Chapter 3

Kahlan

The Confessor barely made it through the threshold before Cara pounced on her. Kahlan could feel all Cara's pent up anxiety release as she pressed her lips on Kahlan's. She had to admit; it did feel pretty good to be back in Cara's arms. She had never been in a relationship like this, so touching or even kissing were completely new experiences for the Confessor. Experiences that she intended to share with the lovely Mord'Sith. Kahlan moaned against Cara's mouth, shivering as the blonde ran a hand on the sensitive skin around her neck. Cara smiled devilishly and pushed Kahlan against the wall. Kahlan laughed and ran her fingers through Cara's beautiful blonde hair.

"Oh spirits, Cara. I love you so much," Kahlan said, kissing the woman in her arms again. When she finally moved down to the blonde's neck, Cara laughed lightly.

"I know."

Kahlan pulled away for a moment to look at Cara, gazing deep into her green eyes, almost becoming lost in them. The brunette couldn't think of a time when she was this happy.

"Let's get married," Kahlan blurted out impulsively, and Cara immediately pushed her away, slamming her own back into the wall. A look of sheer horror takes form on Cara's face, and Kahlan covers her mouth with her hands.

"I'm so sorry Cara. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry," Kahlan apologized over and over again. She sunk down to the floor, cradling her head in her hands. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so, so, so, sorry."

She doesn't want to get married. Oh spirits, what have I done?


Cara

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so, so, so, sorry," Kahlan repeated, shaking her head. Cara was perplexed, wondering why she's acting like this. Although, the Mord'Sith was still trying to process the fact that Kahlan wanted to get married. First of all, who would marry them? The council would definitely not approve of this.

But Kahlan loved her. She said it. Cara, of course, knew this all along. The fact that Kahlan had said it out loud made it an almost tangible thing, a solid reminder that she was loved. It made Cara happy.

It also made her upset, because she had been keeping secrets from Kahlan, her beloved. Even after promising, Cara still hurt herself at the dinner ceremony. Why had she done that? It was foolish, and selfish. That was not Cara. Cara was fiercely loyal, and never broke promises. She felt ashamed of her actions. And now, Kahlan had asked if she wanted to get married.

"…So, so, so, so sorry. I'm so sorry darling, darling so sorry. Dearly sorry," Kahlan murmured to herself, still rocking back and forth. Her hands were clenching her head, fingers tangled in the dark hair. Kahlan's eyes were shut, and she kept whispering to herself.

"Kahlan?" Cara said, her voice lower than a whisper. What was going on? Cara came closer to the Confessor, reaching out to touch her. "Dear, are you alrig-"

"I'M SO SORRY. SORRY, SO, SORRY. I'M SORRY, DARLING. I'M SORRY," Kahlan screamed, grabbing Cara's outstretched hand. She held in tightly, almost cutting off circulation. Cara looked at Kahlan, fear in her eyes.

Kahlan's eyes were black, the pupils had consumed her once blue irises entirely.

"ZEDD!" Cara screamed, hoping that for once the old wizard would be helpful. She placed her hand on Kahlan's, face full of concern.

"Dear? Are you there? Are you trying to confess me? What's going on!" Cara asked, all at the same time. She was panicking, and she didn't know how to stop it. The world seemed to be on a tilt, and Cara was about to fall off.

"SORRY, SORRY, SORRY!" Kahlan screeched again, clenching Cara's hand tighter.

With a muffled thud the door flew open, and Zedd rushed to Cara's side. Cara looked to him, fear in her eyes. Zedd's gaze flickered to Cara, then to Kahlan, his eyebrows furrowing in confusion.

"What's happening Zedd? I don't know what's going on! Please help her," Cara shouted, obviously distressed.

"Cara, Cara!" Zedd shouted, grabbing the woman's shoulders before giving her a shake. "Dear one, calm down."

Cara could only muster a nod as Zedd moved over to Kahlan. He brushed a bit of hair out of Kahlan's face, and saw her eyes were black.

"I'm going to cast a sleeping spell, and hopefully whatever is going on will wear off," Zedd said, and Cara just absently nodded. Zedd gingerly placed his fingers on Kahlan's temples, and recited an incantation. Slowly, Kahlan's grip on the Mord'Sith's arm began to loosen, and Cara was able to pull her hand away.

"I'm so sorry, Cara. So, so sorry," Kahlan mumbled, eyes half open, before collapsing on the cold marble floor. Cara wordlessly moved to her side, picked her up and carried her over to the bed. The Mord'Sith carefully placed Kahlan on the bed, and the brunette's head rolled to the side. She looked so peaceful, contradictory to what had happened just moments ago. Cara went to move a peace of hair from Kahlan's eye, when she noticed a stream of black liquid fall down her face.

"Zedd?"

Zedd was curious, as was Cara. She needed answers, and fast. Was Kahlan dying?

"It must be the effects of the agiel," Zedd said after much rumination. "The madness. It must have affected her more deeply than we previously thought." He put a hand on his chin, stroking an imaginary beard. "What happened before I got here?"

"Well, um, we were kissing, and then she," Cara stopped, but Zedd urged her to continue. "And then she just said 'why don't we get married' out of nowhere. And of course I was caught off guard, and I didn't say anything, and then she started rocking back and forth and screaming that she was sorry. It was terrifying."

"A Mord'Sith, terrified?" Zedd chuckled, raising a poufy eyebrow in mock confusion.

"Oh just stop it, wizard. We need to focus, this is a serious situation," Cara snapped, bending over Kahlan's sleeping form.

"I'll be back in the morning," Zedd said quietly, and shut the door. With a sigh, Cara removed her leather and changed into one of Kahlan's nightgowns. She lifted Kahlan a little off the bed so she could put her underneath the covers. She too slipped under the warm comforter, gazing up at the ceiling, lying on her back. Feeling alone, the blonde slowly moved closer to Kahlan, still sleeping, and wrapped her arms around the Confessor.

She's still so broken. I've made it worse.

Cara began to drift off to sleep, but not before whispering into Kahlan's ear.

"Marry me, Kahlan Amnell. I love you so much."