A/N: So I took a break writing this story as inspiration was thin on the ground. Hope you enjoy it anyway. Also, just to warn you... there is a LOT of dialogue in this one!

Thanks to Anna for reviewing the last chapter! Sorry for keeping you waiting!

Disclaimer: I do not own anything except my own characters.


Chapter 3: Glad You Came

Tam's POV

"I thought I told you I didn't want any visitors" I yelled at the guard.

"Very well, I shall send them away" he huffed before locking the door behind him as he left.

I had been in solitary ever since I got here two weeks ago. Here being the wonderful new facility of Forks Juvenile Detention Centre. Yeah, totally cool... not.

My thoughts were constantly on the group of people I had met on that fateful day. They had been so welcoming and kind to me and I just had to go and throw that kindness right back in their faces by getting arrested on their property. It had possibly been the number one most awful day of my life but also the best day of my life. I had actually felt like there was someone out there who cared. One person in particular who I couldn't get off my mind was Seth. There had just been something about him that pulled me in and I hated that I was crushing on someone I had only known for a few hours and would probably never want to see me again.

Every day for the past fortnight, I had been getting visitors, and every day I had rejected the option of seeing them. I had no idea who would want to visit me. It certainly wouldn't be anyone from sunny LA and I didn't know anyone up here.

That was another thing, obviously everyone thought I was some mass murdering lunatic who couldn't be handled by the local police, hence why LAPD had raided the Uley's and not Washington State Police.

"Bevan, the doctor is here" called the guard through the door bringing me out of my thoughts.

Whoop-di-doo,I mentally cheered, rolling my eyes not bothering to get up from my horizontal position on the floor.

The click of the lock sounded and I glanced over with a bored expression as possibly the most gorgeous doctor I had ever seen walked into the room. I tried not to stare but it was difficult to look away.

"Hello Miss Bevan" said the doctor in a friendly tone once the door had been locked behind him.

I grunted in response and went back to staring at the ceiling. There was no way I was letting this guy get to me.

"The officers tell me that you've been having trouble sleeping" he carried on.

"What's it to you?" I snorted.

"I just want to help you" he came and sat cross legged on the floor near to me.

I sat bolt upright and faced him, getting slightly defensive. Despite his good looks, there was something off about this guy.

"You can't help me, no one ever helps me" I shot back at him.

"Miss Bevan? Won't you let me try?" he smiled kindly at me and I narrowed my eyes.

"Are you a shrink?"

The doctor let out a loud laugh at my question making me scowl at him.

"Just a regular doctor" he said regaining composure, "oh how rude, I didn't introduce myself, I'm Doctor Cullen"

"Huh" I said folding my arms.

"So, you haven't been sleeping properly?" he questioned opening his bag and taking out a page of notes.

"Oh, I see, getting the low down on me before we even meet? Gee, that's just great" I said sarcastically, "and if you bothered to read the file from LA, you'll know I've never been able to sleep properly so just butt out of my business"

"Have you seen a doctor before Miss Bevan?" he asked casually.

"No, no one ever bothers with me" I said quietly. There was a pause.

"Seth's worried about you, he cares" said Doctor Cullen.

My mouth dropped open in shock. Seth? As in my Seth? Whoa, hold up brain, he's not mine. But he cares? He actually wants to have something to do with me? I remembered the heart broken expression on his face as I had been arrested. I winced at the memory.

"Seth?" I asked, my voice shaking, all defences suddenly dropping.

"Yes, Seth. He comes by every day you know" said the doctor.

My heart banged painfully against my ribs. He came every day and I sent him away. I could feel my breath coming in short gasps and I couldn't breathe.

"Ok, Tam, I need you to try and calm yourself down, just try and take deep breaths" I could hear Doctor Cullen talking to me but my mind was whirring frantically, my heart throbbing and my throat constricting.

"H-he-help" I gasped out clutching onto his arms.

"Just breathe slowly, can you try that? Take a deep breath in and breathe out slowly" said the doctor soothingly before yelling out, "can you open the door please?"

I vaguely registered the door opening and footsteps as someone rushed in and the doctor spoke hurriedly to the guard. I clutched my chest with my hand but the pain was building. I was being suffocated, there was no way out. Then something was put over my nose and mouth.

"Tam, I just want you to breathe into this, it'll help" came the doc's soothing voice.

I felt myself calm slightly and after several attempts I managed to control my breathing and my vision stopped fogging. I felt drained and lay on my side on the cold floor. I peered up at the other people in the room. Doctor Cullen had a very worried expression on his face and the guards just looked annoyed.

"Tam, how do you feel?" asked the doctor.

"I've been better" I whispered with half a smile.

"Ok, well you probably already realised, but that was a panic attack. Have you ever had one before?"

I shook my head. I would definitely know if anything like that had happened.

"Right well, I'm going to suggest you are kept under observation for the rest of the day" said the doctor before turning to the guards, "could I just have a minute alone with Miss Bevan please?"

The guards left the room and I looked up at the doctor before he helped me into a sitting position.

"Tam, I'm very sorry. I shouldn't have mentioned Seth, it was inconsiderate of me" said the doctor apologetically.

"No, seriously it's fine" I smiled weakly, "I just know that I should accept visitors now"

I talked to the doctor a bit more before he left. He let me call him DC because of his initials and I found that I could actually talk to him. I didn't go into much detail with him though, I didn't want another person ditching me when they found out my life story.


The next day I was unbelievably excited. I would get to see Seth if he hadn't got sick of me rejecting him. When I heard the guard knock on my door I practically launched myself at him earning a look of severe disapproval. He cuffed me and lead me down a few corridors. I could see other inmates just sitting around reading or playing sport and decided right there and then that I was going to change my behaviour. I wanted to have fun as well, even if it was behind bars.

The guard stopped at the visitor hall and waited for the intercom to buzz us through. I was getting jittery, what if he hated me? But then DC had said Seth was worried. My thoughts were not helping the nerves as the door swung open.

I was lead over to a small table at the side of the room and the cuffs were unlocked. I nearly rejoiced in happiness until the guard told me to put my hands in front and I was cuffed again, the metal connected to a link in the desk.

"Is that really necessary?" I sighed as the guard checked the locks.

"It's orders. You may be unsafe and you have a record of escape attempts" said the guard pompously.

"A record? Oh please, I got out once" I scoffed.

"Twice"

"The second time wasn't my fault" I yelled, causing several heads to turn in my direction. I glared at them all.

"Whatever you say" said the guard walking away, leaving me fuming at the table.

Six minutes later, yes I counted, the buzzer went, signalling the start of visiting hours. I shifted nervously in my seat, my eyes fixed firmly on the door. As time ticked on I felt more and more lonely. He wasn't coming. I had got my hopes up for nothing. Of course he wouldn't want to see me, I'm just a stupid, pathetic, delinquent idiot, with...

"Tam?"

My head shot up and I gasped in surprise. I couldn't believe my eyes. Seth actually came, but he looked really bad. His face was drained of colour, there were dark circles under his eyes which were puffy and red and he looked thin, like he hadn't eaten properly in ages. Sam was with him and I shrank down in the chair at the authority he seemed to command. He looked fine. Why did he have to be ok while Seth was obviously suffering some sort of horrific illness?

"Uh huh..." I breathed out.

"Can we sit?" asked Sam pointing to the chairs.

I nodded robotically and watched as they took a seat. I couldn't stop staring at Seth and he was staring right back as though we were connected in some way. I wanted to reach out and hug him and tell him everything would be ok but I couldn't even do that.

"I'm sorry" I whispered, feeling a lump rising in my throat.

I couldn't believe I was about to cry. I was meant to be tough but then, when Seth was around, I felt so open and vulnerable. I heard Seth let out a strangled sort of choke and Sam put a hand on his shoulder.

"I don't understand why you didn't say anything to us" said Sam sounding disappointed. I dropped my gaze and focused on the metal on my wrists.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have gone to yours, I was ashamed" I whispered as a tear rolled down my cheek.

"You put my family at risk" said Sam sternly.

"I didn't mean to" I gasped as more tears slid down my face.

"I know" sighed Sam, "you're a good kid deep down huh? You made an impression on Seth here"

I looked up and Sam was smiling. I tried to smile back but my face was stuck in a shocked expression so I nodded mutely. I flickered my eyes across to Seth who was grinning at me and my heart rate sped up.

"So what sort of trouble are you in? You must be in here for a reason?" said Sam breaking through my thoughts which revolved completely around Seth.

"Umm... it's complicated" I mumbled looking back at my hands.

"I'm sure we will understand" said Sam gently.

"No, you won't want to know me. I'm a bad person" I mumbled again biting my lip.

"You're not!" yelled Seth making my head shoot up, as well as most people's in the room.

"You don't know me. I'm not good, I've ruined my own life, I'm not going to drag you down with me" I yelled back making my heart throb uncomfortably.

"It's not ruined, you're only 16, you have your whole life ahead of you" he said less loudly.

"Yeah, my whole life behind bars most likely" I shot, glaring angrily at him. My eyes widened at the look of pain that crossed Seth's face and he seemed to crumble in front of me.

"Seth, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you" I gasped trying to reach out to him but the cuffs stopped me.

Seth looked at my outstretched hand for a few seconds before reaching his own hand forward and gingerly taking mine in his. Electricity shot through my hand and into my arm and body, warming me and making me feel like I was glowing. I looked up into his eyes, his beautiful brown eyes, and I was completely lost in them. Seth was pulling me in and I was drowning in the emotions that his eyes were showing me. I could feel all the doors in my mind that I had firmly shut, beginning to open. I watched helplessly as Seth's eyes widened at the pain, anger, hurt, loneliness and regret poured from my soul into his. I tore my gaze from his before he found any reasons behind my pain.

"Tam" Seth choked out, "I want to help you, please let me help you"

I nodded slowly at him. I wanted someone to help me all my life, and here was Seth, willing to help me through everything. I needed Seth more than I thought possible. I squeezed his hand which was still in mine and he linked our fingers. I let out a sob and dropped my head.

"Thankyou Seth" I sobbed.

I felt his hand leave mine and I squeezed my eyes shut as pain ripped through me. Then I felt warm arms wrap around me. I opened my eyes and Seth was kneeling next to me, his arms wrapped securely around me. I leaned into his embrace wishing I could hug him back, and sobbed into his shoulder. I felt a tap on my other shoulder and looked up through watery eyes.

"None of that" said a guard sternly.

Pain shot through me as Seth left my side and sat back his seat. I had kind of forgotten Sam was there after everything that had happened until he spoke.

"How long until you're out?" he enquired.

"Two years, one month and one week" I said quietly. I heard Seth gasp but kept my gaze on Sam.

"How long have you been inside?" he sounded slightly pained as he asked this.

"Ten months and three weeks" I replied automatically.

"Can you get early release?"

"I could, but I can't" I said shaking the thought from my mind.

"What do you mean you can't?" asked Sam sounding a little taken aback.

"Because they want me to tell them but if I tell them..." I trailed off and chanced a glance at Seth who looked like his world was falling apart, "they'll find me"

"What do you mean? Tell who what? Who will get you?" said Sam sharply.

"I-I can't say" I mumbled. Sam leaned across the table towards me.

"Look, Tam, we just want to help you. If you tell us what's bothering you we can try and sort all of this out" he pleaded with me.

"I just... I can't" I sighed wishing more than anything that I could just tell them and be out of this nightmare.

"Will you ever tell us?" said Seth sounding distraught. I looked up into his eyes trying to make him understand.

"Maybe, not now... I don't... I don't want to go back" I whispered as a painful memory tried to work its way into my mind. I shook it away.

"Ok, well, we'll be here. If you ever need us, for anything, just get someone to call us, ok?" said Sam, sitting back.

I nodded and for once, I could see an escape. These people who I hardly knew, but had some weird connection to, wanted to help and I was going to let them in. I didn't know when I would, but I had to, I needed Seth.

The buzzer sounded signalling the end of morning visiting hours and my shoulders drooped. My chest ached at the thought of being away from Seth even though I hardly knew him. I looked around at the other tables and sighed as families said goodbye to their kids and siblings hugged each other. I looked back at Seth and Sam.

"I'm glad you came guys, so thanks, you know, for everything" I mumbled with a shrug of my shoulders.

"I'll come every day, I promise" said Seth grabbing my hands, the electricity shooting through me again.

"Thanks, I'll look forward to it" I said smiling, "oh, and I'll try be good so I won't have to wear these" I added flexing my wrists.

"Why do you have them again?" asked Seth cocking his head in the most adorable way.

"Great escape remember?" I joked, flashing a grin at him. He grinned in return and I melted inside.

"How could we forget?" said Sam rolling his eyes.

"Shut up man" said Seth before turning back to me, "as soon as you get them off, I want a proper hug"

"Deal" I agreed, my heart fluttering and I bit my lip.

The rest of the day passed slowly and all I could think of was Seth and wondering how soon I would be out of solitary and be able to take Seth up on his demand of a proper hug.


A/N: Ok so that was seriously dialogue-y! Hope you enjoyed it even though it was a bit of a strange chapter, but I just wanted to introduce more of the mystery about Tam.

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-Lem x