Sealed Lips

Chapter three: Ready set pause.

Mercedes alarm clock rang at 6 am; she had set it up that way so she could have an extra hour before school to exercise the plan however was not going as smoothly.

Slipping out a hand she slammed it down on the snooze button of the alarm clock, she was much too tried to even think about running around and getting all sweaty, plus she reasoned she would need her sleep if she planned on going to glee club after school.

Snuggling back under the covers she wrapped herself in her duvet and proceeded to completely forget about the promises she had made last night.

Mercedes mom knocked on the door 10 minutes past 7 "You better be up baby if you plan on making to school on time". Sliding out of bed this time she walked to the bathroom half asleep.

Flinging the third top to the floor Mercedes moaned she looked like a whale in all of them, sighing she looked at her reflection clad only in a light blue bra her stomach bulged from all angles. She shouldn't have skipped her run this morning, but no she was fat and lazy and just needed to sleep.

Putting on her loosest t shirt which happened to be purple she shrugged on a zip up Hoddie and decided it wasn't going to get any better than this.

She shoved her remaining books in her bag, fixed her hair, applied some lip gloss and a light shade of eyeliner. She was official ready; down stairs spread across the dining table was eggs, bacon and toast.

"Sit and eat" her mother said, her fork halfway to her mouth. Mercedes mom was her father's dental assistant but more than that she was heavy, in the hips the arms the chest and most especially the middle. It had never matter to her that mother wasn't as skinny or as active as other moms, but today it was all she could notice. Her brother wasn't much different at 12 years old he sat on the other side of the table equally stuffing his face, Mercedes stared at him wishing she could join him she really did love her mom's scrambled eggs. Mercedes brother wasn't overweight but he wasn't skinny either.

"Here eat" Mercedes mom had already gotten a plate ready for her, piled high with eggs, four strips of bacon and two pieces of toast. Mercedes stomach squeezed together and she felt the first empty pang of hunger, lifting her bag higher onto her shoulder she turned away. "I'm already late mom" she yelled out and rushed out the door.

Getting in the car she flung her bag into the back seat and drove off, she was on her way to pick up Sam. His current residence wasn't close enough to walk and she had offered to pick him and drop him off as a 'friend' or so everyone thought.

Lifting a hand to her mouth she smelt her breath which wasn't so pleasant since she hadn't eaten anything, rummaging through her bag she found some fruit flavored mentos and plopped 2 into her mouth.

Arriving in front of the apartment building Sam lived in Mercedes stopped slightly for Sam to climb in who as always was already waiting for her.

"Hey" she said

"Good morning" he replied putting on his seatbelt, putting his hands over hers on the steering wheel he leaned in a kissed her once then twice, which turned into three times; his hands came up to cup her face. Mercedes leaned back for a breath smiling "Okay" he said "now we can go".

Leaning back Mercedes faced the road slightly blushing she put the car back into drive and they made their way too school. Mercedes smiled things were looking good, being with Sam had made her sour mood vanish, he made her feel pretty.

So the day began, really it was very typical and yet Mercedes couldn't feel more different. She was so aware of how she fit in and the amount of room she took up, even going as far as to apologize when someone bumped into her. It surprised her how she hadn't noticed this before, her weight, her size, the way her thighs rubbed together.

It wasn't long before lunch and Mercedes could hear her stomach growl in need of food. She had stopped at a water fountain in between every class and could feel the water sloshing around inside of her.

She was so hungry and tired her eyes blinked sleepily every few minutes.

Laughing at the story Kurt was telling her about the time Blaine had tried to serenade him with a Mexican song, stood in line with her tray. Lunch was going to be hard but Mercedes knew she had to start eating healthy, she grabbed a salad with ranch dressing, a peach fruit cup, a water bottle and a cheese and ham sandwich. She watched hungrily as Kurt got himself a helping of tatter tots and a slice of pizza.

"Is that all your having?" Kurt asked

Mercedes nodded slowly not sure how to answer the question; she turned around and went to sit at their usual table.

Forcing down another bite of salad Mercedes tried to smile about her new life style change and secretly wondered how long she could last without her Tots.

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