Her fear.

A/N: For the request, "A coai oneshot of BO fight". Shinichi' POV will be posted soon.

R&R people, more requests still acceptable=)

"Haibara?" his head pops in through the slightly opened door, "Finally! I've been looking everywhere for you" he enters and closes the door behind him,

"What now?" She was sitting on the bed, tying the laces of her boots,

"Just wanted to ask you how you're doing," Kudo Shinichi leans against the door,

"I'm fine, Kudo-kun. I'm fine" she says as she gets up and stands in front of the mirror.

She wasn't fine; in fact she was everything but fine; terrified, anxious, excited yet scared. She looks at her reflection, Miyano Shiho, dressed completely in black. The color she hates the most, but has to wear it today. Black tank top, with plain black jeans and black boots. She was armed and completely ready for the battle. But that didn't mean she was fine, she was literally screaming behind her poker face, but she would never ever say that to him.

Not that he needed to hear it, to know it.

"We'll make it Haibara," he sighs, "We'll do it"

Today was the fight of the century, the one every single person waited for. Today, they bring that god damn organization down. The FBI, CIA, MPD and many local agencies that were after it, were going to participate.

Shiho had made the permanent antidote a week ago, and both of them returned to their original forms. She was going to take part in the fight too, much to Shinichi's dismay. She wasn't going to hide or run away today, she was gonna fight, and take back everything they ever stole for her.

"I know we will" she says monotonously. Kudo now stands behind her, their reflection side by side. She puts her bullet proof vest on and he tightens the straps from behind. She avoids his gaze, knowing very well that the moment he looks in her eyes, he'll know how scared she is. The moment she looks up, his eyes lock with hers and there you go. He sees it,

"We're gonna be fine, trust me" he gives her shoulder a squeeze,

"What if we don't?" she turns around to look at him directly, "What if this all is a trap? What if they know what we're planning and are already prepared?" she babbles, fear and panic across her usually cold face, "What if we lose? What if Gin finds us first" her face tightens at his name, "What will you do then?! What if he sees me, or you? He won't let us alive-"

He pulls her into a hug, wrapping his arms securely around her, and she immediately relaxes. True, she doesn't like anyone touching her, but sometimes it's acceptable, only with him. Because his touch relaxes her, calms her down.

"I won't let anything happen to you, Haibara" he says gently, "I promised I'll protect you, right?"

"It's not me I'm worried about" she says, her head against his shoulder. She didn't give a damn to what happens to her, she doesn't care. But she can't lose him, if anything happens to him, she will never forgive herself.

He smiles softly, "I'll be fine," she raises her head to look at him,

"Promise me, Kudo-kun" she says sternly, "Promise me you'll be careful, that you won't go risking your life for nothing." her face softens, "Promise me you'll stay safe"

"Yes Ma'am, I promise" he grins, "Same goes for you, promise me that you'll make sure to take care of yourself, nothing else matters"

"I will" she nods her head, "But between me and you-"

"You'll chose yourself, and I'll take care of the rest" he cuts her before she could finish that awful sentence,

"No Kudo-kun, whatever we do, we'll do it together, if we live, we live together, if something happens to you-" her voice breaks, she can't even complete that sentence.

"Nothing will happen, I promise, we'll both make it, together like always" he pulls her into his embrace again, "There won't be a need for doing anything stupid."

The door opens and they pull apart quickly,

"Ten minutes to go" Akai Shuichi informs them, and then turns to shiho, "You good?" she gives a stiff nod, her face quickly masked in a matter of seconds.

He closes the door again and they both look at each other,

"Don't let me down, Holmes" she smirks,

"As long as you're by my side, dear Watson" he grins. They continue looking at each other before Shiho leans in, giving him a soft kiss which he returns immediately.

"Forever and always" she whispers with her forehead touching his. They remain in that position for a while, eyes closed, his hand caressing her cheek whiles hers in his hairs.

And then they let go.

They get into the jeep, hand in hand, his giving strength to hers. As they revise the whole ambush.

Before getting off, she gives him a smile, not a smirk; a true smile, reserved only for him.

"If something happens to me-" he starts but she cuts him off,

"There's no me without you" she says and gets off. They both had to go different ways, much to their dislike, but shinichi had to go with group A, the ones to attack on the main building, while Shiho with group C, the ones responsible for the labs and offices.

And thus the fight begins.

"Dang it!" she curses as a bullet grazes her shoulder, their group's job was done, but now she had to find Kudo. She had to, there was this feeling in the pit of her stomach, she knew something was wrong, and she wasn't going to sit idle and wait. She wasn't a damsel in distress waiting for her knight in shining armor. She wasn't Mouri Ran.

"God damn it Rye! Where is he?" she shouts into her ear piece as she fires at two more people, a bullet straight to the heads killing them instantly,

Rye was with the snipping team, and probably the one responsible for 80% of the killings. Along with that, he kept everyone safe, killing people they couldn't see. But mostly, his job was to keep her safe.

"I can't see him," he lies fluently; he could see him in the opposite direction, in a hand to hand combat with Vodka. He knew Gin was somewhere near, and he couldn't let her anywhere near that bastard. Besides, somebody requested something, and he wouldn't deny that request.

"I'm gonna shoot your eyes once we get out of here" she says with venom and he couldn't stop himself from chuckling. But the smile was erased as soon as he saw Chianti aiming at shiho,

"To the right, Sherry" he instructs and she follows, and a bullet lands where she was before. He immediately aims at Chianti and effectively kills her.

"Thanks" she mutters as she keeps running, killing dozens and avoiding dozens. A man suddenly appears out of nowhere and shoots at her, a bullet lands on her shoulder as she hisses in pain, but that didn't stop her from firing at him. He avoided them mostly, but a bullet hit his leg. He was good, she observes as she shoots his gun, which flies away. He curses and lunges at her, she avoids his punch as she elbows him in the gut. He stumbles backwards but soon takes out his knife and attacks again, before she can retaliate, somebody kicks the knife out of his hands,

"Why don't you pick someone your size, Brandy" Bourbon smirks and they get into a fierce fight, "I've got him, go" he shouts at her and she runs away.

"Where do you think you're going, sherry?" Vermouth raises her eyebrows at her, with that sickening smile. Shiho was panting, the bullet on her right arm numbing it. "You don't have your silver bullet to save you now, do you?"

"Where is he?!" she says through clenched teeth,

"Ahh, how would I know?" Vermouth tilts her head,

Shiho shoots and she gracefully avoids her bullets, "You actually think you can beat your seniors?" she smirks, "Don't forget that we're the one who taught you everything"

Shiho aims again and misses her,

"My turn, sweetheart" She says as she shoots shiho in the leg. "See?" she blows her gun,

"Vermouth I need to find him" shiho looks at her; she knew that Kudo was Vermouth's weak point. "I need to find him before Gin does."

"What if he already did?" she asks innocently as she tilts her head to the back of the building, where Kudo Shinichi was standing face to face with Gin.

"Sherry get out of there!" Rye shouts and she ignores him, sprinting in Kudo's direction. She won't let anything happen to him, I'm sorry Kudo-kun, for I can't keep my promise. She thinks as she reaches them, just in time for Gin to raise his gun, but before he could shoot Kudo, she shoots his arm and he turns to look at her, leaning against a pillar, panting heavily. Blood oozing from her shoulder and leg,

Kudo and Gin were both shocked, but Gin recovered quickly,

"Well well well, look what we got here" he snarls, "Our filthy little rat came to save her knight in shining armor."

"Leave her alone, Gin" within moments, Kudo was in front of her, hands shielding her from him.

"The detective and the traitor, what a nice combination" Gin laughs as he loads his gun, "You can have your happily ever after in hell!" he shoots and shiho didn't know what happened or how it happened, but all she knew was the voice in her head that screamed not him, the next thing she knew was that she was in front of him, taking the bullet meant for him as she falls backwards.

She feels Kudo's arms wrapped around her, as he screams and somewhere in the background Gin falls to the ground too. A bullet straight to the heart, by none other than Kudo's gun.

"Haibara!" he shouts as he shakes her, "Hold on, please!" he was begging her, her vision was blurred, and she could only hear half of what he was sayin,

"Why did you-" "You're an idiot-" "Gosh the blood-" "Hold on, please" was that tears running down his cheeks? She couldn't see.

"You promised-" he was applying pressure at her wound. Begging her to stay awake. "Please Shiho, Please don't die on me" He used her first name; it was nice hearing it from him.

She raises her blood stained hand and cups his face, he places her hand quickly over hers, "Please, Please, Please" he was shaking his head, pleading none stop.

"I'm sorry" she whispers, I'm sorry I couldn't keep my promise.

"Shiho don't, please don't, we'll make it. You promised" he was blabbering. Crying, shaking his head. But she couldn't help it.

She smiles at him, "I remain, my dear heisie Holmes, very truly yours."

And her hand falls limply to the side. Another promise, she couldn't keep.

A/N: I'm sorry? I really am= (