Sorry I took so long to update here is the third chapter
I own nothing all belongs to Stephanie Meyers
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EPOV
Watching Bella sleep has always been one of my favorite things to do. I was going to miss it once she was changed along with other things. Her blush, her clumsiness, and most of all her hart beat; the things that make her human. When I change her that will all be taken away, she will no longer be human; she will no longer have a soul.
I can't do it. I wont I will not take her life away. I will not be the one that takes her from the land of the living. Just to be cursed to live with the monsters of the night. To damn her soul, and take away any chance she has to go to heaven. With that decision I ran down stairs. My family was sitting around the family room doing their own thing when I ran in. They all looked at me with curiosity in their eyes.
"I need to talk to you about Bella." I told them in the clammiest voice I could muster.
"What about her?" Carlisle asked.
"I am no longer going to change Bella." I told them firmly.
"Why not, I thought that is what she wanted, did she change her mind?" Esme asked.
"No I did. I will not take her life away." My family looked at me in shock.
"Edward you can't do that to Bella think of her and all she has been through for you. This is her decision and if you won't change her I will. I keep my promises." Carlisle told me sternly
"I will not change her or allow any of you to change her!" I yelled.
"Edward, think of bell…." Alice started but stopped abruptly she was looking at something behind me and in her mind she jest kept saying crap over and over again. I followed her eyes to see Bella standing behind me how did I not hear or smell her. Her face look like she was in pain and I knew why, she heard what I said and knew I was planning on breaking my promise.
"Bella, Love" my voice was filed with shock, "I thought you were sleeping." I watched her face go from pain to anger I a matter of seconds.
"O, because I was sleeping it is okay for you to plan on breaking your promise. Is that how it works?" I opened my mouth to reply but she held up her hand stopping me from my attempt to explain.
"Do you have any ideas how much I have gone throw lately for you? You try being an 18 year old high school student girl, engaged. Having people talking about you, saying things about some thing they don't under stand. Do you know how many times people have asked me if I was pregnant? Do you? Or do you know what it is like to be the butt of people's jokes?
But it was all okay, I did not mind much because it was all for you! I was giving you the only thing I could and I gave if full heartedly. Why? Because I love you, with all that was in me. If marring you helped you fill better about changing me then I would do it full hearted with out a second of a doubt. And it was because you asked me to, but not any more! I can't take any more heart ache. I'm done! We are done!" I watched as she took off her ring and throw it at my face. I was so shocked that I let it hit me and fall to the ground I stood there frozen tell I herd her slam her truck door. I ran out side yelling for to stop. Seeing that she wasn't going to I ran to my Volvo so that I could fallow her. I relaxed a little when I seen that she was driving to her house, but out of no where she turned down a different road I had no idea where she was planning on going. I have never wished I could read her mind so strongly before. Then like a brick wall it hit me I knew were she was going the one place I could not fallow her; La Push.
As her car rolled over the border I stopped my car and jumped out of my car. I watched her car continue to dive a way and in my hart I felt like I lost her. I knew that I lost her. The pain was so strong that I fell to my knees and I let the dry sobs take over my body. I had hurt her again after I promised I never would, I did it again.
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I don't know how long I just laid there sobbing all I could do is hope she would come back. I felt two arms pick me up I knew it was Emmet. His head was full of sympathy.
"Come on man lets get you home." He put me in the car. I just sat there thinking Bella hoping she would come back to me. If it weren't for the safety of my family, I would run over the boarder and find her. I would beg her to forgive me and tell her I was scared. That is the true reason I did not want to change her. When we go to the house the family was waiting on the porch.
"Do you see her? Is she coming back?" I asked Alice hopping she had seen some thing any thing.
"No. I'm so sorry Edward but I'm sure she'll come back. Just give her time to calm down." She told me. That was the only hope I had. That after she calmed down she would come back to me. I went up to my room lay on my bed and listened to the music waiting and hoping for her to come back to me. She was my life; with out her I had no reason for living.
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It was about two in the morning when there was a knock on the door. I ran down stairs, hoping it was Bella, but that hope was crushed when the foreign thoughts hit me. His thoughts were full of sadness. Carlisle opened the door. Outside stood a man I a police uniform, fiddling with the hat in his hands.
"Is there some thing I could help you with?" Carlisle asked.
"Is Edward Cullen here?" The man asked coldly, with very little emotion in his voice. Carlisle stepped aside allowing him to come in. When he seen me he asked, "Are you Isabella Swans fiancé, Edward Cullen?"
"Yes I am can I help you?" I asked politely.
"I'm so sorry to have to tell you this but their has been a accident." He said slowly
"What do you mean? What kind of accident" I asked.
"Isabella's truck was found a few hours ago, it had gone of the edge of the road and down a cliff, in La Push. It appears that the car exploded on impact. We fill she did not suffer, I'm so sorry for your loss."
It took me a moment to process his words. "What are you saying?" I asked.
"I'm sorry son but she is gone."
My mind was filled with horrific images. Bella's beloved truck smashed and burned. Completely destroyed then it hit me. Bella was in that truck. Bella was gone. The love of my life was gone. My reason for living was gone.
I felt myself fall to the floor crying in aguish. All I wanted was my Bella back. And it was all my fault that she was gone.
I hope you all liked this chapter I will update soon.
