I've been on a bit of a hiatus from The First 24... so anybody waiting for the next chapter of that one... Well... I'm working on it, slowly but surely, I just need to figure out how I'm going to handle the next chapter. I just wish I could end it already. This is my problem, getting a story started, and never finishing it.
THAT, is why I should make more story posts like this. Where it's just a collection of oneshots that link toward a general topic, that way I can post the next story whenever I feel like writing and nobody's really waiting to find out what happens next, because each of the chapters can be read as an individual story.
Rating upped to T for this story. I think around story 5 or 6 I'll up it to M, but no guarantees just yet. I'm not sure how much I'm actually going to work on this, especially since I've been addicted to Minecraft lately... damn game.
Anyway, there's my little note, enjoy this story! I'm gonna try to balance out the views between Rachel and Quinn... so whenever I post story 4, it'll be in Rachel's POV.
Making Beautiful Music
Story 3:
Tell Me Your Secrets – Quinn's POV
Rating: T
Word Count: 1,321
I was nervous. Why? Oh, I knew why. I've been dating Rachel now for six months and she's been wanting to try more… I mean, I'm not opposed to touching her or anything like that, but she wonders why I won't allow her hands below my belt. Rachel, being Rachel, assumes it's something to do with her. She always assumes all of our problems are because of her. They're not… they're all because of me. Things haven't progressed because of my own insecurities.
Now, as I sit on my front porch, waiting for Rachel's arrival, I can't stop thinking about losing her. I know I'm going to lose her. There's no way around it. Plain and simple. When Rachel Berry learn my deepest, darkest secret, she'll run away screaming. She'll probably pass it around school about what a freak I am. Just to get revenge for how I used to treat her in the past.
I hadn't even realized I was crying, or that I'd even dazed off into space until I felt a very familiar set of fingertips brush at my cheek. Rachel was here… "What's wrong Quinn?"
"Nothing, I'm okay… I promise." I really wasn't, but I didn't want to have this conversation with Rachel on the front porch. "How was your dance class?" I stood up to get her a brief kiss before leading her inside. The entire trip to my room she told me more about Jason. A guy in her class that not only couldn't dance, but was also too stupid to know my girlfriend was gay and dating someone… Though… not for much longer.
"Why are you crying honey?" Rachel asked once we were safely in my room.
"Lot on my mind." I began to wonder how long I could beat around the busy before she'd get upset. But, I didn't want that. I never wanted to upset Rachel… about anything. But I had to. I had to tell you. I couldn't stay in a relationship with her and never allow her to touch anywhere but my chest. It wasn't fair to her, or me really.
I watched her as she reclined onto my bed. I made no attempt to get closer to her. "Talk to me Quinn. What's wrong?"
Instead of sitting on the bed, I pulled out my computer chair to sit on. I wouldn't be able to deal with her crying. "A lot…"
She shifted to get closer to me, but I just pulled away from her touch. "Baby…?"
I lifted my gaze to look into her eyes to see them starting to water. I haven't even told her my secret and she's starting to cry. "I have to tell you something Rach… I just… I need you to listen to me okay?" I saw her nod. "This is hard for me to say, but you need to know. We're getting too far into our relationship for you not to know…" I paused to swallow back the lump in my throat. I could already feel tears coming back to my eyes again. I'd spent all day planning on what I'd tell her, but it didn't mean that I was prepared for it. "I'll understand that you'll just run away after I tell you. I spent all day trying to figure out how I'll tell you this, but I'm not prepared for how you'll react."
"Quinn… baby, it's okay, just tell me please." Rachel reached out to take my hand, this time I didn't pull away. I needed her comfort to say what I needed to say.
"There's something I have… that I shouldn't." Way to sound like a kindergartener. "I was born with it…"
"Are you sick Quinn?" Her voice was weak and soft. It was obvious that she was worried, and I hated that about this entire situation.
I just shook my head. "No… I'm not sick. I just… I have…" I slammed my eyes shut as tears started streaming down my cheeks. I have a penis Rachel… Why was that so hard for me to say out loud? Oh, I know… because I'm not supposed to have one, that's why it's so hard to say out loud. "I have… a…" I couldn't even spit it out.
She shifted closer to me and wrapped her arms around me as I cried. "What do you have Quinn?"
"A penis." I finally blurted out. The silence the followed broke my heart. Why wasn't she saying anything? Why wasn't she pulling away from me? "Rach…?" I cautiously asked after several minutes of her not saying anything. I slowly looked up after wiping the tears from my eyes to see her smiling softly. "Why… why are you smiling? You think it's funny don't you? Do you think I'm lying?" I immediately went on the defensive and stood up from my chair to back away from her.
"I know you're not lying sweetheart." Sweetheart? Is she trying to make this harder than it already is? "I also don't think it's funny at all. It's just…" She stood up and closed the gap between us. Her hands reached out to cup my cheeks and I instantly felt relaxed. Her touch always had that effect on me. "I already knew."
"You what?"
She just smiled more at me. "Quinn… I figured it out the first time you stayed the night."
"Wh… why didn't you say anything?" I felt myself starting to collapse. Rachel knew. She knew for about 4 months and never said anything. She wasn't leaving me. She knew my darkest, most kept secret and wasn't repulsed or scared by it.
"Honey…" She knelt down with me on the floor and wrapped her arms tightly around me as I felt myself shake with sobs. "It wasn't my story to tell. I knew you'd tell me eventually. You had to wait until the right moment."
I buried my face against her neck and just cried. The truth was out, and Rachel didn't care. She didn't look at me any differently. She hasn't looked at me differently ever since she found out, four months ago… "You don't think I'm a freak?"
"I'll be honest when I say that I was a little confused that morning when I felt something poking into my back… And I was a little freaked out when I realized what it was, but… you know me Quinn, I research everything." I felt her nose nudge against the side of my face, to get me to look at her. "I spent hours that day searching to find out what it was. I discovered it was a rare genetic condition that only strikes about 0.1% of the human female population."
"Rachel… I know how rare it is." I didn't mean to snap at her, but I still wasn't comfortable talking about it. "What's even more rare… is mine works." I quickly dipped my head at what I'd just blurted out to her.
"Really?" The smirk that overtook her face at that moment made me blush. I could tell where her mind was going with that and I definitely wasn't ready for that. "I figured that out too when I felt it against my back that morning."
"Rachel!" I groaned as I covered my face. I couldn't believe I was having a conversation about my fully functioning penis with my girlfriend.
Her giggle eased my mind some. "We're going to have to talk about it eventually honey, but, for right now, how about we go to Breadstix for dinner? My treat."
I smiled at her before nodding. "Yea, that sounds good. Let me go get changed."
Before I could get too far away from her she grabbed my hand and pulled my body against hers for a deep, passionate kiss. "I love you."
I just pulled her back in for another kiss as my response. "I love you too."
Rachel and I were going to be just fine.
Any ideas? Thoughts? Comments? Anything motivational by chance? lol I find I need a lot of that lately. Anyways, ideas for future stories are welcome, I've got a list now that's got about 5 or 6 titles on it for future stories.
Anyway, That's all for now, leave me a comment :)
