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Every day that week passed the same way. Went to school, went home, read a book, refereed some matches. Same old, same old I admit some of the boys tried to ask me out, to my utter embarrassment and to my family's humor. But today was Saturday, and I was going to do something I had wanted to do for years. I was going to try and find the meadow.

Adam, of course offered to go with me, but it would be the first time since, well the day I died. I had been trying to find the meadow that day when it happened. So I wanted to go alone, because I'd have no idea how it would affect me, plus I don't want to give him another reason to be curious.

Ever since I had met him, he has always been trying to see into my past, but I couldn't and wouldn't let him. I have had the memories bottled up to so long now, I don't know how i'll react if they are released. He has persuaded me in many ways, so I often asked him why he didn't tell me about his past then. He simply said there wasn't much to tell but had a pained look in his eyes, which told me I shouldn't bring it up again, but he still seems to think that if he catches me off guard, I will tell him. No way that is going to work.

I left fairly early. Adam was out hunting with Lorrie, Jack and Joanne were trying to do some form of prank involving paintball guns and hamburgers- don't ask, I have no idea what goes through the heads of those two- on Kaiya and Sam who were... 'messing around' in Kaiya's studio. So I could leave fairly unnoticed.

I decided to run today, I'd take my bike out tomorrow, or maybe even to school next week, it was been neglected lately. I had built it myself, it's a hobby I liked to do, so I was now the mechanic of the family. I even built some of the cars from scratch, we thankfully had enough money, Jack and Joanne's parents had been fairly rich, we had some luck on the stock market, and every now and then some of us take up jobs to get that little bit extra.

It took me a while but I found the meadow in the end, and it looked exactly the same, even prettier through my vampire eyes, but it didn't feel the same. It felt like a place of loss and things long forgotten. I vaguely noticed my breathing hitch and my body involuntarily curling in on itself, but I was focusing on the memories flashing through my mind.

It started happy, like the time when we went to this very meadow and he told me how he felt, the first night I was aware he stayed, the time I went to his home for the first time and he played me my lullaby, the time he saved me from James, all the times he said he loved me. Then the time he said he didn't. He lied. The whole time I was played, I was a penny haired vampires little toy. It must have been hilarious for his family to see as well. How easily this little human could be used, and she didn't suspect a thing. It actually made me angry, which then made me surprised, as I had always believed that if I thought about it I would be cripplingly sad. Oh no, my mind never ceases to surprise me.

I made a small laugh in relief. I think I shall be able to cope with anger against sadness.

"Bella?" I jumped up in surprise and turned to face...

"Adam, let me guess you followed me?" I put my hands on my hips trying to be stern, but he just grinned sheepishly.

"Well not followed exactly, as I just came across your scent and... okay I followed it, but technically not you."

"Oh I love your explanation oh wise one." I said in a sarcastic tone but let a grin spread across my face. "Come here," I sat down on the grass and gestured for him to sit beside me, he hesitated but then came to sit next to me.

"This is a beautiful place."

"Oh yes, it's even more beautiful now than when I was human." I could see Adam's mouth fall open in shock.

"You're ready?" He asked in shock, and I nodded.

"But I'm not going to show you, I'll tell you." He nodded eager to hear anything. So I told him.

I vaguely told him what I remembered of my life before I moved to Forks, what I remembered about my dad, a bit about friends I remembered, like Angela, then I told him everything about Edward. By the end of it he was fuming.

"How could he do that to you?" He said while pacing around. "Stupid good for nothing vampires!" He screamed while throwing a tree a couple of miles away, them crumpled to the ground in sobs. I appeared next to him in a flash, worried by the sudden change in his emotions.

"She left me too Bella." He sobbed, I sat in shock while rubbing is back.

"What do you mean?" I whispered, hoping he hadn't suffered the same fate I have.

"I was in love with her, a vampire, but she left me too. Said she didn't love me, said she loved someone else." He sobbed harder, and I found myself sobbing with him.

"Are you sure you want to talk about it now?" I chocked out.

"Yes, or I might never be able to." He took a deep breath and began. "I had just celebrated my 16th birthday. I was out collecting wood when I saw her walking through the tree's towards me. She was so beautiful, she had long auburn hair, was normal height, but carried herself proudly. She told me how her car had broken down on the road. Wanting to help this damsel in distress, I followed her.

"When we arrived at the place where she claimed her car was, there was nothing. That was when I turned around to see her bright ruby eyes leaning over me hungrily. But I wasn't afraid, I actually still found her beautiful, so I smiled. She grew confused and fled." I gasped, that was incredibly difficult, to run away when you are about to make the kill, but I stopped that after the first couple of years and now drink donated blood.

"So I researched and quickly found out she was a vampire, and like you I decided it didn't matter. She came back a month after our last meeting and told me that she thought she loved me and I said that I did too. She changed her diet for me, and I kept her secret, even from my little sister. Just after my 17th birthday though, it seems a vampire followed her scent to my house, but we were both out, when we came back they had killed my sister." He clutched his head tightly, like he was trying to crush it into dust.

"She was 12. She had barely lived. I grew angry and in my grief filled haze told her to leave me alone. So she did. A couple of weeks later, I saw her again, and ran up to her. I told her how sorry I was, how I knew it wasn't my fault, but she just stared at me, then said 'I'm so sorry Adam, i've found someone else. I truly hope you find happiness without me' Then ran away." By this point he was staring ahead into space, and I brushed a bit of hair of his forehead, feeling motherly love for him.

"It had been 2 months and 6 days since she left, till you found me. At first I thought she had come back for me. But it wasn't meant to be I guess." He gave me a small smile. "But my only regret is that I couldn't say a proper goodbye to my parents, but I made a vow to them, To kill the vampire who killed my little sister."

"I will help you in anyway I can."

"Thank you." He nodded curtly at me, then held out a hand to help me up.

Just as we were about to leave the meadow, a disgusting stench blew in our faces. Then a figure stepped out of the trees, their eyes wide in shock.

"Jacob Black?"


Awww poor Adam, who killed his sister? and does his story sound familiar? ;)

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