I don't own Loveless nor do I own any of the characters mentioned in my story, so please stop trying to sue me! After all, you won't get anything for I have nothing to give, now go on and enjoy the fic!

Rating: K+ maybe a little higher I duno but I know that you'll like it no matter the rating. 0.0 right?? Lol

Pairing: Kio/Soubi This pairing needs some love People!

Summary: This is the continuation of Looking, might want to read that one first, but don't really have to. Soubi finally sees Kio for what he could have been, but is it too late?

A/N: This is my fist fic that will challenge Luciferus! We have this whole rival thing going on at the moment! Lol

Seeing
Chapter 3:

Soubi's Pov

I grunt as I feel a hand shaking my shoulder. Why won't they just leave me be for a couple more minutes? Didn't they know I was up half the night worried about Kio? Kio! I jumped up startling the nurse who had been trying to wake me. "How's Kio?! Is he alright? Where is he? Did something happen? Well?!" I demanded when the nurse continued to stare at me as if I were disturbed. When she continued to stare, I pushed past her and went out to the nurse's station. "Hello? Can someone tell me where Kio is? What happened to him? Is he alright?" I asked in a rush getting more nervous as nobody seemed to want to answer me.

"Why don't you go and have an seat sir. I'll go and get his doctor now. He'll be able to tell you everything alright." A lady with black hair and red lips told me as she pointed to a near by room before walking away. I sigh but did as she requested, seeing as I wouldn't be getting anything out of them. I entered the overly bright room and sat in one of the plastic chairs as I waited, getting more nervous by the minute. Where the hell is Kio? It's not that hard of a question damn it! I look up as the doctor from last night walks in the room. "Where is Kio? Why won't anyone answer me!?" I growl when he starts to get antsy. "If some one does not answer me right this fucking minute!" I start to yell, but the doctor holds his hand up for me to stop.

"He's not here. I don't know where he went, all I do know is that he didn't want someone to see him. Said that he had done everything he needed to do, and now he had to get away. I couldn't keep him here after he told me how he got the wound. So I gave him what he needed and my number, then he took off." The doctor told me everything he knew. Gone? Kio had left? Why? There's no one alive to come after him now, there's no one he needs to run from. Does he think that someone survived?

"Why didn't you wake me up when he wanted to go! I should have been with him at all times! Damn it!" I growl pissed. Where are you Kio? I need you to be with me now more than ever. I need to let you know how much you mean to me. I need you. I love you. Gods, Kio I've got to find you!

"I wasn't even going to tell you that much because he didn't tell me who was after him, but when one of the nurses explained who you are to him, I relented and figured you had a right to know. I'm sorry, when and if he calls I'll tell him you're worried about him. There's nothing more that you can do here. Why don't I give you an sedative to sleep tonight and send you on your way." The doctor told me as he sent a nurse to get what he wanted and left. The nurse hurried away, and came back a few minutes later will two little pills in a bottle.

"Now you should have food in you when you take these alright. I'm truly sorry about what happened, if it helps any I saw him head in that direction." The nurse from the other night told me and pointed left before patting my shoulder and leaving to finish her rounds. I sigh and take the bottle she handed me before leaving the hospital looking left. Kio could be at any number of places right now, hell he could have left the city, too. First I need to change then I need to shower. I can sleep tonight and start looking for him first thing in the morning. After all he couldn't have gone far, I mean his sides are practically being held in by stitches!

I head in the direction of our apartment and wonder if he's hurting right now. Well, he wouldn't be, after all the doctor said he gave him some pills. Surely some of them were pain killers. I enter the apartment and take my coat off leaving it on our worn out couch. I kick off my shoes and let them be where they fall. I take my clothes off and shoot them in the garbage before heading in the bathroom. I turn on the hot water on full blast. I start to sob as I feel the water washing off the blood I'm wearing. Kio's blood. He could have died! I curl up on the shower floor and just sob until the water's so cold that it has me going numb.

I pull myself out of the shower and towel off. I walk into our room and pull on an pair of boxers. A smile comes to me as I remember why I have so many of them. Kio said he thought I looked "sexy as hell" in them. I shake my head an go back into the living room. I don't know what to do, I know that it's no use even bothering try to start tonight, I'm to wired. Then I notice the sedative the doctor gave me. I might as well, at least I'll be able to sleep then. I grab the bottle and head into the kitchen. I walk over and fill the clear glass cup half way with water. I swallow the pill without eating any food, anything I did eat would probably just come back up anyway.

That's when I turned and saw the envelope on the table. What's that? I didn't have anything going out as of late. I walk over and pick it up. I sit down and open it. There's a lot of little things inside so I tip it upside down and let everything fall out. There's a note, a card, and a set of keys along with some formal looking papers. I grab the note first. My hand starts shaking and I've started crying again by the time I've finished the letter.

Dear Soubi,

Look, I know you're probably really pissed at me right now, and yes I realize I'm dead if your reading this. Yet none of that matters alright. The key's that were inside of the envelope are the key's to your new apartment. It's on wayside street on the other side of town. I know it's not huge, but it's a start. The card is your new bank card. Your account has close to twenty grand in it. It should be enough to get you moving. I've reenrolled you in that art class you liked so much, Soubi you have great talent, don't waste it. All the papers you need should be in the envelope along with the card and keys. I've done everything I could to get you a new start, one where you're your own master, Soubi.

I know you're probably wondering how I even managed to get both syndicates in the same building. Well, that was easy, I used to be a shadow, or well some one who sold them the gases they liked to use. When I left I had blown up both their labs making them start all over with all their studies. So when I pretended to be a member and let them both know where shadow was going to be, they came to get revenge. As for the explosives, it's like I said, I was good with mixes, aren't I.

I know I could have let them sneak inside the pulled the trigger, and that would have been it for them, but I realized that even if I did that, I would still be alive. And that might sound good to you now, but it isn't. If I'm alive then I might in some way hold you back, to a life that I wanted to help you escape from. I hope you can forgive me one day. I love you Soubi, that will never change, but I want you to movie on, find another to be with. One who you truly deserve to be with. Some one who will take good care of you, and that really loves you.
Kio

TBC

I hope you all enjoyed the latest installment of Seeing! I'm so sorry about how long you've had to wait for this chapter! - ducks behind wall to avoid being killed by all the things shot at her - Well please leave a review!