Chapter 3 – My Mother

New York, 10/06/2006

My dear Serena,

It feels like you've been away for months.

You didn't answer nor return any of my calls and I feel left behind.

Nate's leaving me behind either.

When we speak about you he lights up a little. He misses you too. He doesn't want me to know but I can see it in his eyes.

I think even Chuck misses you.

My mother left last Friday. Finally she's moved on.

She seemed to be even more absent since my father's departure. We haven't talked.

Not that we talked much before but the silence is different now.

She never cared. But I never thought it possible that she could care less.

Yesterday I went through some clubs with the girls to show them who's the queen of Constance. They seemed to question me - it was time for a sign.

It was a long night out and I didn't get one bit tired.

How are you?

I hope you're fine.

I haven't seen Eric in a while.

Love,

Blair.