SELCOUTH
Death leaves a heartache no one can heal
Love leaves a memory no one can steal.
-From a headstone in Ireland
Chapter 3
Everything became hazy as soon as I watched her gape at us. The time seemed to stop and froze this scenario. I don't know, maybe I'm too intoxicated that made say cliché things. She stood there, almost half of her figure was covered by the door. Her wanderlust eyes stared at us - those same expressive eyes from the past, varied emotions reflected like a glass and was emphasized by her long dark lashes. Her white-pink hair slightly damp from the weather outside and her familiar pale lips slightly parted from embarrassment. Her fair soft cheek was slightly dusted in pink. After all these years, she still fucking look like straight out from a fairytale book.
I stared back and felt myself gaped as well. Before my thoughts could trail off, the woman under me spoke in an irritated manner glaring back at her. I shifted to look at the woman under me, her wild tresses sprawled out on my navy blue pillow. Before I can untangle myself from her body, I heard Sakura spoke,
"I- I'm so sorry, wrong room. Lock it next time." Her voice held its defiance and so were her eyes, that held… disappointment? Then I realized, what I really am doing. I watched her retreated calmly as she can. The next thing I knew, everything went hazy. I stood up and retrieve my clothes that I had no memory taking them off. Then, Karin (I recognized her now.), was shouting at me, more like demanding.
"What the hell, Sasuke!?" from the corner of my eyes I watched her cover herself using my navy sheets. Her red eyes held confusion and shock and her red uneven hair perfectly disheveled. Her red rimmed glasses forgotten. I ignored her and finished off putting my pants.
"After what we've done!?" I heard her annoying voice screeched again. I closed my eyes and sighed. My head felt like someone's hammering nails in it. I suddenly wondered where the blonde idiot was. Maybe, he was left at the lounge or passed out somewhere.
"Just get out, Karin."
"You just can't do that!"
"Yes, I can. Don't make me repeat myself." I warned her, my eyes turned red as I glanced at her direction. She did not dare to make a move but tears were forming in her eyes. I turned away and head out from the door,
"You should be gone when I come back."
I found myself in front of Sakura's door, knocking softly as I can when I just wanted to kick it open or maybe teleport myself inside. But that's just cruel. Her fragile state has been through a myriad of predicaments she refused to share with us. I knocked again when I heard no movements from the inside. I waited for another five minutes. Dejectedly, I surrendered and went to the kitchen with careful steps to get a glass of water.
Dressed in my black jeans, black slip-on and black quarter sleeves shirt. My headache was not as worse as last night, Shizune's medicine did a good job diminishing the ache. I found myself in the classroom, seated in my usual seat beside Naruto and my old classmates from the academy creating a small circle in my area. I paid no mind in whatever unimportant things they were talking about. My eyes scanned the room and hoped to see her in class with us, like before. I felt a slightly cold hand on top of my right one and saw a worried-looking Hinata gazed up at me. Her soft lavender eyes expressed concern. I was about to knock off her hand before her Sight could see past me.
I shook off her hand as her lavender eyes widened at disbelief. We drew attention that even Naruto bothered her to tell him what she saw. The Sight of the Hyuuga Clan can see the past. I don't particularly know what part of the past, but it often was the recent or prominent one. I suddenly got an idea to ask Hinata to touch Sakura, later. She mentally asked me if she could share it to Naruto, her intriguing eyes were expecting. I gave a small nod.
After the first class I decided to wait for Sakura in the lounge since I don't have classes anymore for the day. I took advance classes as my father expected from me. My father is the current sovereign in the Society. My older brother would probably succeed him soon, maybe after his fucking suicide mission somewhere classified. He's working as a double agent since the war will probably approach soon enough. I have training for the rest of the day because my father expects me to enter the Elite, the group of witches and warlocks with outstanding powers. Every test varies each year which is the reason why I really need to train hard.
I opened the black book I was holding and decided to review the spells my silver-haired porn-reading mentor gave. It was then that I saw her from the peripheral vision of my sight, descending down the staircase. She looked eye-catching as expected even without make-up. I just watched her from the corner of my eyes and she paid no attention to me. She just passed me by.
I released the breath I was holding. I watched her back as she went out and regretted last night. Hell, I am not particularly sure why I let myself be drunk - if it's because of Itachi or her or father. Probably all of them. I didn't even remember how I ended up screwing Karin last night at all.
I felt a sudden urge to fix this thing between Sakura and I. I believe it's time for us to make up for the past, no matter how cheesy I may sound. I don't care because she's here and that's all that matters to me. War is approaching, as my brother said. There will be no certainty that we could still be together after the war. Somehow, that possibility is very alarming.
I made my way to the kitchen to get some snacks. It was wide, old-English style structure with two wide tables that sometimes used for gatherings. Not all of us eat at the same time, unless called for. I dismissed the look of adoration of the witches I passed by and took a soda from the vending machine before ordering nachos.
After three hours more, I heard the front door closed and noticed her silhouette from the corner of my eyes. She was holding two plastic bags from the grocery store. She probably got lost on the way considering the time she spent outside.
"I got lost, can you believe that?" she started before I could say anything. It's a rare occurrence that she's lost her way. But then I realized that she just arrived here from a goddamn forest, she chose to confine herself in. I briefly wondered if she was talking to me at all. I glanced around the room that I failed to notice that I'm already alone.
She had a small smile on her face when she sat across from me and dropped the bag near her feet. In return, I closed my book and sighed. She stared back at me with the same haunting eyes that held happiness as usual.
"Sakura," I called out to her. My voice became softer than I intended it to be. She eyed me expectantly, the same smile never left her delicate face.
"I'm sorry, about last night. I was drunk, intoxicated. I'll admit that I failed to think straight." I exhaled upon finishing what I said. Her lithe figure moved, she walked with grace (like she always does) and I felt her weight on the sofa beside me.
"Sasuke, I'm not angry at all." She replied with a low serious voice. I noticed her lips curved upwards forming a small sad smile, "I can't blame you. I left us for years and somehow, I understand that you would decide to move on."
I can't help raising my right hand to cup her face. Oh gods, I missed her so so much. Fair and soft under my calloused ones. She gazed at the hand placed on her cheek from the corner of her eyes. Emerald orbs brimming with surprise but she did not move or lean to my touch nor she flinched at all. From another person's view, we would've been romantic.
"I want to make up to you. I just want us to be the same way as before." I breathed, my voice was low and quiet like a whisper in the night. She smiled wider and was she stifling a laugh? I don't care for the moment. She stared back at me, her bright green eyes saddened. Was there something wrong that I had said?
"I don't know. I'm dangerous." She looked at her lap. I can tell that she's fighting back her tears, "You probably won't accept me when you find out what happened years ago."
I gaped at her reply. It was just so un-Sakura like. Then her emerald eyes turned into a defiance, "And you can't push me to tell you now. I'm not ready."
"I'll wait. We'll take it slow, okay?" She bit her lip upon my response and stared at me for what seems like an eternity when in fact it was just for a minute. I gave chaste kiss on her forehead, softly as I can. Maybe I really am afraid that she'll break and disappear again.
"We'll try... we'lltry..." She replied, with her voice like feathers soft and quiet, slightly nodding her head to agree.
Yes, it's short because it's a draft.
To answer all your reviews (yes, including the negative ones that broke my heart):
It sad to think that we hate or dislike a story immediately after a SECOND chapter. I mean, we don't know the FULL story yet but we judge like some inconsiderate twat we are(no offense, I even included myself). In return, I published the draft of the third chapter just to calm you guys. I was deeply saddened by the comments saying that I "ruined" it, when in fact, it's part of what I plan to get them back together. I mean, why would I even ruin my ownplot?
Maybe, I should just discontinue this if you all keep on complaining like that. I'm still a person on the other side of what you were reading :)
(You may or may not want to read this because I left a couple of clues) Here's a couple of reviews I want to answer:
crazymel2008:I really hope this isn't one of those stories where Sakura suffers and is always sad because of Sasuke's relationship with Karin. Please have Sakura actually start dating someother guy ( not Naruto)and actually like the guy and try to move on and hopefully sleep with the Sasuke slept with another girl so Sakura should sleep with some guy she is with but not for revenge on Sasuke. She shouldn't just put off her dating on hold just because she loves Sasuke. I really hope she falls out of love with him for awhile in the story and start to move on but Sasuke tries to win her back. Sasuke should also suffer to. Though since Sasuke is dating then so should Sakura. Please make Sasuke like get jealous alot. I hope this story will have other peoples pov to and not just Sakura. write whatever you soon.
best part of this chapter is when she caught them she didn't run away and cry and brushed them off which showed how strong she is. I really hope Sasuke thinks she doesn't care and that it kinda bothers him.
- Thanks for complimenting at the last part. I don't plan on making her date another guy because I want them to work on their relationship. She lived in a forest for like 4 years, and alone. She wouldn't just go on dating "some" other guy :) Thanks for the review and I do plan on making Sasuke jealous, he'll suffer too.
Dieinhappiness: Great chapter please update soon. A longer chapter next time
- Thank you. I'll try, dearie :)
Meemy-Chan: OMG! Awesome plot. And again very well written. I'm already hooked. BUT why Karin?Why? It really broke my heart. But I'm sure you have your reasons and a little bit of drama like this is always good for the plot ;p
Anyways thanks for updating. I can't wait to know more about the background history... So please update soon :)
- Hi, thank you. I really appreciate your comment and understanding :) I'll add the background history probably on the next chapter.
Guest: I was really looking forward to reading it, but the sasukarin just turned me off.
- Thank you for your review. If it turned you off, I won't force you to read.
Sasusaku : I don't get why all authors make Sakura suffer by watching Sasuke with another girl without moving on from him, and to top, it making her a vergin.
- Who said she's a virgin? It's for the plot, dearie :)
delany16 :feel so sad for saku chan but who's after her thou nice chapter update soon
- Yeah, she'll have a lot to deal with. You'll know soon ;) Thanks for the review.
blupomme : My poor sakubby! Can't wait to learn more about whatever's after her. And Sasuke...you jerk. Can't wait to learn more about that as well!
- You'll know soon enough :) Thanks for the review.
miss ASSASSIN MASTER: 2nd chapter and drama already goin down. its cool and im ready to see whats up with that bullet
-I'll explain soon enough, thank you for your review :)
Guest : You just had to ruin it by putting karin( assuming it is) having sex with sasuke in the story
- I won't ruin my own plot :) Thank you for your review
