"Yes, I was going to tell you about Sarah. When, I don't know, yes I knew I was pregnant when I left. If I recall, you shoved me out the door, because you didn't give two shits about me anymore. So I was on my own, I didn't tell anyone else."

"You should have told me, it would have made a difference."

"What you would have suddenly still loved me after all?" He grabbed her, pulling her into his arms.

"I would have supported you."

"We were just fine on our own. I went back to school, became a Nurse practitioner." She closed her eyes, the worst and best day coming back to her.

XXX

"Are you sure?" She asked the doctor for the third time.

"Yes, Ms. Winston, you're twelve weeks pregnant." She smiled as tears of joy rolled down her cheeks, they'd been trying for six months to get pregnant and it had finally happened. She couldn't wait to tell Filip, she rushed out of St. Thomas, bumping into Tara. She promised to go to lunch with her soon, before running out to her car. She drove to TM, wanting to tell him as soon as she could.

She pulled into the lot, finding the lot full, the members in a somber mood. "What's going on?" Filip wrapped his arms around her, pulling her close.

"Josey, it's you Da. Ope went to check on him at the cabin, he's gone, love." She collapsed into his arms crying, burying her face into his chest. "It's going to be alright sweetheart, I'm going to take you to Skeeters." She could only nod her head, he wrapped his arm around her waist, guiding her o her car. Helping her inside, he drove her over.

She lost it when she saw Opie, he pulled her into his embrace, letting her cry. "It's going to be okay sis." Filip drove her home that night, she was exhausted, he laid her down in bed, crawling in beside her. Holding her in his arms, comforting her when she cried. He was gone the next morning when she woke up, she washed her face, going into the kitchen, she made herself some breakfast.

She didn't get the opportunity to tell him about the baby, she placed her hand over her stomach, smiling. "You're daddy is going to be so happy to find out about you."

XXX

Opie had pulled Chibs to one side. "We have to get sis out of here, it's not safe for her. I know you'd lay down your life for her, so would I and Jax. I'm afraid it won't be enough."

"What's going on Ope? Is her life in danger?"

"If you love her, you'll send her away from here before she's killed."

"Tell me what's going on? I love her, I'd do anything to keep her safe."

"I'm afraid that whoever killed pop will go after sis."

"I'll send her away, I'll make her leave."

XXX

She dressed in a simple black dress, for her dad's memorial, it was just SAMCRO attending. They made went to the clubhouse after leaving the cemetery, she was exhausted, she just wanted to lay down and rest for a few minutes. She still hadn't told Filip about the baby yet, she planned to that night. She had laid down in the bed, when the door flew open, and he stumbled in the room.

She could smell the alcohol on him. "I need to talk to you Josephine." She winced at the use of her full name, and not her nickname.

"What is it Filip?" She got up to cup his face. He jerked away from her.

"I don't love you, I haven't for a while." She felt her face burning.

"Filip...please."

"Did you really think this would work out? Get out of here! I'm done with you! Get out of my house!" She ran from the room, confused and hurt by his words. He watched her go, his own tears running down his face. She ran out into the main room, looking for comfort from her big brother, he pushed her away. Taking Filip's side, saying that it was his brothers right to be done with her.

She left that night, going home and throwing clothes in her back, quitting work, she drove to Stockton leaving her car at the airport. She flew back to LA, she would start over.

XXX

She had cleaned out her account before she left Charming, she didn't want tracked down, she wanted a fresh start. She got a job in a doctor's office, enrolled in school, and went on with her life. The only person that kept in contact with was Jax, she always used a pre-pay. He tried to get out of her, where she was, she always refused to answer.

He wanted to send her money, help her out, she assured him she didn't need anything from SAMCRO. That when she needed them the most, the two men that were suppose to love her, left her. Jax tried to talk her into coming back, that Opie and Chibs were miserable, she always told him, she had started over, and was happy. She had no intention on coming back to Charming.

The last three months of her pregnancy were rough on her, she had to go on bed rest, Sarah came a month early. It was a tough few months, but it all worked out. After two years of hard work, she graduated, that's when her life went to hell again.

Jax called her, telling her about Opie's death, begging her to come home. She quickly packed her and Sarah's bags and made the five hour drive to Charming.

XXX

He sat staring at her. "You still should have told me."

"When, after you told me you didn't love me? Maybe after you told me you were done with me and to get out of your house." She picked up Sarah, and cleaned her up, leaving the kitchen. He followed her, keeping on.

"You didn't tell anyone where you went?"

"Why would I? I had no one, Opie pushed me away harder then you did. I left like you wanted. Started over on my own!" She carried Sarah into the dorm room she'd used, running a bath, stripping the little girl, she put her in the water. She giggled and splashed in the water, JC laughed as she washed the little girls hair.

"Josey..." She looked at him, he was looking down at her, with a pained look in his eyes. "I'm sorry..."

"Save it Filip, I don't want to hear anything you have to say. We're going back to LA tomorrow, I have to pack up my house."

"Where are you going? I won't let you leave with my daughter."

"Your daughter?" She picked the little girl up, wrapping a towel around her. "You really think you have claim on her?" She walked back into the room, laying the little girl on the bed, she got her dressed.

"She's my child, and I want to get to know her." She glared at him, trying to keep her calm. She could put his fears at ease and tell him she had taken a job at St. Thomas, and had rented a house from Oswald. She had actually planned on coming back, before she found out about Opie.

"I planned on moving to Charming, two months ago, I had to wait until I graduated from school." He cupped her face, she pulled away from his touch.

"Do you still have feelings for me Josey?"

She clinched her jaw, she still loved him, she always would. She couldn't allow herself to be hurt again by admitting that she still loved him. She avoided eye contact, with him, his hand s lifted her chin. She closed her eyes, breathing deep. "I will always care about you Filip, you gave me the greatest gift ever."

He lowered his lips to hers, her body reacted to his, even after two years. His hands still cupping her face, he pulled back looking down at her. "I never stopped loving you Josey. Please let me be apart of your life again."

"How many woman were you with in the last two years?" He stepped away from her.

"What?"

"You heard me, in the two years I've been gone, how many woman have you been with. I know the number of men I've been with." She saw the jealously in his eyes. "If you never stopped loving me, you answer would be zero, because the thought of touching another woman, would repulse you."

"How many men have you been with?"

"Zero, that's how many. I couldn't stomach the thought of another man touching me." She walked away from him. "Once we're settled, we can discuss a schedule visitation. Until then, stay away from me."

Josey.."

"No, don't call me that."

"What do I call you then?"

"JC or Josephine."

He looked at her pleadingly. "Please lass...you don't mean it."

She put her hand up to stop him. "I'm sorry Fillip." She walked out of the room, leaving him alone. She carried Sarah out into the main room, Gemma was standing there. She smiled at JC, wrapping her arms around her.

"Who's this?" She took the little girl from JC's arms.

"This is Sarah Nicole Telford, my daughter." She smiled at Gemma.

"She's beautiful baby. Why didn't you call and tell anyone?"

She exhaled slowly. "It was complicated Ma. You know how it all went two years ago, I knew I was pregnant when I left. I didn't say anything because it wouldn't have mattered."

"Baby, you know it was to protect you."

"Maybe, they should have told me about the danger, given me the option of leaving on my own and coming back when it was safe. It would have saved a hell of a lot of pain."

"Their men, they don't think clearly. How long are you here for? I want to spoil my grand daughter!"

"About that! We go back to LA tomorrow." Gemma started to protest. "For a few weeks, to pack up, then we're moving back to Charming." Gemma hugged her.

"I'm so happy! I'm going to spoil this little one rotten!" JC smiled, watching Gemma cuddle Sara in her arms. "So what about you and Chibs?" She shakes her head.

"That's over with, we share a child and that's it." She helped herself to a cup of coffee, sitting down at the bar. Filip had made it back into the main room, he was talking to Jax, and Tig. Gemma was making Sarah giggle, she watched her daughter and Gemma together. She looked over at the three men sitting in the corner, they were planning something.

She had known Jax her whole life, Tig most of her life and Filip since she was sixteen, she knew when they were conspiring. She would like to think, that it was club business, but if that was true, then they would be in chapel talking. She had a feeling, it had something to do with her, she got up, walking over to the three of them.

"What are the three of you planning?"

Jax stood up, looking at her. "The three of us promised Opie, that we'd watch out for you and take care of you."

"That's nice of you, but I've been taking care of myself for a while now. Especially the last two years, I've earned another degree, and had a baby on my own. So no thank you."

"Come on doll, we're going back to LA with you, helping you pack up, and move back." Tig smiled at her.

"I can mange on my own."

Chibs looked at her. "It's not up for discussion, we're coming with you."

"Who the hell do you think you are?" He had just lit a fire in her, she glared at him. She was ready to knock him on his Scottish ass, she was her own person and refused to be told what she could or couldn't do.

"I'm Sarah's Da and your old man!" He was standing toe to toe with her.

She wasn't about to back down, she was trying her best not to knock him down. 'You haven't been my old man for two years, when you kicked me out of our house. The night of my dad's memorial, when I needed you the most, you broke my heart. Telling me you never loved me, I had planned on telling you I was pregnant that night, but you fucked that up. So pardon me if I don't bow down and obey your word as law. Her life has never been in danger with me, her safety has always been important to me."

She walked over to Gemma, whispered something to her, the woman nodded, hugged her. JC walked back to the dorm room, and started packing up their things, she was going back tonight, she had no reason to stay. The door swung open, Filip was standing there, staring at her, he stormed over to her. Pulling her into his arms. "I'd never put you or Sarah into harms way, you have to know I'd lay down my life to protect the two of you. I love you both..."

She pulled away from him, continuing to pack, she picked her her bags, starting to leave the room. "We're leaving now, we'll be back in a couple of weeks." He put his hand to stop her.

"I thought you were staying until tomorrow?"

"Plans change." She walked past him, finding Gemma ,she followed JC out to her car, helping her put Sarah in her carseat. "I Wish you'd stay until tomorrow."

"I'll be back in a couple of weeks for good. Ma it will be fine, I'll call you when I get home." She hugged Gemma, climbed into her car, and started the five hour drive home. She noticed them, before she got out on the freeway, she wouldn't even attempt to try to loose them. She stopped to get gas, and to change Sarah, she fixed a cup of juice for Sarah, and fed her a snack.

She saw them across the street, waiting for her to pull out again. Sarah finished her snack, JC smiled at her daughter. Handing her the cup of juice, ready to go baby? Sarah waved to her, she shut the door, climbing behind the wheel, she drove the rest of the way home.

XXX

She actually did loose them once in LA, she pulled into her garage, got Sara settled, then sent Jax directions to her house. Hearing the doorbell ring, she expected it to be the guys, she pulled open the door to find Shannon her best friend.

"Nice of you to call, and tell me your back."

"Sorry, come in and eat with us."

"So, you know anything about the hot bikers hanging out in front of your house?"

"That would be Jax, Tig, and Filip."

"Filip, as in baby daddy?" She rolls her eyes, picking Sarah up from the highchair.

"Let me get her cleaned up, and in bed. Then wine and girl talk." She changed Sarah, put her in a light sleeper, rocked her to sleep, and laid her down. She walked out to the livingroom, Shannon already had the bottle of wine and glasses out on the patio, JC went out to join her.

"Tell me about Charming and the three bikers out front."

"I went home, said good bye to my brother. Introduced Filip to his daughter, told them I was moving back."

"How did the Scottish hottie take being a daddy?"

She rolled her eyes. "He was surprised, maybe a little pissed..."

"You didn't tell him you were pregnant, don't you think he has the right to be pissed at you?"

"Maybe a little, you know the story there. So I don't have to explain myself."

"Do you still have feelings for him?"

She closed her eyes. "Why are you playing therapist with me?"

"Because you aren't being honest with yourself. Do you still have feelings for him?"

"We share a child together, I'll always love him."

"Bullshit Winston! I know you still love him. You haven't dated anyone in the two years since your relationship ended with him. Just the other day, before you left a doctor asked you out, and you turned him down. Why?"

"I didn't have a sitter for Sarah."

"Bullshit again Winston. Admit that you still love him."

"Fine, I still love him, but I can't risk getting hurt again. I've put up a wall around me, and I don't know what to do..."

"You can't be afraid of getting hurt, you have to put yourself out there."

"Maybe once I'm settled..."

She drank the rest of her wine, talking to Shannon, they started packing the livingroom, together. Shannon started flipping through a picture album, letting out a low whistle. "Your baby daddy is a sexy beast, you two make gorgeous babies."

"Baby as in one, I doubt if there's anymore." There was a quiet knock on the door. "Would you get that? I need to check on Sarah." She walked into Sarah's room, checking on the sleeping infant, she covered her with a blanket. Filip walked in behind her, his arms, going around her waist. He kissed the side of her neck, pulling her against him.

"I love you Josey, you're mine." She pulled away from him, walking out of the room, he followed her. She shut the door, he pulled her back into his arms, kissing her passionately. She returned his kiss, she wrapped her arms around him, getting lost in his embrace and kiss. She pulled away from him, not wanting to get caught up in this again.

"I'm sorry." She walked away from him, going back to the livingroom, to pack up it up, she touched her lips. Tig was flirting with Shannon, JC, got a good chuckle because that would be an interesting duo. The crazy but sweet fucker with the shrink, Shannon could write a book about Tig.

"You okay JC?" Jax slid up beside her, his arm going around her shoulder.

"I'm fine, stopping worrying." She kissed his check. "I guess you three moochers need a place to stay tonight?"

"That would be great darlin!"

"It's going to cost you, hard manual labor tomorrow! There's three guests rooms upstairs, take your pick."

AN: My loves, I'm on vacation so expect lots of updates this week and next! Kisses and hugs to all my readers, be sure to leave a request.