(POV Peter)
It's been 5 months since I met her. I had this strange need to see her, to be with her this Mexican girl that studied in some scenic arts school and worked as a singer-waitress. I like to think that she also has feelings for me because she blush and acts nervous in front of me.
And let's talk about me… huh… Whenever I saw her I felt nervous, silly, and clumsy; I felt that my heart was no longer mine and that I would go insane without her. I knew this feeling well, I was falling in love with her and although I couldn't be with her because of my Spiderman situation I simply couldn't stop going to see her. I needed her more than I like to admit.
I went to orphanage not so often now, but I was going often to that place 50's TASTE, the place where Aria worked, it was always a pretext to go and see her.
Now here was a fair in the city and I was walking around to clear up my mind after a hard day of defending New York from crime and to just think.
I raised my look and I suddenly saw her: so radiant, so beautiful, laughing with her friends Tyler and Brooke that worked at 50's TASTE with her, she was laughing also with some other people I didn't knew. She had a black-white striped blouse with long sleeve, blue tight jeans and a black headband. She took my breath away once again.
A few seconds later she turned her head and she saw me, our eyes found each other.
God! She's just so gorgeous.
"Peter" she said smiling.
"Aria hi" I said smiling and starting to walk to her without seeing anything else, I tripped a few times and I almost fell but I didn't care, I only cared about those brown eyes and that girl who was only a few steps away, I couldn't look at anything but her and her smile. "W-what are you doing here?" that was the only thing that my mind could think about to say.
"Well… my friends and I are just walking around the city and thinking were we're going to drop by, you know…" she said blushing "By the way… this is all the gang but you surely noticed that already" there were two girls besides her and Brooke, one was black skin with really curly hair. and the other was skinny and redheaded, there was another guy who worked at 50's TASTE and whom I didn't actually knew his name, and two other guys, one brunet with black really short hair and the other one with brown dark hair for what I could notice because I couldn't apart my eyes from Aria. "How about you?" she asked.
"I'm just… taking a walk you know, to think"
She nodded and then we kept silence.
"Hey now that there's a fair over here you may want to…." I started to say "Or better we could, if not we could do anything else" Great! She'll say no dude, seriously you are so stupid. Why whenever you talk to a girl you are this dumb?
"Sure, it seems to be a good fair" I smiled gloriously "I mean if it's okay for them that I…."
"Yeah, yeah…you go" they all began to say messy.
"Okay guys…so?" she asked them.
"Don't worry Aria, you'll pay us tomorrow" the brunet guy said.
"Thanks Jet Boy" she said and the guy started to laugh, it was like a private joke between them but I didn't understand where was the joke, "…so I see you guys then" after that all started to go leaving us alone.
Then we started to walk, and eventually to talk. It all began with the questions of 'how have you been?' 'How was your week' and stuff. I told her I has a hard week at the Daily Bugle trying to convince Jameson to give me a raise, but I finally succeed menacing to take my picture to other newspaper, then I told her I wanted to know how did she arrived to New York and get to a theatre school. She told me how her parents went insane when she told them that she wanted to come to New York because she got a scholarship, it turned out to be that she was studying two carriers at the same time, her father was paying the "serious" carrier and she had a job to pay her other carrier which was scenic arts. She had one great opportunity one day that the dean of the Art School told her that she was one of the 10 girls in all Mexico chosen to get a scholarship for the AMERICAN ACADEMY OF DRAMATIC ARTS this school here in New York; she knew she couldn't just drop the opportunity so she beg her parents until they said yes, they didn't wanted to let her come because she'll be alone and in another country.
"… Sometimes I felt they let me come here because they felt that I would come back disappointed of New York but I had to demonstrate them I could make it on my own and in the city I fell in love with, I loved and I still loving musical theatre and I'll fight for it, I knew that it was going to be hard but when I arrived, everything was awful, I was staying at the rooms at the university and my roomate was awful, I was looking for a job and all was taken, I was alone and I felt broken, until I found Tyler, he saved me and became my best friend, thanks to him now I have where to live and I have a job, if it wasn't for him, I would be probably back in Mexico studying a career that didn't go with me" she confess me.
"So… thanks to him I met you" I smiled at her.
"Yeah, that's another thing I'm thankful for with him"
Then we played and we made foolishness. We went to this game of target practice and I won so I get to choose one price. I choose a big teddy bear of brown-blonde fur and I turned to Aria.
"For you" I said to her with a smile and I gave her the bear.
"Really?" she said excited and moved.
"Yes, really" she took it.
"Thank you! This is so cute, I love it! His name is gonna be Koda!"
"Koda?" I asked confused but smiling.
"Yeah… like the one from… what's that movie's name in English? 'Brother Bear' I think…"
"Oh… yeah"
We smiled and we went to another game where we had to fill some balloons with water guns. We were "concentrated" well… Aria was concentrated because I looked at her from time to time; it was great spending time with her. I pointed her with the gun and I wet her she looked at me making an "O" with her mouth while I was laughing but immediately I stopped and I regret what I've done because I didn't know if she would get mad, then she smiled challenging and she wet me too, I imitated her first expression like mocking her and then I tried to caught her but she started to run and I to reach her and when I finally did I carried her from behind and started to turn around and around until we fell. I fell above her. We laugh again looking at each other. I appreciated all her outside and inside beauty.
After a few moments of silence I couldn't resist temptation and I kissed her lips and she kissed me too. Whoa…. Her lips were so soft and they tasted so good. I felt so strong and at the same time so weak before her.
When we separate we smiled, there was no description for what I felt in this moment. I helped her to stand and I took the teddy bear to give it to her.
Time passed so quickly when we were together and I felt time with her was the best thing of my life. Now I knew I love her with all my senses, with all my heart, with all my soul.
We noticed it was getting late so I offer her to escort her to her home.
All the way we smile, but we didn't mention the kiss though I was dying to talk about it. Suddenly, without continence I held her hand and for my surprise she accepted it. We started to joked.
"Stop it Peter!" she said laughing.
Not too much time passed when she stopped in a building of apartments.
"Well… I live here" she said.
"So… I guess I see you later"
"Yeah…okay" she said and she kissed my cheek.
I opened my eyes surprised and excited while she entered to the building and waved goodbye. When I couldn't see her anymore I touched my cheek feeling her kiss and I smiled while I was on my way to the appartment I recently live on. I arrived to my little apartment, with a huge stupid face.
I went to the closet and I took my shirt off, then I found a picture on the floor. I took it in my hands and I saw it.
Gwen.
Questions started to invade my mind. What if Gwen would still alive? I would have never fallen in love with Aria. What if I've fallen in love with Aria and Gwen would still alive? Well, Gwen was dead and all because of me. Gwen died because she decided to be by my side while I faced Elektro and then we never saw Harry coming for revenge because I couldn't help him to heal. He wanted to revenge Spiderman because Spiderman couldn't help him, I couldn't help him. He wasn't in all his senses and when he found out I was Spiderman he took Gwen to punish me, and he did, because she died. Captain Stacy warned me that before and when Gwen died, I couldn't just face it.
I understood I couldn't be with Aria; it would be so selfish to be with her knowing she may die just like Gwen, so selfish to snatch all her dreams and to make her family and friends cry her death and have to face life without her. No, I couldn't do that again, not after all her hard work. She had the right to live and make all her dreams true.
