Book Two: Brady
Apologies
It was my fault.
Seth gave me a pitying look as the five of us wandered around the plaza.
I shouldn't have yelled at her.
We were looking for something that was already gone.
Why did I do this?
I found myself remembering every argument and every fight we've ever had.
Where was she?
I could feel the regret beginning to settle inside of me, and only two words ran through my head:
I'm sorry.
I buried my head in my hands as Seth went through our options. His voice seemed to just float around the room, and I found it impossible for me to focus on anything he said. One glance around the room showed that I wasn't the only person having this problem. It seemed that even Seth wasn't really paying attention to what he was saying.
"Isn't it obvious," I moaned causing Seth to pause midsentence. "We don't have options. They struck home with this one." Seth raised an eyebrow, and Nahuel nodded his head absentmindedly. "Our only option is to go to Volterra and confront the Volturi."
"Whoa," Seth threw his arms up in the air, and suddenly everyone in the room was paying attention to what was being said. "We can't just march into a vampire mafia and expect to win!"
"There's no other option," I argued. "Of course we can't win, but we don't have any chance of finding the Cullens or that other coven you went to when you ran away."
"You want us to walk to our death sentence! Brady you are the biggest little son of a–"
"Seth," I interrupted his rant. "Think about it. You said it yourself that none of the vampires' powers work on us anymore since we changed. We have a chance of winning."
"We could die." Seth pressed on completely ignoring my statement. "What's gonna happen to Aaron, Catalina, and Alex when we die?"
"I think we should go." Nahuel mumbled quietly. Seth sent him a look of disbelief while the girls began to fidget uncomfortably. "Brady is right; we have a good chance of winning."
"You are insane," Seth yelled. "You… you…" he threw his hands in the air unable to think of anything to call us.
I won't lie: I felt really satisfied right about there.
I grabbed Seth's arm as Nahuel and the girls were purchasing their tickets. He stared at me for a moment, but allowed me to drag him over to a somewhat empty corner of the train station. We stood their awkwardly for a moment while I fiddled with my jacket. He seemed to be growing impatient which only made it harder for me to find the right words to explain how I was feeling.
"Brady, what's going on?" Seth placed a hand on my shoulder, and I looked at him feeling suddenly guilty. "You can tell me anything. I'm going through exactly what you're going through."
I paused for another moment.
"I think," I swallowed nervously; "I know that there's something inside of me." Seth frowned as he looked at me. "After I went through the change, there's been something inside of my head that constantly urges me to do things that I know I shouldn't do. It's like every little thing makes me mad and that thing in my head is begging me to let it kill whatever it is that's making me mad. I guess that's why I've been so angry at Catalina. This thing is driving me insane."
Seth raised an eyebrow as if he was amused. "I have it too." He frowned a little bit. "I thought that it was me that was turning bad, but I think whatever it is that's talking to us is our inner wolf."
"Our inner wolf is talking to us?"
"Jake used to say that he could sometimes feel his wolf side talk to him. It's how when we fight each other we're able to do it so naturally. Our inner wolf guides us. But the syringe somehow changed our inner wolves to the point where they're more demonic."
I shifted uncomfortable. "How do we control it?"
"The thing is I don't think we can."
Sorry this took a while, but I had a lot of family over my house.
Review please!
~B
