Chapter 3
A/N: R/R! Hope you like it.
You gasp as his hands lightly trail up and down your leg, each time raising higher and higher. His hands are so warm against your cold skin, and not for the first time you wonder why Danny has said nothing about it. He should have, perhaps he had noticed, but was to embarrassed to say anything about it?
All thoughts flee your mind as his tongue takes the same trail his hands have just taken, but this time he doesn't stop. This time he buries his head in between your legs, and your head falls back, a groan fills the room, and you're amused when you realize it is your groan. Danny seem to find it amusing also, because he lifts his head, grinning like an idiot.
"Come up here you loser," you whisper. Watching in delight as he does just as you say, scooting so that he is laying on top of you.
His skin rubs on you, and you can't help the new groan that leaves your lips. He is so warm, and for a moment you think how lucky it is that you have just feed. He dips his head, and his lips brush down over your neck, and heat raises in every part of your body. For a moment you think back to an embarrassing conversation that you had with Emmett.
"Do you want to know the only time I'm ever warm Bella?" he asked looking over at her from his perch atop a tree branch.
And you being the little naïve girl that you were nod your head.
"The only time I'm ever warm anymore is when I'm inside Rosalie," he had told her grinning like an idiot.
Before you could even say anything, Rosalie had run from the house a large pan in her hand. The look on Emmett's face hand been priceless.
You have to stop yourself from laughing. You really don't want to explain this one to the naked man lying on top of you. But his lips on yours stops all train of thought.
"Mmmm," you hum.
You run your hands down his back, grip his bum, and then twist your hands back so that you can take hold of his throbbing erection.
It's your turn to giggle at Danny's throaty moan.
"What?" you ask innocently. But he sees right through it, and pulls you back up for a kiss. You move your hands squeezing him in your little hands. He groans into your mouth and bucks his hips into you. This causes the tip of his erection to rub your wet center.
"I want you so bad," Danny mumbles. You nod your head, pulling him to your center.
"I want you to," you tell him.
He lifts his head from your neck, and looks at you as if asking for permission, which is absurd. I mean, look at he position you both are in.
So you simply wrap your legs around his hips, digging your heals in lightly causing him to sink in to your body.
"Ughuuu…" you groan as he fills you.
"Jesus Bella, you're so tight," he groans out. You can tell that he is trying not to come in you right then, so instead of moving like you want to, you give him a moment.
Then he starts moving inside of you, and you think no more, you don't care that the neighbors can most likely hear your screams or that this is only the second person you have ever been with, you just feel.
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For the first time in years you wish that it was possible for you to sleep. You wish that you can snuggle into Danny's chest and sleep just like he was doing. But you haven't been able to sleep for so long, and you never will be able to. Not until you die. Which would be difficult to do, seeing as though you would have to be torn into pieces and then thrown in a fire.
So you settle for watching Danny sleep, his eye lashes cause dusty little shadow to cover his cheeks. They are sinfully long, and you wish that you had eye lashes like his. The strong set of his jaw was lessened with sleep. You wish that you would be able to love a man like him, but you didn't think that it would be possible no matter how much you tired. You just didn't love him. No matter how much you wanted to love him, he would be perfect for you, but it just must not have been meant to be.
Would it be so awful to fall in love again, you don't think so. You knew that it would be easier, maybe learn to live again.
Wait. Wasn't that what you were doing now? Living. A smile stretched over your face. Yes this was what living was all about, having fun.
Fun.
You could do that. So turning over you buried yourself into Danny's chest, and sighed lightly. Yes living you could do that.
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The next day at the store you were pleasantly surprised to see that your new shipment had bed delivered. You had been waiting for them to arrive so that your could move some of the books around. It had been almost a year since you had open the shop, and business was doing well.
You had regular customers that would come in anywhere from once a month to everyday. And you loved all of them, some had more of a place in your heart then others, but you loved them all the same.
You were starting to get slightly stir crazy though, and you feared that it would only get worse. You had thrown yourself into work, and that had gone so well for you. You have lots of money saved up, not to mention all of the money that Carlisle had transferred into your account when he found out about what Edward had done; you could leave at anytime, but did you want to? Was there really anything to hold you in this place? There were the people, little Mrs. Mabel and Danny. You loved them, but would that be enough to keep you there, you feel like it was time for you to leave. And maybe it was time for you to leave.
You put the new book up on the shelves, and then admire your handy work. Next you walk back to counter, stopping by to make sure no one needs help on your way. Then sit down and start to write.
Dear Danny,
I know you have found a great love in the books here at 'Blue Twilight'. I am so very glad that I have been able to help you find that love of books. I don't know if you feel any love for me, but I love you. It is not that love that you deserve to have, Danny. It is selfish love, and I understand if you can never forgive me for what I am about to do. I am leaving Danny. I will not be coming back. I owe you more than I can possibly give you, but that is why I must try. So here goes: I am leaving the book store to you. You may do what you choose with it. If you wish, if you never want to even look at it again, you make have it torn down. I wish you wouldn't, but it is yours now. Do what you wish with it. I want you to know, that I will never forget you, but my time here has always been limited, and I knew this from the beginning. I knew that it would only be a matter of time before I would get restless and want a change. So it is with a heavy heart that I must say goodbye to you. By the time you are reading this, I will already be gone, so don't come looking for me.
Love always,
Bella
For a moment you considered tearing the letter up and throwing it in the bin, but you feel that it is time to move on, and no matter how many times you have thought about staying here forever, you know that it is impossible. This is not where you belong.
So with a heavy heart, you walk to where Mrs. Mabel is sitting in her usual chair.
"Hello, Mrs. Mabel," you say to her.
"Oh good morning dear, are you head somewhere?" she asks you when she sees the purse handing off of your arm. You look down for a moment not sure what you want to say to her. You had decided a long time ago that this get away would be to show you that you could live, and that's what you were doing. It was time to find the next adventure. You have life times to find yourself. So with your heart in your stomach you looked back up at Mrs. Mabel.
"Actually I'm leaving Mrs. Mabel."
"Well then, I'll have to hold down the fort while you're gone, won't I?"
You shake your head quietly. "No, I'm not coming back. Will you give this to Danny when he gets here? I'm leaving him the book shop?"
The look in Mrs. Mabel's eyes tells you that she knew all along that you were not coming back. She just wanted to see if you had the guts to tell her. A smile creeps across her face, and you wonder if she hasn't known for a while that you had been restless.
"Of course I will give his your letter. You really helped that boy you know; showed him the way, so too speak."
For a moment you are speechless. What did she mean?
"He was a little lost before you came here, but yesterday I heard from his mother that he has decided to apply to some colleges to see if he can get in. And he has never been a reader until you came, but I can tell just by talking to him, that you have made him grow up in ways that I don't think anyone else could have," Mrs. Mabel tells you patting your hand. "But don't think that I am trying to get you to stay here, not at all. I think if you want to leave, it will be good for you. For a long time now I have watched you get antsy. So go, go and live girl!" Mrs. Mabel proclaimed.
You smile at her kindly handing her Danny's letter, hugging her you realize that it was not only Danny who had been changed, but yourself as well. You had learned how to help people; how to show compassion. For the first time in a long time you were proud of yourself. And you were ready to see what else you could do.
