A/N: Again from my iPhone... Enjoy! They are short, but I am enjoying them!


"Casey," I say quietly.

She just keeps staring at me. As if she expects me to vanish at any moment. I smile weakly and hold out the cup of coffee. Taking it she asks, "Why are you here Alex?"

"I still want to talk Casey. I love you and I want you back." I say in a nervous tone. I know she takes pity on me only because she knows how I hate to be nervous. She opens the door wider and let's me inside. That's when I see just how real this move is, the whole apartment is in boxes and furniture covered.

"When are you moving?" I ask as I blink back tears.

"I fly out tonight. The movers will be here in the next thirty minutes to start loading the truck. It seemed like the best choice for me. I only moved here after law school for you anyway, and once we were finished and my career stilted I really didn't have a reason to stay any longer." Casey says with a bit of bite to her tone.

I turn to look her in the eyes as the first stream of tears fall from my eyes. Angrily I wipe them away. Casey is the only person in the world that I don't mind seeing me cry, but this moment is about making her pity me, it's about making it clear that I love her and am truly sorry for hurting her.

"Casey, I want to explain what happened that day. You don't have to forgive me and you don't have to take me back. I see, clearly, that you are leaving, but I want you to know the truth behind it all." I say tearfully.

She sighs. I know this is the last thing she wants to deal with, I can tell from how she runs her hand through her hair and tugs slightly at the end. "Okay, Alex tell me." She says sitting on a bar stool.

I nod and begin, "That day when I arrived to Branch's office I thought he was calling me in to discuss the case I was working, I didn't know it was regarding you. I supported you fully in your dream to work in Sex Crimes. I helped you work cases, just like you helped me. I wanted you to have your dream. I promise despite my actions I did want you to have your dream."

I pause to wipe my steadily falling tears and steady my voice, "I, I thought he was calling me in to rip me a knew one for arguing with the judge in the courtroom. I almost got held in contempt that day, again, and I thought he was going to give me a lecture and tell me my people skills sucked and that I needed to really work on my behavior. I was prepared for that. I was not prepared for him to tell me that he was letting me know that he was going to move you to Sex Crimes to be my co-chair in Sex Crimes. I panicked."

I pause again hanging my head. The next part was the hardest for me to admit. I had only uttered the words one other time and it nearly killed me to have the answer I got then, I was afraid of a repeat, but it didn't matter. Casey needed this, I take a breath and continue, "You are so smart Casey, and you are such a people person. You are exactly what Sex Crimes needed. Your conviction rate nearly doubled mine and I didn't doubt it would carry over. When I opened my mouth, I didn't expect those words to come out. None of them were true. I was horrified when he said thanks and was interrupted by a call from the governor. I was ushered out before I could correct myself. In a total panick I ran to your office to freak out with you and make you help me fix this mess, but you'd gotten called to court. So, with the best plan I could figure out without you I went back to Branch's office and let myself in and explained that I had spoken out of jealousy. That you were more than perfect for the job. He just sat there and frowned and told me that my actions spoke volumes, but that he still wouldn't put you with me. If I was that jealous of you then we wouldn't be a good team like he thought we would. I begged him to move me and let you have the job. But he said he couldn't. He couldn't because no one would have me. Evidently his big mouth secretary, Hannah, heard the first part and decided to spread it all over the office. Anyway, I wanted you to know the truth. Sadly, by the time I got to talk to you that day, you'd already heard. There was no correcting it then."

"God Hannah's a bitch." Casey sighs before continuing, "Why didn't you tell me? Why wait till now Alex?" Casey's voice perked with her frustration as she began to pace the floor.

I bit my lip as I took a breath, "I am sorry Casey. I tried but you didn't want to talk to me. You were furious and rightfully so. You slept at Kim's the next two days and avoided my calls. When you finally came home you told me I was a spoiled brat. I literally spoke out of my ass and corrected it to our boss and was told that no one wanted to work with me. I knew I had destroyed everything for us and I believed everything you said. So instead of telling you everything I listened...I didn't think I deserved to have your love."

Casey stopped pacing and looked at me. "Is that why you never fought for me to stay?" She asked in a whisper.

"Yes. I didn't think I deserved you any longer. I ruined your dreams and I couldn't fix it. So I did the one thing I could, I let you go. The other night when I saw you, I couldn't breathe. I have wanted you every single day. I want the life we dreamed of Casey. I am only half alive without you." I say in a voice just above a whisper.

"I am still moving Alexandra." Casey says boldly.

I shake my head in understanding. Quietly, I say, "I understand Casey. Just know that I will always love you."

With that I turn and leave. Reaching the sidewalk, I want to collapse. I want to scream. I want to tell the heavens that this isn't fair. Why the hell was I cursed to find my soulmate despite my amazing lack of abilities with people and have some unexpected situation make my first taste of real happiness disappear. It wasn't fair. Why not just let me live out my lonely life without ever having a taste of how good life could be...

Hailing a cab I climb in and give the driver my address. As I make my way home, I start to think about what I am suppose to do now. Casey will be all the way across the country. How am I supposed to try to win her heart back like that? Fighting to find the answer in my head I suddenly realize there is a point I am missing. Quickly, I give the cabbie the new destination and sit back with a smile on my face.

Everything still could work out...