im sorry that it took me so long to update. i was writing another fanfiction, doing school work, cleaning my room, and i had writers block

Disclaimer: Me: i own twilight

Savanaha: no you dont, if you did you would have given me Jasper by now

Me: why would i do that?

Savanaha: im your Savannah twin so thats why, and if you owned Twilight you would have given yourself Edward

Me: who says so?

Savanaha: i did, and just say you dont own Twilight -threatens me with a knife-

Me: fine i dont own Twilight -goes to dark corner and cries-

"What do you mean 'why do I not hear a heartbeat coming from you'? You should be hearing a heartbeat, are you having hearing problems?" I answered, though I could tell by the look on his face that he didn't believe my explanation. He was giving me a weird look that I couldn't tell what he was thinking. He turned his head back around and looked at the road. Why wasn't he saying anything about my heartbeat anymore? Did he not wanna know why? No, the look on his face says he wants to know.

"Why aren't you telling me the truth? Is it because I broke your heart, because I am sorry about that, but I thought that it was for the best, at the time." As he said this he tried to smile, but I could tell that he just wanted me to tell him the truth.

"Fine, there's a good reason." I said, even though he should already know what was going on because what else would cause me not to have a heartbeat.

"Do you mind telling me?" as he said this he turned his head so that he could dazzle me, but when he looked into my eyes his face changed from trying to dazzle me to chock. "Your eyes…" was all he could say.

"I know Edward," it felt so good to say his name again after all this time, "My eyes are golden brown instead of chocolate brown, and as I said before I can explain."

"My story of why my heart isn't beating and why my eyes are golden brown started after you left. When you left I went into a zombie mode. After a few months I realized that I had to try to get back to normal so I started to hang out with Jacob Black."

"Jacob was helping me get over you, not that I could completely forget you, but he made the pain more bearable. Then not long after we started to hang out he just started to ignore me and the pain became really bad again."

"During the time that he was ignoring me I choose to try to find the meadow that you and me use to go to. I decided that if I was going to have the pain I might as well do something that would actually remind me of you. So I went to the meadow and while I was there Laurent found me and was about to kill me when these huge wolves came and scared him away."

"After that I went home and told my dad about the wolves, he was mad that I was hiking and that I wasn't hanging out with Jacob anymore. So I told him that I was trying to talk to Jacob but he was avoiding me."

"So after that I went over to Jake's house and he was with his new friends. We went for a short walk, but the whole time he was being mean to me. He wouldn't tell me what was going on, but that night her came to my room and told me that I knew what was going on and all I had to do was remember. He then left and I went back to sleep, I had the same dream that I had when I figured out that you were a vampire, but I found out he was a werewolf."

"I hung out with him and his friends after that. I stilled missed you, but the pain was getting better. Anyway they were still trying to stop Victoria from getting into town and they had no clue what she was after. So I told them that she was after me. Jake and his friends had to try to stop her from getting anywhere near me, so they had to patrol more than they ever did."

"While they would patrol I would stay in La Push. One day when everyone was on patrol I choose to go for a walk on first beach. While I was there I had a feeling something bad was going to happen. I continued to walk."

"After I got to the end of the beach, I started to walk back to Jake's house. I heard a noise behind me, so I started to turn around. As I was turning around I felt a sharp pain in my neck. All I remember of the next few days is that I heard growling." I was about to start crying tearless cries. I hadn't even heard the car stop while I was telling my story. Edward looked at me as though he felt like it was his fault that all that happened to me.

"Listen Edward, it's not your fault that I'm a vampire, it's my fault. If I hadn't gone to the beach that day, then I wouldn't have met Victoria, and I wouldn't have gotten myself changed into a vampire! So don't blame yourself." Though I knew that he would still be blaming himself, no matter what I tell him he always has to blame himself for everything.

A/N my friend Savanaha is that crazy. if you like this story you should go read Jasper's New Love, it will have a happy ending and me and Savanaha are writing it together. anywho i have a lot of homework for school, so if i dont update every week dont worry im probably writing it, and i have to work on the computer when my moms not on it -gives evil look at mom- and so ya. but i will try to update. anywho R&R and i will love you forever and will update faster! LOVE YOU ALL WHO ARE WILLING TO READ THIS!!!

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