"Talk"
'thoughts'
*mind talk*
[dreams/flashbacks]
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Ch. 3 memories resurface and old wounds open
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(Kurama) He fell into an uneasy sleep.[ He was walking in the forest as Youko. He suddenly sensed a powerful demon enter his lands. He rushed to the demon at full speed. When he got there he bound the demon with vines.
"Who are you and why have you come here?" he asked voice low and deadly. The demon stop struggling and looked up. A faint blush stained her ivory white skin as she looked at him eyes wide. 'A girl?' he thought to himself. 'a demon girl has this much power?'
"Um could you let me go please." she asked blushing a little deeper. Her words shook him from his thoughts.
"Why are you here girl." at his words her eyes flashed.
"I was invited." she stated obviously trying to keep her temper in check. Hearing this he smirked inwardly.
He couldn't see her face it was hidden by the shadows.
" Who would invite one as ugly as you." Her eyes went blood red. Her power rose at these words.
"How dare you!" she yelled at him growling. " I was invited by the lord of the north fox boy you got a problem with it?!" she retorted anger taking over. The vines tightened at her words.
"Is that so." He stated calmly his anger hidden. The vines let go as soon as they did he had her pinned against a tree where he could see her face. His eyes flashed with shock briefly but was gone to fast for her to see it. He saw she was far from ugly. She was the most beautiful demon he'd ever lay eyes on.
She had golden eyes that outshone the sun, perfect rose red lips that looked as if they would be sweet and leave any demon begging for a kiss, her sent was that of roses, she had ivory white porcelain skin she had a crescent purple moon on her forehead and two orange stripes upon each cheek. Her anger flushed face added to the beauty that only a blind man could miss it made her look tempting. He wanted to, for the first time in his life, find out how good it would feel to be inside a woman to have her beneath him screaming and moaning his name in pleasure as he rocked inside her feeling her insides and her perfect curves around him.
"What is your name girl?" he asked voice revealing none of his thoughts. Her anger rose more. He was suddenly finding it hard to control himself. She growled. His grip on her tightened as he battled his instincts. "You said you were invited." he said voice low and deadly.
"Yes." she snarled. He pulled his face close to hers as if to kiss her. His lips so close to hers she could feel his hot breath on her lips, her anger forgotten for the moment, her breath caught in her throat.
"Well we shall soon find out." he said softly.
With the blink of an eye he threw her over his shoulder cursing himself mentally for almost letting his instincts take over as he ran toward the northern palace. He noticed her slim light body and felt her perfect curves as she started to struggle and curse him.
"You bastard let me down!" she yelled at him as she pounded on his back with her fists. He made it to the palace in record time. The lord of the north was coming down the stairs when he saw his son carrying a demon girl over his shoulder he chuckled lightly.
"It is not like you to give in to those types of urges Youko." at the lords words she stopped struggling. She lifted herself so she could glare at the lord. He saw her face and was completely shocked.
"She says she was invited." the lord was shook from his thoughts his eyes widened slightly seeing the crescent moon on her forehead.
"Why Lady Sesshemoru I did not expect you to be here for a few more days this is quite a surprise." he murmured.
"Well I ran into a small problem and had to run more than I would have liked to given my situation. Now can you please tell fox boy to let me down."
Youko growled at her words and dropped her. She, of course, landed gracefully on her feet. She glared at him reproachfully as he retreated to the of solace his garden. He felt something he thought his cold heart would never feel. before he woke he saw her face then watched it fade as Sarumi's face appeared.]
Kurama woke with a start to his mothers knocking on the door. "I'm up mother!" he called as he got out of bed and dressed for school.
(School) Kurama walked slowly trying to figure out the meaning to the ending of his dream/memory.
'what are you trying to tell me Youko...' he thought as Kuabara ran up to him. "Did they find out anything useful?" he asked.
"Uh no but Hiei said Both Botan and Yukina know her and seem to be good friends with her."
"I see."
"But they both wont say a thing about it."
"Why not?"
"They said something about a girls unspoken code of secrecy." Yuske answered walking up to them.
"Lucky for us Hiei heard everything they said." Kurama answered.
Yuske shook his head. "No good he won't talk either."
"Your kidding me."
"Nope he won't say a word his excuse is he was to far away to hear anything which I know he's lying."
"I wonder what was said..."
"Well speak of the devil" Yuske said as Hiei walked up to them.
"Hiei have you ever heard of a demon named Sesshemoru?" Kurama asked suddenly. Hiei looked at him sharply eyes boring into his.
"Maybe why?" he asked.
"She was in my dream last night."
"Your dream?"
"Yes it was a memory I think and I think it was trying to tell me something. Do you know who she is?"
"Yes"
"Who is she?"
"You have to find out on your own."
"Okay then can you tell me the connection between her and Sarumi?"
"No." Kurama sighed getting answers from Hiei was like getting answers from a brick wall.
Kurama sat at his desk in first period waiting for Sarumi to arrive. She walked in and sat down. It was no good he'd have to do it himself if he wanted answers.
"Sarumi are you busy tonight?"
"No why?"
"I was wondering, sense your so good at history if you could tutor me after school."
"Fine meet me by the exit when the bell rings."
"Thank you very much."
(A few weeks later)"So how bad did I do?" Kurama asked Sarumi after she'd finished quizzing him. They had become very close over the past few weeks. She smiled at him
"Not bad at all you only missed one question."
"Good now can you help me with this one math problem I keep getting stuck on this one part."
"Ok" She walked to the side of him and looked at the problem.
"Oh I see it this is wrong you do it like this." She showed him how to do it then looked at him smiling as she sat beside him on the bed, they were at his house his mother wasn't home, he looked into her smiling eyes and his breath caught. his face suddenly was as close as Youko's was to Sesshemoru in his dream from a few weeks back. He closed the small distance and kissed her lips softly.
He soon found his hands wrapping in her soft hair as hers suddenly moved around his neck. he started to deepen the kiss as she slowly started to kiss back. He felt himself pressing her back into the bed wanting her with every fiber of his being. As he pushed her back reality came back to her full force. Her eyes opened wide and she pushed him away. He fell back shocked at her actions and his.
"Sarumi?" he asked confused as she started to gather her things.
"I-I'm sorry Kurama I have to go." she answered voice breaking slightly. 'How could I have done that?! Please forgive me Youko...' she thought as she rushed out and to her home.
'I don't get it..she was kissing back...' he thought confused.
[Sesshemoru flashed in his head her eyes were sad unshed tears were filling her pale lifeless eyes they looked like Sarumi's had on her first day of school. He turned and saw what made her heart break he saw Youko holding a demon woman against a tree he saw her kiss him quick as she saw Sesshemoru. She pulled back smiling Youko's stomach dropped to his feet when he smelt Sesshemoru close he also smelt her unshed tears. he turned and looked at her face emotionless. He felt Youko's heart shatter when she turned and walked away never looking back and out of his life forever.......]
Kurama woke at the sound of his doorbell. He got up and walked to the door. He opened it "Botan?"
"I need to talk to you."
"Okay" he stepped aside to let her in. She sat on the couch as he sat in a chair across from her.
"I have a question to ask you or Youko rather." Kurama nodded and transformed.
"What is it?" Youko asked.
"When will you reclaim the northern lands?"
"I do not know yet why?"
"Ok I have one more question." he nodded.
"Did you ever really love anyone with all your heart?"
'Yes' was what he was thinking but,
"No" was the words that came out of his mouth. "Is that all?"
"Yes good bye."
She left. She rounded the corner and met with Yukina.
"Well?" Yukina asked. Botan shook her head sadly.
"You were right. She is still in love with him and he will never return her feelings. She is saving her heart in vain." Hiei watched from a safe distance and heard everything that was said.
"And she's been through so much already." Botan added.
"It will kill her if she knew he was here after all this time. It would break her spirit as well as her heart all over again." Youko was also listening.
"How can you tell someone as gentle and caring as Sesshemoru that all her love has been wasted on a man who will never love her back." Botan asked.
"I think she knows that...that's the sad part. she knows yet.." Yukina started.
"How can you tell?"
"Her eyes they always give her away if you look deep enough you can see past the false cheerfulness and smiles directly into her soul. She will never get over him. It is as she said he stole her heart when they first met and I'm afraid she'll never get it back. Her eyes are so sad and lonely. Look into her eyes tomorrow you will then see what she truly feels like on the inside." Yukina told her.
Youko had stopped listening when he heard Yukina say that Sesshemoru still loved him.
(Sarumi)[She was walking to meet with Youko who she had secretly fell in love with over the past two years. She was to tell him that his father wanted to see him. She rounded the corner and felt her heart shatter at the site that greeted her eyes. Youko held a demon woman against a tree and watched as she kissed him. He did nothing to stop the kiss he let her she came up and smiled at him. He turned his face and looked directly at her. Face emotionless that gave none of his feelings go he held on to his pride instead of showing her his heart. She turned holding back the tears and slowly walked away not looking back was the hardest thing she thought she'd ever have to do. Feeling for the first time in her life empty she lost her heart and temporarily her soul. But, she wouldn't cry. She would never let one tear slip for the man she knew she would always love no mater what. That was her downfall she was never happy again after that. The dream shifted. She walked and met up with Botan. Yukina was walking by her side Yukina was the only one who was ever capable of seeing through her mask of deceit and into her soul.]
She woke at the sound of the door bell. She opened the door looked around then down and saw it was no other than Jakken her father's loyal toad servant " What do you want?"
"Lord Sesshomaru wants you to bring your brothers to the tournament to make sure you go." he replied.
"I cant I'm fighting in the tournament." Jakken started to panic then.
"I'll have my friend Yukina bring them with her. Now where are they?" as if out of thin air they launched themselves at her.
She caught them with surprise. She'd heard she had two little brothers but she had never met them until now.
"Sissy!!!!" one of them said.
"Yay we've been waiting sense forever to meet you."the other said.
"Yeah why didn't you visit?" the first one asked.
She looked down to tell Jakken something but he had vanished. She walked in closing the door and sighing
"Well what are your names?" she asked them.
"My name is Ryoshin." the first one replied.
"Mine is Kyoshin." said the other.
"And how old are you?"
"Were this many!" they said enthusiastically holding up five fingers. she smiled slightly
"Well then you get enrolled in school tomorrow."
"Daddy said were going to live with you for a while."
"That doesn't surprise me where are your papers?" they hand them to her.
(At school) She walked down the sidewalk after dropping the boys off and enrolling them into the local elementary school and making them swear to behave themselves. She saw Keiko ahead of her she had hoped to walk to school alone. She got to school and sat in her English class.
"Ok class today we see if yesterday's poems words are true. Grab a partner and look into there eyes and see there soul." the teacher said. Sarumi was partnered up with Keiko.
"this is stupid it will never work." Keiko said.
"Lets just get it over with."
"Okay I'll go first." Keiko said.
She looked into Sarumi's eyes at first she saw boredom then she saw something flicker in its depths she looked deeper and there she saw it.
Her eyes held wisdom, strength, courage, she looked a little deeper and what she found surprised her she saw love a never ending love held for someone also with the knowledge she would never have them. She saw sadness and loneliness that were hidden deep within its depths. Tears gathered in her eyes as she realized the pain she was going through. The sadness Keiko felt when she thought Yuske had died was nothing compared to hers.
Keiko ran out the room crying when the bell rang. She ran to the roof where she knew Yuske was. She slammed the door open. Yuske waited for her to yell when her eyes fell on him. She ran to him and nearly tackled him down in a tight hug.
It was then he noticed she was crying. "Keiko what's wrong? Why are you crying?"
"Oh Yuske its horrible. Please don't ever leave me I don't think I could handle it."
"What are you talking about Keiko?"
"Its Sarumi"
"what did she do I'll hurt her for making you cry."
"I saw her soul......"
"What?"
"Through her eyes. For our English project it was horrible."
"What did you see?"
"At firs only boredom when I looked deeper I saw wisdom, strength, courage and an endless love for someone she would never have and sadness and loneliness. Then..."
"Then?"
"I saw her soul."
"What did it look like?"
"Empty...It was empty. there was nothing there. Oh Yuske It was horrible" she started to cry into.
Yuske just held her close as he watched Sarumi leave school grounds and walk for home.
(Home) She got the boys to play video games while she did her homework. She looked at her English homework. She had to write a poem or song her choice to read to the class for a three hundred point grade. She looked at the blank paper in front of her trying to decide on what to write. Her hand started to write before she could decide.
Sarumi looked at the paper and blinked. Kyo and Ryo run in
"Sesshe were hungry."
"Alright lets go eat then."
They leave and go 2 eat out. Kurama just so happened to be eating there with his mother. They sit down and order. Kurama watched her enter with two little boys and sit at a table. 'I wonder who they are.' he thought.
(next day )The English teacher called people in and told them that there would be supervisors coming in and out to hear there poems or songs they didn't have to sing them just read them if they didn't want to sing. Sarumi was the last to go up.
"My name is Sarumi Yukibara and this is my song. The title is Why I Love You." As she sung the memories started 2 come back…
Every time I close my eyes I see
The love that will never be
My heart belongs to one person
To that person I want to hate
I sit down sometimes thinking to myself
Would it have been different if I had looked back
When I was walking away
What would I have seen
In those lovely frozen eyes
Were they still cold and emotionless
Or were they different
[she looked into his eyes and turned never looking back not once not letting anything go not even the tears….]
Every time I close my eyes I see
The love that will never be
My heart belongs to one person
To that person I want to hate
I've spent countless years trying to find
The reason I left it all behind
Why I felt so lonely inside
Why was I so empty inside
You stole my heart thief that's why
And I'll never get it back
[she sat there alone in her rose garden empty she felt nothing….nothing at all…]
Every time I close my eyes I see
The love that will never be
My heart belongs to one person
To that person I want to hate
I've tried to forget you
To make my heart hate you
The thief who stole my heart
And broke my soul
[she was in Koenma's office and reviewing what was her latest case when suddenly a man burst through the door ..she can remember his words to this very day…she could never forget them "Koenma sir the north has fallen and lord Youko is dead.."]
Every time I close my eyes I see
The love that will never be
My heart belongs to one person
To that person I want to hate
Every time I close my eyes I see
The love that will never be
My heart belongs to one person
To that person I want to hate
Looking back now I see why
I could never leave you behind
Your eyes showed no emotion
But I glanced into your soul
That day we first met
I saw you were never loved
So I decided to love you
[she was headed for the north taking her time and the long way to see the sites she entered the north at a run from Ryukane's men and was suddenly pinned by vines. Then he came out they exchanged words then she was pinned 2 a tree. She looked into his eyes and felt her heart cry out at his pain and loneliness]
Every time I close my eyes I see
The love that will never be
My heart belongs to one person
To that person I want to hate
Every time I close my eyes I see
The love that will never be
My heart belongs to one person
To that person I want to hate
That's why I can never hate you
I chose to love you
And I still do
No matter how long it takes
I will wait for you
My frozen eyed thief
And follow you to the ends of the earth
My love for you is never ending
And will always be
For now and all eternity
[she turned and walked away from the only man she would ever love. The only man who she would ever want.. knowing she couldn't have him she knew in her heart he would never return her feelings.. Even when she decided to love him..]
Every time I close my eyes I see
The love that will never be
My heart belongs to one person
To that person I want to hate
Every time I close my eyes I see
The love that will never be
My heart belongs to one person
To that person I want to hate
But will always love
Till death and after
You own my heart and my soul…..forever.
As she sung she had her eyes closed as tears raked her insides.. yet she wouldn't cry. When she opened them she saw all the girls were crying the guys looked at her in shock and looked as deeply moved as the girls. The observers were sitting in shock they had no idea that such a moving song or words would come from a high school girl. The whole class stood and clapped. She blushed slightly and stood walking to her desk. She couldn't believe she actually did that. She sat down and looked at her desk top.
(lunch) By then everyone was talking about Sarumi's song.
"I was passing by the class and heard it… burr it gave me the chills her spirit energy was like it was crying from a long time of suffering. I saw some of what she was remembering to. The only thing I saw though was when she turned her back on some guy with silver hair and fox ears holding a woman against a tree. Man I feel so sorry for her I could feel her emotions to…" shivers again.
"I don't ever want to feel like that again." Kuwabara said to Yuske and Botan as they watched Sarumi
"what did it feel like exactly?" Yuske asked curious.
"empty.. Like there was no hope left." he clinched his fist in anger.
"man I wish I could find that demon and rip him to shreds! No woman should have to feel like that."
"Botan?"
"yes Yuske?"
"tell me.. do you know why she's like that?"
"yes she has had a difficult life. She has more burdens than any of us put together…and the fact that what kuwabara saw was true only keeps adding to the burden and the pain.." Botan said sadly her eyes watching her as she walked.
(after school) Sarumi walked to the elementary school and picked up her little brothers. They walked by her side holding her hands and smiling. They were happy that alone made her smile slightly. They ran into Kurama when they turned the corner. Unfortunately for them…
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MWAHAHAHAHAHA another chapter ish done!!!!! Well I'm currently still typing the next chapter so I'll probably need you guys to constantly remind me to keep at it okies? ^_^ Tootles ::STUFF!!::
