SAVING ME
He was so stupid, a stupid bull headed bastard. How could he trust someone like Melissandre? She only wanted his blood… for all the wrong reasons. His blood. He was Robert Baratheon's son, his father used to be the king. That's why he was trapped in that stupid cell; because his dear "uncle" wanted to sacrifice someone with his own blood, so he could sit on the Iron Throne.
He felt hopeless, he felt guilty. He really thought he was going to rot in that dungeon 'At least I deserve it' he thought. He felt so bad for leaving Arya behind… he regretted his decision of staying with The Brotherhood as soon as he turned down Arya's offer. She wanted him to be his family… and he said no. Arya was right, he really was stupid.
He could only think of Arya, he couldn't help it. He couldn't help but wonder if she would take him back someday. If she lives, will she forgive him? Will she be able to care for him and protect him the same way she used to? Would she still want him to be her friend after telling her who his father was?. Gendry didn't know. He just wanted to get out of that prison, so he could try to make it up to Arya. She was all he had, and he was willing to do anything for her and he was determined to prove that to her, until his dying day.
Prison gates won't open up for me
On these hands and knees I'm crawlin'
Oh, I reach for you…
well I'm terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can't hold my soul in
All I need is you, come please, I'm callin'
And, oh, I scream for you
Hurry, I'm fallin', I'm fallin'
Gendry thought of Arya. He screamed her name on the top of his lungs, only to hear his own echo answering him. He had never felt more frustrated in his entire life. He was certain he was going to die in that place sooner or later. The thought of Arya was the only thing that kept him sane.
Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Arya always knew what the right thing to do was. She was wild and impulsive, yes, but she always knew. She always knew…
Say it for me, say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me
Of course he wasn't worth saving. The moment he decided to leave her behind, that was the moment he stopped being worthy of her. He didn't even deserve her company anymore.
Heaven's gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm fallin' and all I see is you
These city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And, oh, I scream for you come please,
I'm callin' and all I need from you, hurry, I'm fallin', I'm fallin'
Gendry closed his eyes and saw black. He was starting to lose his mind in that cell: the remorse he felt for leaving Arya alone with the Hound and the Brotherhood was killing him… he was hungry, he was thirsty, he was cold and yet none of that mattered. He finally understood why the Gold Cloaks were looking for him, why the Brotherhood sold him, the reason why the Red Woman wanted him. He was the bastard of Robert Baratheon. But to Arya he was still Gendry, the stupid bullheaded boy from Flea Bottom…and that's how he preferred to think of himself.
Say it if it's worth saving me
Say it if it's worth saving me, hurry, I'm fallin'
Say it for me, say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me
Gendry only hoped that Arya would forgive him someday, if she was still alive. He hoped she would save him someday. That's what she always did anyways. He just wished he was still worth saving.
(A/N: The characters belong to George RR Martin and HBO. Lyrics by Nickelback)
