R.S.V.P. Part XV
As soon as EJ closed the door, he was hit.
By a pillow none the less, but the aim behind the throw was pretty good at it knocked him square on the jaw.
"Insufferable jackass," was the first words to greet him from Samantha as she immediately turned from him as she started to jerk her clothes on in a hurried fashion.
"Good morning to you too sweetheart," EJ began only to have Samantha reach for one of her shoes and it looked like she was thinking about using it as a boomerang and apparently he was in her sights. "Whoa, whoa, no shoe throwing please! The pillow was bad enough and it was soft."
Sami took the shoe and placed it on her foot instead hopping around on one foot as she attempted to find her other shoe to put it on also.
EJ thought he heard her mumble something else under her breath, but he wasn't quite sure he wanted to hear exactly what she said since it seemed to be bordering on the lines of some kind of bastard.
She found her other shoe and turned to face him trying to be calm, but failing miserably because her dress seemed to be falling off her body. With a grunt of frustration she walked up to him, turned her back and ordered, "The least you can do is zip me up."
For a brief second in time he considered doing just the opposite, but Samantha was a spitfire this morning and he was kind of afraid of what she would say or do if he suggested she just keep the dress off and for them to crawl back into bed.
Reluctantly he pulled up the zipper and her sweet skin was soon covered up, well as covered up as the form fitting evening dress had been last night which really didn't leave much to the imagination. Of their own volition his fingers rested on top of her shoulders until Samantha turned around to face him scowling all the while.
"You were going to leave me here without even saying goodbye," Sami accused and at least EJ had the good grace to hang his head in front of her and didn't deny it.
He looked back up at her and nodded his head and if Sami hadn't of been so upset with him she would have loved how incredibly handsome he looked this morning with his hair all askew and the scruff on his face even a tad bit scruffier than it had been last night. But she wasn't going to get sucked back into that handsome face, she was mad, EJ was going to up and leave her again and she still hadn't told him the truth.
"I thought it might be better if I just left," EJ started to explain only to have Sami shake her head in negation.
"Better for whom? You?"
"From the look upon your face right now I guess just me," EJ shrugged. "Samantha I just don't want us to make…"
"Oh yes, I recall distinctly now that you aren't trying to seduce me, I think the words you are searching for are empty promises because apparently that is all I am good for with you. Isn't it?"
"No, It's just that I've …"
"Moved on, searched for greener pastures and found them somewhere else outside of Salem?"
"It's not like that Samantha. I thought I was doing the right thing by leaving Salem. You chose Lucas. You told me you were having his children and for me to step aside because to put it plainly I was irrelevant."
Sami's face softened and she winced as she recalled the words she had spoken to him in anger.
"I fucked up. I didn't want to lose anyone. I never thought you would leave me even if I told you to go away because even when I was at my worst you always seemed to come back."
EJ took a step back from her almost as if he was afraid to look into her eyes. "I had no reason to stay. You wanted Lucas; you were thrilled I wasn't the father of your children. Why should I stick around to watch you have the life I wanted with you with a man I always thought was beneath you? You deserved so much better than him."
"Believe me I know that now," Sami gave a wry smile and took her fingertips to bring his face back up so that she could clearly see his beautiful hazel eyes. "I was scared EJ. I mean the way you made me feel wasn't something I could control. Even last night when I enjoyed our time together I tried to let you know that you make me feel like I'm losing control and then you kissed me again and here we are now with you wanting to leave me again."
"Why would you want me to stay? I've tried to find a new life. I thought that would make it easier if I wasn't around."
"I took the easy way out. I knew I could handle Lucas. Ever since we were kids I could bluster and bark to get my way with him. His love was easy. Lucas never consumed me. He didn't drive me crazy with want and need."
"And like that everything has changed? You've realized since I've been gone that Lucas wasn't the man for you and somehow I am? Why would I subject myself to this brand new type of torture from you now?" He shook his head slowly back and forth. "I've played this game before, Samantha. I'm the one who gets left out in the cold with no one while you go on your merry way and build a life without me. You told me you hated me that you despised me and my entire family and yet here you are..."
"Like I said before, I fucked up. I didn't know then what I know now."
"You have no idea how close I came to begging you for once more chance, but I knew it was futile. You loved Lucas, you were having his children." EJ smiled bitterly as he remembered how both she and Lucas had looked at him like he wasn't worth wiping their shoes upon, the triumph in their eyes after Nick had announced Lucas was the father of those babies he had wished were his own children with Samantha. He could still feel the stinging disappointment, the gaping hole in the middle of his chest she'd left behind when she ripped out his heart with her cruel words.
"I can't go back and change how I acted during that time, but I can take responsibility for my actions and now I can own up to the truth."
"What truth would that be Samantha or should I say what version of the truth do you want to give me before I leave Salem?"
She paused for a moment, trying to calm her nerves because even if EJ was going to leave Salem again, he needed to know the truth that he was the father of the twins. "I chose wrong, EJ and I've paid the price. I lost you and it's killing me. So before you go, you need to know that Nick was wrong. Lucas wasn't the father of my babies, you were, you are and you deserve the truth. I've tried to find you for a while, but each time I hit a dead end and of course my pride kept me from admitting all this as soon as I saw you last night."
As he let her words sink in, EJ tried to control his reaction. Surely what Samantha was saying wasn't true. He couldn't be the father of the twins. Oh my god, twins and he'd never even seen them. No wonder Anna had been so insistent he talk to Samantha before he left. What had Anna said something about her intuition?
"Does anyone know this? Am I really their father?"
"Lucas does, but he kept quiet mainly because he didn't want to pay child support for children who weren't his own. I didn't want anyone to know before you so I wouldn't utter a word not even to Stefano when I asked him time after time where you were. So you see my pride kept me from finding you, but deserved the truth even if you never want to see me again. I mean last night was amazing and you have no idea how it cut me when you said we were just discovering how it might have been between us if you weren't a DiMera. But EJ it doesn't matter what your last name is because I've tried to play that game to appease my family and it just sucks. I want you whether you're EJ Wells, EJ DiMera or whatever last name you want to go by."
EJ shook his head, had he missed almost the entire first year of his children's lives because he had felt the need to run away from his feelings for Samantha? He certainly hadn't seen this coming from Samantha. It was mind boggling, but he wanted to see them, wanted to see his children and if he hadn't fucked up too badly with her he wanted a chance with Samantha too.
"I understand if you don't want me…"
He cut her words off as he grabbed her up into a soul crushing hug and kiss.
Sami instantly clung to him, felt a smile growing on her lips when they finally parted.
"Can we go see the children?"
"Of course, you are going to love them. They are beautiful and smart and just simply amazing."
"I can't wait."
"Does this mean you might stay around in Salem? I mean not for me, but for them. They need their father in their lives."
"You don't want me in your life, just the children's?"
"No, I mean yes I want you, but I don't want you if you don't want me. I didn't tell you this so you'd feel all obligated…"
He cut her off with another kiss and was tempted to do more, but pulled away before he could take off her clothes again. "Does that answer your question? I'd like another chance to be in your life too, with the children."
She smiled and it was beautiful to see. "I may need more proof later, but let's go see our children right now."
EJ smiled in return and hugged her close, not believing his dreams of a family were going to come true. It might take some time, but for the first time in a long time he felt like he was going to have the life he always dreamed of and that was with Samantha Gene Brady.
The End.
