do it 100s and 100s of times." I say

"But Jasmine didn't. In her statement after your fathers death she says your mum and dad were happy together. She didn't mention any violence." She says.

"It doesn't matter what Jasmine says. It's me who is going to get called." I say

"It matters cause we are arguing that your mother killed your father because she reacted in that moment to an danger threat to her life." She says. "The prosecution are going to do everything in their power to prove that isn't true. Even if that means calling your little sister Jasmine. If Jasmine goes in that box your mother doesn't have a chance." She continues.

"So! What you saying is she might not get off." I ask.

"Not unless there's anything else you can think of." She says.

I want to tell them about what dad did but I couldn't. So I sat there for a minute and I said

"No! Nothing! Am I done." I ask Miss Mason.

"Go on! I'll catch you up later!" She says.

I grab my bag and walk out the room. I walk to English. I walked in and sat next to Emily and Denzil.

"Hey what's up. The stupid case worker and Miss Mason. Saying I'm a liar." I say lying my head on the desk.

When we went for break Bianka, Em, Denzil, Michaela, Danielle, Alesha, Karla, Lindsay, Sam, Lauren, Paul, Bolton and Michael were with me at the lockers.

"What did Mason want you for?" Bianka asks.

"Nothing!" I say.

Shoving stuff into the locker.

"I'm beginning to think Amy is right about you. Just as bad as your mum." She says.

I grab her and throw her against the lockers.

"Shut up about her. Alright."

"Okay!" She replies scared

"Ok get off her." I hear Mr Clarkson shout.

I did. Michaela tried to explain what Bianka said to me. It didn't work.

"Get to the cooler now!" He says.

I walk to the cooler. I run the upstairs crying. When I got there I slammed the door to the cooler. I sat on a sit not far away from the window. I broke down into tears. I just can't cope anymore.

10 minutes later:

Mason comes in.

"Can have just a few words?" She asks.

"Yeah." He replies.

She walks over to my desk.

"Okay! Talk to me. London! I do understand that your having a rough time at the moment but that does not mean you have to lash out at people. I can't not have violence in this school do you understand." She says.

"Sorry." I say in a low voice.

"What's? What happened? We're upset about what the solicitor said this morning. I'm here to help. I'm on your side." She bends down to look at me. "Don't push me away London. Right now your losing allies on the playground and in the staff room." She says.

"Anything else." I say looking at her with an annoyed look.

"Take a bit of time to get yourself calm. Then I want you to go back to class. If in future you want to lash out I want you to remove yourself from the suitation (can't spell sorry) or come and see me. Okay." She says.

I sit there looking straight ahead.

Later on:

I see Miss Mason. She comes over.

"London, can I have a word please?" She asks.

I follow her to the art classroom.

"You not got anything else to do?" I ask being sarcastic.

"Not at the minute I haven't." She says.

"I told ya. I don't know anything else that happened that day." I say.

"Actually that's not the reason why but since you brought it up. I have been wondering if you would like me to tell Jasmine if her being called up as a witness or would you like to tell her yourself." She says.

"No one is going to tell her because it's not going to happen." I say getting really pissed off.

"That isn't what the case work thinks and I think Jasmine needs to be ready for it." She says.

I stay quiet before asking.

"Why did you want to see me?" I ask.

"To tell you that you can talk to me that you don't have to keep it bottled up." She says.

"Who says I am?" I ask.

"I spoke to Lexi this morning on her way to school. She told me you don't want to talk about your dad. Now I understand how hard it is to lose someone. Even not under real circumstances. But to shut down your feelings like this it just makes things harder." She says.

She was getting close to finding out.

"I'm fine." I say.

"And it makes it hard for Lexi too." She says.

"How?" I say.

"Because she needs to know your there for her London. I just think if you could be honest about your real feelings." She says.

Now I'm really pissed off. How can she not know I'm the one whose raised Lexi. I'm the one who would always feed her and get her ready. Same with Jasmine.

"Shut up!" I shout.

"What?" Miss asks.

"Just shut up about her. I'm sick it. Lexi this. Lexi that. Don't you think I know what's best for my OWN sister." I shout.

"I didn't say that." She says.

"And don't ever tell me how to bring them up that's all I have ever. You don't know nothing. You don't crap." I shout.

I grab my bag and coat. I storm out of the room.

"London!" She shouts.

"Get off my case!" I shout back.

"Hey what's going on." Mr Tyler shouts.

"Keep her away from me she's doing my head in." I shout.

"London. Get back here." Miss Mason shouts.

I was sitting under the tree looking about I seen Lindsay, Michaela, Emily, Sam, Denzil, Lauren, Bolton, Paul, Danielle, Alesha and Karla walking out of school. I just sat there staring at the school doors. Another 10 minutes past when I see Miss Mason and Mr Mead walking down the stairs. Miss Mason came down and meet me.

"What's this a sitting? Is that grass dry. Tell me?" She asks.

"It weren't just my mum he was hurting it was me as well. It started two months ago. When mum was out. He called it a game but it weren't. It didn't feel right. But I didn't know how to stop him." I say while playing with the grass.

"London, you don't have to tell me if you don't want to." She says.

"He told me not tell mum cause she'll hate me. He said she'll be jealous because he loved me more than her. It's all my fault." I say while crying.

"London this isn't your fault don't you ever think that." She says

"I-it is." I say sniffling

"It's okay. London it's going to be okay." She says.

"No it's not." I say while shaking my head.

She grabbed my hand and stood me up.

"How about I drop you off at your aunt's?" She asks.

I nod and follow her to the car. I get in and fasten my seatbelt. She got in and drove to the house. When we got there I grabbed my stuff undone my seatbelt and ran out the car into the house. Miss Mason went to the door and informed my aunt about I told her. I knew it was going to come out either way. I hung my jacket and school bag up. Lexi came up to me and I picked her up.

"Hi my little soldier. How was school today?" I ask her.

"It was fine apart from people asking if I'm alright after what happened with Daddy?" She says.

"It's alright to cry you know. Don't be ashamed of it. If you feel like crying come into my room or if you wake Aunt Jess up tell her you want me alright." I say.

"Okay. I missed you." She says.

"I missed you too." I say.

"London can I have a word?" I hear Aunt Jess shout.

"Yeah I won't be a minute." I say.

I put Lexi down on the sofa and I switched the TV on for her. I slowly made my way to the kitchen were aunt Jess was. I sat down the stool across from her.

"Miss Mason told me what you said to her. Why didn't you say anything, honey? We would always be there for you." She says.

"I didn't think you lot would believe me. And he told me not because Lexi would have got it as well. But not Jasmine. Why me? What did I do to deserve it?" I say while crying.

Aunt Jess makes her way around the table and cuddles me. I sit there sniffling and sobbing.

"Hey how about we make tea tonight? Me and you can bond again like we did when you were little." She says.

"Yeah!" I say.

We got the ingredients and we made meatballs and spaghetti. I made the meatballs while Jess did the Spaghetti. We both shouted on the girls. They both came through and sat with us. They kept telling us how good it was and how amazing it was. We kept on laughing and giggling. When it was time for bed I picked up Lexi and got her changed. I tucked her in and sung her 'starry night' I know it's a Christmas song but she likes it. When she was asleep I want to my room got changed and got into bed. I fell asleep as soon as my head touched the pillow.

Week after:

It's been a week since I got the truth out but the case worker thinks it still won't help my mum. I'm getting annoyed with it. I got changed and put my things on. I walked down stairs and grabbed my jacket and bag. I gave Lexi, Jess and Jasmine a kiss and cuddle then I made my way to school. I told Michaela, Emily, Sam, Lauren and Lindsay about what my dad done. So when I made my to the gate I took a deep breath and walked into the school.

"Hey London!" Lindsay says.

"How are you today?" Emily asks.

"I've been better." I say.

We all walk to the doors. Emily says

"Are you sure your going to be alright."

"I'm alright." I say.

"I wish you had told us sooner about your dad. We could of helped you." Michaela says.

"Look I'll get through this okay. With you guys by my side." I say.

"Yeah you will." They all say tackling me into a hug.

I walked up to Miss Masons office and sat outside. I see Mr Mead, Miss Campbell and Mr Tyler walk out. At the same time my case worker Alison walked in.

"Alison and London come in." Miss Mason says.

"So me and Alison spoke to your aunt and we'd like you to have some one to one with Miss Campbell. Before the trail and I can arrange it." Miss Mason says.

When we sit. I sat there thinking great torture.

"What like a shrink?" I say.

"It's just someone who you can talk things through with." She says.

"Look I don't want to talk about it anymore it's bad enough I've got to say it in court." I say.

"It won't be a matter of telling them. It will be a matter of proving it." Alison says.

"Yeah but the tests were all about right?" I ask.

"But it's been to long of a gap to prove it." Alison says.

"Look I'm not lying it happened." I say looking down at the table.

"London! We believe you." Miss Mason says. "But we need to be realistic." Miss Mason continues.

"We have to assume that the prosecution are going to accuse you of making it all up. To protect your mum. And we have to be ready for that." Alison says.

"So your saying we can't prove it?" I ask.

"There is way to think positively." Alison says.

"Yeah I know but I thought that saying what happened would get mum out for sure." I say.

"I know London. We gonna try our best we really will but it's not going to be easy and if we stay strong." She says.

"Can you stop saying we? It's me whose got to take it and I don't think I can cope anymore." I say grabbing me stuff and running out the room.

"London!" Miss Mason shouts.

I run out of the office and down the stairs. I ignored her shouts. I ran out of the building to the nearest park. I sat there for a couple of hours.