Mikage had left again to Silver's dismay, something about going to his mother's house for an important meeting. He didn't understand what was going on with his master; lately things had gotten to strange even for the red head. Inari was always there which in itself made Silver more suspicious of thinking that something was going on.

The idiot would sit there in his lazy bum and act as if the familiars weren't even there. And when he did talk it was to tease Silver about how he wasn't doing something right or how Tomoe looked like a gang member.

Curse him, Silver grunted to himself as he leaned on the doorframe of Tomoe's room; he didn't want to be there. Inari however had told him to observe and since Mikage wasn't there, he had to listen to him. The red head rolled his eyes as Inari asked Tomoe a bunch of stupid, perverted questions that only Inari could pull off.

"So..." Inari paused and then looked at Tomoe. " Do you still make out with a girl in your dreams?"

Tomoe felt his eyes grow wide and he froze up; even Silver seemed to freeze in the doorway. All the while Inari was smirking and enjoying himself a little too much. The white haired fox cursed to himself that was a secret. He did in fact have dreams about a female with a white blindfold. She had to be a demon or something because she thrust him into the darkness every time she would appear. He would always wake up screaming, and then there was the girl with the blurry eyes and voice. The one that held him close and kissed him lightly, making him wonder why his tail would flick about every time even when he woke up. Sadly the girl never did give him a name… just a long talk about his day. When he didn't dream of her, his day was sucky.

He hadn't dreamed of her in a few days or so.

"Not recently." Tomoe choked out. Silver looked at him with utter disgust. He covered his mouth with his yukata sleeve and shook his head, trying to even get the thought to disappear as Inari chuckled and wrote down a bunch of scribbles on his clipboard.

Tomoe saw this and then glared, Curse him...

That's when Silver almost fell over when the door he was leaning on was pulled open. Mikage walked in and blinked as Silver nearly toppled over, seeing this made Tomoe snicker.

"Oh Silver! Why are you lounging about?"

Mikage asked looking at him with wide eyes as the red headed teen sent him a death glare. The god swallowed and backed away from him as Silver recomposed himself. Then Mikage looked over at Tomoe.

He smiled slightly as Tomoe rolled his eyes from having to endure all those questions that he had been forced to answer. He hated the fact that he had to listen to this God as he asked all those stupid questions. He folded his arms and huffed out a breath as Inari nodded and wrote some more scribbles. Tomoe was answering questions as Silver glared at Mikage. He had questions too; but would Mikage really answer them? Mikage knew what he had to go through; so hiding secrets wasn't helping the god. The red head wanted to know why Mikage had been gone the last few days; and why he had been dumb enough to leave him, Tomoe and Mizuki alone. Mikage knew better than to do that, Silver glared at Him as Mikage stared at Tomoe.

The red head didn't get it, what was going on?

Everything didn't make sense anymore, not since Tomoe showed up. The white haired fox was just lying about in his room; A few nights ago Mikage had rushed in but Silver didn't why. To bad he didn't know Tomoe was having a panic attack from a nightmare... The blond god must of felt Silver's glare because he looked back at him and smiled lightly. The fox scoffed at him as Mikage patted his shoulder and then winced.

"Lets go on the porch for sake. It's a full moon tonight. Tomoe won't join, he's to busy with Inari" He smiled fakely. Seeing this made Silver narrow his eyes. Mikage had a reason as to why he wanted to drink; and the fox wasn't sure if he wanted to know why exactly. Ever since Tomoe joined the shrine, ever since he came. Everything had changed and he wasn't sure if it was a good thing or not.

Silver at times disliked this new change. Tomoe was in the way and Silver had a hard time focusing on his work when Tomoe was cussing in the background. He was a delinquent with no head on his shoulders, then he suddenly showed up in the shrine and decided that he wanted to stay. Mikage walked out of the door followed by Silver. When they got close to the porch Silver paused and looked down at the floor by the door.

He saw a reddish stain in the wood... he had scrubbed but it stained quickly to his annoyance, there was no helping the floor once the stain had latched itself onto it. He couldn't get the blood out; he couldn't clean up Tomoe's blood. It had stained from sitting on the floor for so long.

Silver remembered when he cleaned it up; the blood continuing to smear over and over again on the floor; his clawed hands tried to get it up but instead it soaked on his skin; its sticky feel nearly made Silver sick, and he washed his hand before he really did so. Now it was a stain, Tomoe had asked where it came from and Mikage had promptly called it paint; but Tomoe had come in many times smelling like blood. Maybe from fights, maybe from people he had slaughtered that night, or maybe it was his own. Silver didn't want to know; he just wanted the idiot to stop from invading the shrine and making it smell that way. The red head hated that smell... The fox sighed heavily as he made his way to the porch and looked down at Mikage. The God was looking at the moon as Silver folded his arms. The wind tossed his hair as he looked at Mikage from the corner of his eyes.

"What is the true reason for coming out here?" Silver looked at him and huffed out in annoyance, "You do know that Tomoe is completely capable of being out here instead of me." He glared at the God who had not said a word.

"Besides, I have duties. Do I not?" Mikage looked at him and chuckled, "You would drink with me and Tomoe on the full moon nights, why do you think that this is any different?" Silver scoffed at him as he sat down and shook his head.

"I am not dull in the head Mikage." He snarled his lip and sipped some sake lightly.

The God chuckled and leaned back before growing quiet. He looked at the teen and sighed as he tried to think of how to say it in a delicate manner. Bringing something like this up to Silver, it would be like a slapping him in the face. Saying a thing like this to him would probably sting, but he had to tell him. Because if Mikage had kept this away from Silver. The red head would most likely never trust him again. Mikage looked at Silver with a soft but serious look.

"Silver..." He paused as the red head paused from sipping before placing the cup away from his lips and looked at him. The wind ruffled their hair. Silver could feel the tension, but nothing prepared him for what was going to be said to him.

"Silver" Mikage sighed, "Tomoe…is, Tomoe is my son... by Blood" Silver almost dropped his sake cup before looking at Mikage, the fox's eyes showing nothing but shock. No… It couldn't be. Not that idiot, but… in a way it did explain a lot of things. The red head swallowed, his hands clenching the cup tightly. He didn't know why but his chest felt heavy. Even that fool... had a father. Silver looked at Mikage and breathed out before looking ahead; what was he supposed to say? Silver didn't know, for he was at a loss of what to say and think now.

"Silver" Mikage sighed and patted his head right between his two red ears. "I know this is a hard to say to you, but Tomoe doesn't know-" Silver swallowed and looked at the God sharply.

"How do you know?!" He paused, trying not to raise his voice in order to prevent himself from lashing out. Mikage sighed.

"That thing you called a tattoo, it's a birthmark handed down through generations. Tomoe has it in the same place I do and when he gets older, his offspring will bear it as well" Silver nodded mutely. So that was how it was, even the person he didn't get along with had a family. Why was that? He had done all the same things that he had done, expect for getting cursed. The red head didn't know what to say.

"Are you going to tell him?" Silver looked at Mikage and then blinked when the God shook his head and sighed,

" No…"

The fox breathed slowly, he didn't understand why... Why would this man say that? Why wouldn't he tell Tomoe about something this important? Yes Silver had to admit he didn't get along with Tomoe. But he thought that he deserved to at least to know the truth of his origin.

"Why?" Silver sent him a sharp look before Mikage sighed out and looked at the fox with a strained look.

"He hates me." Mikage mutters as he looked up at the sky. Silver stared at him before swearing. He wasn't mad at Mikage, no... it was that idiot who had gained a fever. The red head jumped off the porch, swung round and glared at the God with cold eyes. He snarled his lip before scoffing at the God.

"Why? Is he too good for a father? Is he really that spoiled? You should tell him, who cares if he doesn't like it?!"

Mikage looked at him blankly before smiling weakly. "Its not that eas-"

"WHY!?" Silver swore before the God looked at him sternly, probably a look for the swearing for he never did approve of such words. The red head shut his mouth and looked at Mikage with confusion. That's when the God sighed and shook his head. He placed his cup down and stood.

"He's been through to much..." Silver looked at him sharply, why did Mikage have to tell him this? Why? Mikage knew of his predicament. His master didn't think at times! Did he not know how much it stung to find out, that even Tomoe had belonged somewhere and it was with people like him?! He scoffed at the God.

"He's been through a lot? You say he has been through a lot, but I –" Mikage looked at him sharply before Silver blinked. He didn't get it. What did he do? He was only saying the truth and he wasn't putting the God down. He was lucky to even have a son; Silver just wondered why it had to be an enemy.

"He has been through a lot Silver, His mother had been murdered right in front of him at the age of six. He has night terrors that I can't even take away." Mikage huffed out a breath and sighed as he looked up. "He says his mother is a star... and that he will join her soon."

Silver stared at Mikage before releasing a deep breath.

"Then he really is an idiot. Why would he be a star also?" Mikage winced and shook his head.

"That's why I can't tell him, because… I know that he'll hate me." The God chuckled before sighing. This left Silver silent; he didn't know what to say at the moment. What was he supposed to say? Was he supposed to pretend that his life was normal? It never had been. First Lily and now his master who had a yōkai for a son. Inari was like a uncle and the shrine spirits where the children; and he was the servant.

Silver swallowed slightly before turning and walking to the shrine. He was going to bed early, he didn't have to heart or the right to stand there. His head was swimming and all he had to calm him down was a worn purple hairband, and that was all he had... Who knows how much longer he would have to wait before she would come to take him away from all of this. He didn't know how much longer, but he knew that it could be soon or would she even come at all? He just needed someone to talk too and besides, he wasn't family here...


By the time it reached two in the morning, Silver had been jolted awake by screaming and a gasp. Hearing this did freak him out just a little bit; Silver rolled over and blinked as his ears twitched with the sounds of running and screaming. Plus rain was pelting at his window; keeping him up and now that he was awake. The fox moaned before sitting up and glaring at his door.

The doors were paper thin, so even a whisper could be heard which in itself was annoying. Given that some of the conversations he could hear going on in the shrine. A loud bang sounded and the fox sat up in surprise. He stood up and walked over to his door before thrusting it open.

He saw a flash go bye his door and he blinked for a second before walking to the living room and almost freezing from what he was witnessing. Tomoe was soaking wet and Inari was trying to help him deal with the sudden high fever. Which meant he hadn't healed at the beginning. Mikage was wet too and the fox wondered what had happened exactly.

Expect for the fact that it was raining outside and Inari was screaming at the other fox for going to the east bridge in the middle of he storm. Silver stood there quietly before Tomoe looked at him with anger and confusion.

"I know you hate me, but I never thought you'd go so low!" Tomoe screamed leaving Silver baffled. The white fox glared at him and then at Mikage before growling, "You knew didn't you? THAT THIS BLASTED MAN IS MY FATHER?!" Silver blinked but then narrowed his eyes and scoffing at the sickly fox.

"Oh? So I'm the fool here? I'm surprised you didn't see it from the beginning. It was obvious given how both of you are complete fools!" Tomoe snarled and glared at Silver but he didn't move. Tomoe was shaking to harshly. He had heard something he didn't want to hear. Mikage was talking to Inari earlier and Tomoe heard it all.

Every detail, every lie. The white fox shook his head. He had went to the east bridge and when Mikage showed up? The fox told him that nothing could make him his father, not after everything he had to endure. Not after the lies and the hate that had messed up his life.

He hated Mikage and his fake smile; he always wondered why he was so happy. He never knew that the man was his stinkin father! It made him sick and it brought back the disgusting and yet colourful memoires of his mother's death. All the blood, all the hate from the moment it happened... everything.

Did the Gods hate him this much? To put him through this type of pain? Even now his body was throbbing in pain from a terrible fever. He couldn't breath, it hurt his head but he didn't care. He would be fine in the morning. He knew he would be, He had to be. But he couldn't look at Mikage! He didn't want to, not now, not ever again. Because the lies were too great in his life and he felt like a pawn on someone's board. He was being used and hurt all over again, and he didn't know what to do about it


Silver sat quickly in the hall with his back against the wall.

He was supposed to be doing the laundry; but right now he was exhausted due to the lack of sleep. He had been up a lot later than usual, thanks to what happened the night before as he dealt with Mikage and Inari. Now that Tomoe had passed out from the fever, it was now already into evening, Silver looked across the hallway and sighed heavily... He didn't get what was so bad; Tomoe had a nice family now.

The red head looked down at his clawed hands and blinked; when he looked around the corner he could see the blood stained floor. He sighed heavily and started to stand. Today was quiet except for the worried whispers of Mikage and Inari. They wouldn't say anything, and Tomoe wouldn't leave his room. He was acting childish in Silver's opinion, but he was a servant. His opinion didn't matter. The fox bit the inside of his lip and looked blankly at the laundry basket. He wished that Tomoe would just suck it up and show his face already; it was irritating to do everything on his own.

Silver paused, or was it really just his job to do? Was he just a servant here and nothing else? Even the idiot that had stained the floor had a family, whether he had known about it or not. Silver swore and sweeped a piece of hair out of his eyes when he went to pick up the laundry basket. As Silver went to pick it up he paused when he smelt the blood of the floor; He furrowed his brow.

That had happened weeks ago; there was no way he could still smell that irony smell. Silver closed his eyes and even though he hated the smell. He still wanted to know where it was coming from. He breathed in and grimaced as the scent filled his nostrils. It was Tomoe's, he knew of this. It smelled like the stain on the floor but it wasn't that. It was too strong, to fresh for his liking. Silver paused as he followed the scent as it led him down the hall… and right to Tomoe's door. Silver paused in shock before looking at the handle; the smell was coming from there.

It was strong a strong smell that almost made him gag and heave from the metallic smell. Without wasting time the red head gripped the handle before yanking the door open.

Too bad what he saw appalled him more than he would ever admit. It both surprised and disgusted Silver a lot for words to even form, let alone leave his lips. He grew quiet as he looked at Tomoe, but for some reason he couldn't move as images of the past entered his mind. Images of the one he had once considered a brother was lying dead on the floor in a pool of his own blood, only now he was picturing Tomoe in his brother's place no matter how much he tried to ignore it.

Even as he imagined it, it made him want to gag and wrench. Just thinking about it made him want to unravel from mixed emotions, he was so sure that he was able to bottle those emotions away but now this was happening. This was person who he had felt nothing but hatred and resentment to ever since he showed up at the shrine. This was the person that hated him back, but now.

"What the-" Silver paused as he watched Tomoe's claws as they cut into his skin causing it to open; Tomoe slit at his wrists and winced, only then did he notice the red head looking at him in shock. Without warning Silver lunged forward taking Tomoe by surprise.

Silver at that moment had no idea of what he was even doing, but he had to stop this. The thing that was happening in front of him was sickening to his stomach; he felt his insides twist from such a gruesome sight as images of his brother's lifeless corpse entered his mind once again. But now wasn't the time to think about the past, not when this was happening before him. He gripped Tomoe's wrist, twisted it and then pulled it up. Tomoe hissed out and a loud wail escaped him mouth. He bit his lip from the severe pain as it surged through his self inflicted cuts.

"Ow! What are you doing?!" Tomoe cursed out in pain as Silver tried not to look at the bloody mess; his hand was growing sticky from the hot blood that was pouring out of Tomoe's wrist. It had been years since he seen a nasty bloody mess, and it was making him sick. It was taking all of Silver's will power not to release Tomoe and run out the room to throw up, no he could not think about that night again. He did what he had to do to protect her.

Silver slowly moved his head in order to look down at Tomoe and blinked at the white haired fox. The older fox tried to look away in order to cover up his tears, that he desperately wanted to prevent himself from showing. That way no one would know what he was truly feeling. But Silver saw it again, eyes that were filled with hurt and this time he wasn't going to deny that he had even seen it. Silver could see it as Tomoe turned his head to so he could hide his own tears and pained expression. Silver's grip loosened on the other foxes wrist, making sure not to squeeze it and cause Tomoe anymore pain.

Silver cursed under his breath as the sickening feeling grew, he snarled his lip and glared at the white haired fox before the red head balled up his fists, clenching tightly on Tomoe's arm. Tomoe let out a yelp as Silver squeezed harshly and he glared

"Just what do you think your doing?" He hissed lowly making Tomoe look at him. The white fox tried to breath as the pain continued to build up and he tried to look at Silver in the eye. But his shame wasn't letting him; he looked down and ran his free hand through his hair as he whimpered in pain. He was trying to think straight but the pain and the question were both driving him to a crazy almost as if they were mocking him for what he had just done. To be truthful he just wanted all the lies to leave, he wanted all this emotional pain to leave him be. So he just wanted to take it all away by doing something else, something unusual. He hated killing. He hated other people's blood, so he forced some of his out rather than going out to kill someone- anybody. That's what people wanted to happen to him anyway, to die alone so why not make it come true in some sense. He yelped again as Silver glared and tightened his grip again. Pain seared through Tomoe and tears welled up and he tried to yank his arm away; Silver on the other hand wasn't going to let go.

"You think that cutting yourself will changed anything you coward!?" Silver hissed out and glared. He had seen enough blood, murder and self harm to last a life time. The red head understood this perfectly and it didn't change a thing. It just left unwanted scars and by the looks of it, Tomoe had already cut deep enough to prove Silver's theory.

"You think this will take anything away?!" Silver raised his voice as Tomoe looked at him with his pain filled eyes, "This won't help anything you idiot! How stupid are you? Doing something like this is just asking for more trouble! What the -"

Tomoe glared at him and hissed lightly.

"You don't know anything of what I went through so stop lecturing me and treating me like I am a child! I hate Mikage! All my life has been a lie, my mother told me my father was a kitsune… and that he was a great warrior" Tomoe shook his head and whimpered, Silver on the other hand just stared at him with narrowed eyes as he listened.

"My life is a screwed up mess." Silver glared and ground his teeth, for some reason he could feel his emotions rising up as well. They were emotions that he hated to show; that he hated to show to anyone for they were nothing but a sign of weakness, something he hated with all his heart. He ground his fangs and literally decked the other fox in the cheek. Tomoe blinked as his head rang from the hit, he held his face as he looked at Silver with shocked filled eyes.

The red head glared before he began to laugh bitterly at Tomoe taking the white haired kitsune by surprise, Silver's mouth started to move and he couldn't stop it. He wanted to but it was impossible, now Tomoe had started this mess by acting up in such a manner that disgusted Silver deeply. It had been bothering him all day ever since Mikage told him the dirty truth. He balled his fists and shook his head before glaring at Tomoe with mixed emotions including anger.

"AT LEAST YOU HAVE A FATHER!" He swore as he voice cracked. " What about me?" His hands shook as Tomoe looked at him with shocked filled eyes, this definitely took him by surprise after all Silver would never talk about his problems. Silver yanked his arm and Tomoe hissed out as the other foxes skin rubbed over his bloody cuts; he grabbed at the ground with his other hand and whimpered from severe pain knowing Silver wouldn't want to let go.

"I have no family!' Silver hissed out, not wanting to stop even if he wanting to. It was the ugly truth; everyone would have found out later on. Tomoe on the other hand would have found out anyways. After all that idiot had a blabbermouth for a father after all.

"I have nothing compared to you! And yet here you are acting like a brat and saying its nothing!"

Silver swore as he felt his emotions slip from his fingers.

"People would kill for what you have and all your doing is sitting around and acting like life isn't on your side! How can you do that and think that it won't affect Mikage? Don't you know that he will freak out if he finds out that your bleeding yourself out everywhere!? YOU'RE A BLOODY IDIOT! What I see right now is a demon who is doing something so cowardly and has no shred of remorse nor does he have any idea on who this would hurt! What you're doing is disgusting"

Silver seethed as he let go of Tomoe's wrists, he turned his back in order to mask his hatred and bitterness. What had he just done? Why had he blurted all of that out, why had he told this idiot things that he would never tell anyone? Not even Mikage knows about how badly he was hurting. He snarled his lip before Tomoe looked up at him and swallowed.

"How can I be grateful for someone that abandoned my mother and then forced me to grow up when she had been murdered? How can I deal with someone that wasn't there to help me through it? Especially when my mother had been stabbed at my home when I was watching?! How can I get rid of the nightmares of when they had set her on fire!?" Tomoe hissed and bit his lip as he tried to breath but Silver couldn't stand this idiot, he would not let this coward wriggle out of this by blaming Mikage.

The man didn't seem to be the type to abandon anyone which let him slightly puzzled.

"I don't know" Silver said bitterly. "Maybe you can forgive him and act your age?!" Silver spat out and clenched his fists.

"Who knows what Mikage will do when and if he finds out about what you are doing" The red head snarled before he swallowed, the blood was really getting him. He felt dizzy from all the blood that was on his hand. It was sticky and smelt horrible, the image of Tomoe slitting his skin open made Silver gag.

The look of Tomoe's skin as Silver had noticed it yesterday- both pure and untainted. That was until his claws had forced the skin to open, the nasty vivid sound of the skin tearing open. Silver shook his head and looked at Tomoe as the white haired fox began to lick at his wounds. He moaned in pain and closed his eyes as tears rolled down his cheeks.

The red head paused, maybe in a way they were both messed up. The red fox rolled his eyes as he opened a nearby closet and pulled out a roll of bandages and disinfectant. Tomoe watched him as he tore some off and used it to wipe his blood covered hand, he gagged while doing so making Tomoe blink in surprise.

The younger fox then grabbed Tomoe's arm and roughly applied the medicine in order to cleanse it. White came up as it cleaned the depths of Tomoe's skin, the white fox immediately hissed out in pain and he clenched his fists until the pain had passed.

Then Silver wrapped his arm tightly and not to gently. Tomoe tugged his arm away and swallowed, he backed up from Silver who looked like he could kill him. Silver stood up and wiped the rest of the blood on the sides of his pants; he knew he would have to change so that neither Mikage or Inari would ever see it. But he didn't know how long they wouldn't know about this dirty secret, given that Sobo could see almost everything. He wiped his hands again even though the blood had been wiped off, Silver looked at Tomoe and glared.

"Don't do that again! If you stop cutting then I won't tell your father about what you did" Silver said coldly before turning to leave, Tomoe swallowed and shook his head.

"No…" He muttered leaving Silver ticked. He turned to scream at the fox until Tomoe looked at him in the eye. The younger fox froze as the older glared. He looked at him and for some reason Silver had a sinking suspicion that Tomoe was going to say something that actually meant something for once.

"You say that I am an idiot" Tomoe looked at his wrist and bit his lip, He didn't know if he would stop doing this to himself. It was hard to think that he could or would; but he did have to say something.

"Because you are" Silver swore and continued to reach for the door before Tomoe glared and stood up but didn't move from his spot.

"You say I'm an idiot but who's the one that always runs whenever things get serious!?" He huffed out a deep breath leaving Silver to turn and glare. He opened his mouth to say something but Tomoe shook his head,

"Who the one that's screaming out that he doesn't have a family? If you say that then you are the idiot!" Tomoe huffed out a breath and sighed, not believing in what he was about to say.

"Don't you see? Mikage sees you as a son too! Mikage is your dad... but you push it away and act as if he treats you like a servant, but I see it" Silver looked at him and all the words that he was about to say had left his mouth; he turned around to hide his shock but Tomoe saw it. He sighed lightly.

"We all belong here, whether we like it or not. So am I the one that should be sucking it up?" The red head scoffed at him but stormed out of the room; slamming the door harshly and swearing to himself.

He paused and looked up and down the halls. His eyes grew wide before he blinked away whatever was welling up inside of him.

"Mikage sees you as a son too"

Silver bit his lip in order to try to stop anything from welling up from within him. But he found himself trying not to smile from hearing those words. Why was it that when Mikage looked at him like that, that it took away a small piece of his pain away? Just a small piece but it did help. Did he really have a family? A real family?

That's when Silver froze and turned to see Inari staring at him. He blinked as the man looked at him; Inari froze and dropped a tea cup as his hands shook.

"Silver... Is Tomoe okay? I heard him talking to you" The red head looked at him confused and nodded,

"Yes he is, why?" He looked at the god and then something hit him...

Oh god. Blood was all over his hakamashita.