A/N:Sorry for not updating...it's been incredibly busy around here. I'll try and do more this weekend...thanks for reading/reviewing!
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Sonny hung the phone in its cradle, turning back to the hallway, he was surprised to still see Alexis standing there. Sighing, he rubbed his newly-shaven face. "Mike uh...he wants me to go with him...to the funeral home."He said, simply. He felt his knees growing weaker underneath him.
"Are you?''Alexis asked.
Shrugging, Sonny sat down in the desk chair. "I don't know.I mean-I should...I know that. But doing that would mean that I was finally giving her up...that I was letting Courtney go.I just...I can't do that. I just..."
"Sonny."Alexis said, leaning against the door frame. "Noone ever said you had to let her go. A little piece of Courtney will always be with you in John...he'll need you."
He closed his eyes, nodding. "I know...But-"
Sonny stopped. He looked away from her, afraid of what he knew he'd see. She was afraid for him, and he knew it. "Listen-what...what happened earlier...I didn't-"
"I know."Alexis said, still feeling somewhat unnerved. "I don't...blaim you.I just..."She stopped, sighing. Smiling sadly, she waved at him. "You know what?I should...I should probably get going. I've got to meet Viola and Kristina at Kelly's...I'll see you later."And with that, Alexis left.
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A little while later, she sat in Kelly's, staring down into her cup of coffee. She was thinking about the events of the day with everything that had happened. Before going to Sonny's, Alexis hadn't felt so nervous but now she did. Shaking the thoughts from her mind, she begged herself to forget about what had happened. He'd kissed her. Sonny had kissed her.
"Mommy!"She heard Kristina call.
Turning just in time to see Kristina running through the door. "Hey..."She said as Kristina hugged her.
"I'm sorry, Ms.Davis...I tried to stop her from running.But she saw you..."Viola said, sitting down in the chair across from her.
"It's okay, Viola...How are you, little one?''Alexis asked, turning her attention to the little girl in her lap.
"M'kay...mommy..."Kristina said, seeming almost reluctant.
"What is it?"Alexis asked, taking a sip from her coffee.
"I saw Mikey...and Morgan..at the park. They were with Carly and Unca Jax...but when I tried to talk with Mikey...he just sat there.He wouldn't say anything to me...I asked him to push me on the swings but..."
Alexis felt a pang of sadness, feeling the tears sting her eyes. How could she explain something like this to such a little girl?
"Well, honey...you know how I told you about your aunt Courtney?About how she was so sick?Well, She was Micheal's aunt as well...so he's sad to. He wasn't trying to be mean to you.He was just... sad.''Alexis said.
"Your mother's right, Kristina...everyone has their own way of missing someone they loved."Viola offered.
"So...he wasn't mad at me?"Kristina asked, swinging her feet.
"No...not in the least."Alexis said, turning to Viola. "Well, we've got to get going...thanks for taking her to the park, Viola...She did behave, right?"
Viola laughed, gathering her things. "Of course...always an angel."
Alexis rolled her eyes. "I don't know about that one...you ready for your check-up, sweetie?"
Biting her lip, Kristina got up to hug Viola goodbye. ''I guess."
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Sonny walked back into the house, sighing heavily.
"I'm just saying, Micheal-"Mike said, continuing the conversation they had had in the car.
"I know...I know.Believe me...I just...I don't want anyone else to get hurt. This thing is just...crazy as it is. And if I have to let Nikolas near him...near John.Then I guess we have no choice."
"The decision isn't yours.It's Jax's."Mike said, looking around the room...he saw that things had been put back in their places. And for the first time in what he assumed had been days, light filled the room. "What happened here?"
"Alexis."
Looking at him, Mike was clearly surprised. "Alexis did this?...Why?"
Shrugging, Sonny walked to a nearby window. "I really don't know."
"You guys are talking again, then?"Mike asked, hoping he wasn't seeming nosy.
"I guess...listen, I gotta go pick up the boy's from Carly's...I'll uh...I'll talk to you later.You know...about everything."
Mike nodded. "I know it's not worth much right now...but thank you for coming with me today...I don't think I could have managed by myself.
Sonny nodded. "I know...she was my sister. I loved her, too."
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"Well, Kristina...it looks like things are going good with you."The doctor said, smiling.
"Thank-You."Kristina said, smiling. As the doctor spoke to Alexis, Kristina put her shoes back on. "Just make sure to keep taking your vitamins...and eat healthy."The doctor said, opening the door of the room.
Clinging to Alexis' side, Kristina laughed, "I know"
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So lunch at the MetroCourt wasn't exactly how Alexis planned on spending her afternoon, but she needed to speak to Jax, and this seemed to be the only place to do it these days.
"Well...how are my favorite girls doing today?"Jax asked, walking up to their table.
Shying away, Kristina laughed. "Good."
Smiling sadly, Alexis noticed the echo of sadness in Jax's eyes. He had loved her, but somehow it seemed as if now he was ready to move on. Watching him talk with Kristina, he mind drifted away.
She decided to take Kristina to see Sonny later on.
Something about him lately seemed so familiar. He was trying to lose himself, and she wouldn't let that happen again. When he had believed Micheal was dead, noone could get through to him. And now that Courtney was really gone, she didn't know what Sonny would do.
"Alexis?"Jax asked, breaking her from her thoughts.
"Yeah?"
"Where were you just now?"He asked, smiling.
"What?"Alexis asked, trying to bring herself back from wandering away in her mind.
Shaking his head, Jax cleared his throat. "Nevermind...Listen, I've got to go. But I'll see you both later?"
"Jax!"Carly said, coming up on the scene. "Oh...there you are. There's someone on the office phone wanting to schedule a wedding reception...but they asked to speak to you."
Looking at Alexis, then Carly, he nodded. "I'll see you later, Alexis.Bye Kristina..."Jax said before walking off.
"Don't even think about it."Carly said, inviting herself to sit down.
"About what Carly?The fact that you just sat at nmy table without my asking?And...to what do I owe this honor?"Alexis asked, trying to remain tactful.
Smiling sarcastically, Carly nodded. "Nevermind...I should have known you'd..."
"What is it, Carly?"Alexis asked, not wanting to make this a big ordeal.
"Well..to be honest...I was trying to get you to help me."
Nearly choking on her drink, Alexis' curiousity rose.
"With what?"
Sighing, Carly began to wonder what was up with Alexis. "Look-Truthfully, it's got nothing to do with you. Well...I guess it does. Just-my point is...Well...Sonny."
Sonny.Alexis thought to herself. Why does it always come back to him?
"What about him?"Alexis asked.
"He's been through alot lately...losing Courtney..and then there's the situation with baby John.
Anyway...well...I was thinking that if...if he and the kids were able to just...get away someplace that maybe...well...am I making sense?"
Nodding, Alexis was surprised at how much sense Carly was making. "Carly...for once...I agree with you. But-I mean...from someone who knows Sonny...who knows how he reacts to others under things like this...Carly, you know him...and I don't think leaving him alone with Micheal, Morgan and Kristina is a good idea."
"Fine...then what do you say to all of us going?"Carly asked.
"What?"The word spew itself out of Alexis' mouth before she had even had a chance to react to what Carly was suggesting.
"You're kidding, right?..."
"Oh come on, Alexis...yeah, it's a crazy idea...and yeah...I don't like the idea of sharing a plane ride with you for...hours. But-I wouldn't be there for you. I'd be there for Micheal and Morgan...who well...miss their sister.So, what do you say, Alexis?"
Alexis blinked, trying to make herself awaken from the nightmare. She had to be dreaming, right?
