It Is A Small World After All
Disclaimer: Nope still here in my little stupid hometown with the same stupid problems. If I owned GG I'd have different stupid problems.
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Later that day, Becky showed up at Liz and TJ's house. As soon as she reached the front door, she had an inner debate similar to the one she had had a few days before.
When she finally forced herself to knock on the door, Liz opened. The two women stood staring at each other in stunned silence. When they had last seen each other, Liz had been nineteen and Becky fifteen but they still clearly recognized each other. Both had seen the world's offers ten times over and had come to terms with them. In all honesty, both were very happy with their lives although you couldn't tell from the shocked looks on their faces.
"Beck… Becky?" Liz stuttered out.
"Hey Liz."
"How did you… Come in. Come in."
Becky entered and looked around. Liz seemed to be doing well enough for herself. She looked over at some of the photos. Some included a man she had never seen before so she assumed that must be TJ. Luke had told her about him. There was one photo of Luke with a young man who she immediately assumed was Jess. He had turned out to the spitting image of his father. Look-wise that wasn't such a bad thing.
"Sit down. Can I get you something to drink?" Liz sounded very nervous. She didn't know why or how Becky had come here but she was very curious to find out.
"Water's fine," Becky replied before sitting down on the couch.
"Coming right up."
As soon as Liz came back with the glass, she handed it to Becky and sat on the opposite chair. An excruciatingly uncomfortable silence fell between them until Liz spoke up.
"So how have you been?"
"Oh I've been abroad for the last sixteen years or so. Went to a couple of Universities then settled with the American embassy in Germany."
"Wow. That's great Becky. Really. I remember you saying how you always wanted to work out of the country."
"yeah well it wasn't exactly my choice but it turned out ok… I'm actually back because I can afford to do my own thing now."
"Like?"
"Yeah well I'll get back to you on that one." Becky anxiously took another sip from her drink. "How about you?"
"Well I'm married now. His name's TJ. I met him at a Renaissance fair where I sell jewellery." Becky smiled encouragingly at this and Liz seemed to find comfort in her approval. "After a long time in New York, I decided to finally settle down here."
"Yeah Luke updated me on the basics.
"Oh really?"
"Yeah I told him I was planning on coming over… and told him not to tell you."
"Oh I se."
Another awkward silence fell between them.
"But you seem happy. I'm glad. Honest I'm really happy for you," Becky offered.
Liz smiled at her and decided it was time fro an overdue apology. She got up and sat on the same couch.
"Listen Beck. I'm sorry about that night. You don't know how many times I've regretted the words I said but by the time I wised up I kept chickening out about talking to you. I barely had a job. I was smoking and drinking more than Al Capone on one of his bad days. I freaked out. I was nineteen and Jimmy left… You were the one good person that was there to help… besides Luke I mean… but I always felt Luke did it out of obligation. Anyway, everything went downhill and I just got more and more scared to reach out to anyone who was better than me. That's why I dated deadbeats, though I'll never forgive myself for what they did to Jess."
Tears were beginning to form in Liz's eyes. She had missed Becky so much. They had become very close in the year they had known each other. And even though she had sounded ungrateful when she had yelled at her and told her never to visit them again, Liz was forever in Becky's debt. Becky even kept sending presents to jess for a couple of years after they fought.
Becky reached over and hugged Liz. She had never really been angry at Liz for that night even though Liz had said some very hurtful things. But Becky understood Liz had been stressed and she was scared. However she had been disappointed when Liz didn't contact her afterwards. Though she wasn't all that surprised. Becky had a way for being a magnet for stubborn people. Lorelai immediately came to mind.
"I'm really sorry Beck. I'm sorry I didn't tell Jess about you."
"Why did my mail start getting returned?"
"We started moving around a lot. I kept getting evicted." Liz looked down, ashamed.
"Hey Liz," Becky tried to catch her eye, "It's ok. I never really blamed you. We were really young. We thought we had everything figured out but it took us forever to figure out how to change a diaper properly. We made mistakes and we can't change the But I did come here to ask your permission to make amends with Jess."
Liz looked up surprised. "Of course! But you only knew him for a year Beck, you don't need to feel like you have to talk to him."
"Are you kidding me?" That kid was my life Liz. I've never been able to forget that. And besides I am still his godmother after all."
Liz smiled. "That you are. If you want to talk to him go ahead. I'm more than happy to have you in his life and hopefully in mine too." Liz looked at Becky expectantly and Becky gave her an encouraging smile that said it all.
Both of them looked at each other silently. They were finally beginning to let go of the wasted years.
"But I gotta tell you," Liz continued sceptically, "Jess doesn't do great around people who in some way left. Obviously I'll tell him it was all my fault but I don't know, he's a really stubborn guy."
Becky internally rolled her eyes at the vicious cycle she had going on for herself. However, this time round she was determined to be the stubborn one.
"Well, we'll just have to beat him to the punch, won't we?"
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A/N: I'm sorry if Liz is OOC. You know the drill. If you'd like to comment about anything just leave me a note.
