Way Back Into Love

A/N:

Not that long, I apologize. I updated quickly because It's my birthday today so yeah! holla diecinueve!

Sorry for the errors, bestie here didn't have time to check it before she went home.

Enjoy!

Chapter 3

Today has been very exhausting. A lot of people came to attend Quinn and Rachel's funeral. Santana and I did our very best to attend each of the most important people to them. Somehow talking to them telling good stories about them lessen my fatigue. They've been a great part in so many people's lives.

Now, it's only me, Santana and Kate who are still in the cemetery. Santana is carrying Kate with her arm while her other hand is intertwined with mine. I'm still staring at the tomb of my best friends I can't still believe that they are not going back anymore.

"San, Kate is already tired and kinda sleepy. Can you guys go first to the car? I'll just say my goodbyes to Quinn and Rach. I'll be there after."

"Okay. We'll wait you there." She said squeezing my hands. She turned her face towards the tomb smiling "Quinn, Rach, I gotta get going. Your princess here is already sleepy, I'll take charge don't worry. I'll visit you soon. I love you guys."

I smiled to what Santana said, with that they left me. I don't know how to say goodbye because I don't want to. I know they will be around to watch and guide us but I also know that I don't have someone to run to if things get worst. I shall stay because it's not just me anymore. I have someone who depends on me, someone who need me to be stronger for her. Since the day we came back from centre to fetch Kate I never tried to shed a tear, not even once. I stare at nothingness when I feel that I can't take it anymore but I never cried. I tried to keep myself busy so I won't have a time to mop around. I don't know how I should grieve to my lost. Santana and I really tried our hardest to make the past three days comfortable for Kate. We tried to explain to her that her mommies aren't here anymore, this and that kind of stuff. She still cries every night looking for her mommies we just hug her tight saying sweet things, cuddle until she falls asleep. There was this time that I can't still get out of my head, Santana and Kate are in the kitchen watching me cook while they are doing her colouring stuff she suddenly ask Santana, "Where did mommy go Sanny?" We just look at each other trying to think what to answer. I made my way beside her and hug her "Your momma and mommy went somewhere Katie" I said holding her hands trying to make her understand what I'm saying "They won't be around anymore but Aunt B and Aunt Santana is here to take care of you baby." She just kissed my lips and shrug. I just hope that the comfort we are giving her is enough for her to get through it.

"Quinnie, I hate you! You always surprise me in every way that you can. Is this why you told me to be strong always before I left for Paris? But don't dare to worry I know you have Rachel there with you, right Rach? And I have Kate, don't worry about your little angel I'll do everything for her. I miss you guys so much. So I guess this is it, I'll will visit you soon. I love you guys." I said before I started walking my way to Santana's car.

It didn't take long until we got back home. I lift Kate from the back seat and make my way to her room. I laid her gently trying not to wake her up. I kissed her forehead and exited her room. I decided to go downstairs to clean the little mess that was left earlier before the funeral. After putting off everything in its right places again I take a seat at the couch to rest. I was surprise when Santana sat down beside me and giving me a plate of Spaghetti.

"I know you're tired Britt but you need to eat. It was a long day and I notice that you didn't eat anything earlier. So, eat."

"Thank you San but you didn't have to trouble yourself making me this one."

"I was hungry anyway so why not make my stomach happy right? I guess I made yours too." She said with a proud smile as I take my second bite.

"Yeah it's delicious just like before." I said feeling a little nostalgia how domesticated she used to be before.

"Sure you miss my cooking skills huh?"

I just smiled and shrug. We both eat silently while watching what Santana called "crap television shows". She hated reality TV shows but she's still thrilled with the stupid things people do in it. I find it very adorable.

"Britt red or white?" She asked while waving a two bottle of wine in front me. I didn't notice that she stand up from the couch.

"Red please." I answered.

She give me a glass of red wine and sit right next to me, but this time closer to me.

"I know we haven't talk about stuff about here. Like I wanted to know what you have in mind? Do you have any plans?" She asked calmly.

"I don't know yet, but I guess we should be making plans by now because they are not really coming back anymore. We should start to move on. I know Quinn will say the same thing if she was here."

"Right let's talk about it tomorrow?" She asked waiting for me to answer. I just nod. "Okay for now let's just loosen up a little bit. I'm really exhausted from everything" she continues as she rubs her temple trying to relax herself.

"You should sleep already San. I know you haven't getting any sleep since we came back here with Kate. You know that you can't sleep on couch right?" I smiled remembering how she can't sleep on a couch. "You can take my bed at the attic I will cuddle with Kate tonight. Okay?" I said stopping her to argue with me and standing up getting my plate and empty wine glass to put it in the dishwasher.

"I'm off to bed now, Good Night San."

"Goodnight Britt. Thank You."

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I woke up the next morning curled with a giant duck pillow. I smiled remembering that it was my first Christmas gift for Kate. I stretch a little bit before I get on my feet going downstairs. Before I enter the kitchen I hear Santana laughing with Kate. I didn't disturb their conversation. I just sat at the table quietly watching them.

"Sanny can we cook bacon for Aunt B?" Kate asked

"Of course Katie-Kate. Can you crack these eggs for me?" Santana cooed and Kate grinned follow every instruction Santana give.

"Hey Britt, Good Morning! How long have you been there?" she asked surprised.

"Aunt B! Look we cooked bacons for you!" Kate exclaimed as she run towards me.

"Good Morning my little angel. Aw! thank you!" I grinned at her kissing her cheeks.

"Good Morning San! Well, long enough to see all the cuteness around here." I winked. Just before I do that I was shocked so I just look back at Kate lifting her in my lap.

"So, Sunday Morning at the pool? Who wants swimming?" Santana said excitedly.

"Me! Me! I want to go swimming Sanny!" Kate jump away from me eagerly waving her hands up.

"Calm down Pumpkin! No shouting, okay? What about Aunt B? Does she want to go swimming with us?" she asked raising her eyebrows.

"I'm sorry Sanny." Kate apologizes then she turns around to look at me with those puppy eyes pleading me to agree.

"Of course I do. Come on up Kate let's get you changed in your swimsuits." I said giggling.

"Yeyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!" Kate shouted excitedly.

We go up to Kate's room to change. I didn't know what Santana's plans are but I'm just happy that Kate is enjoying it.

We settled comfortably eating our breakfast under a big pink umbrella beside the pool. Kate ate excitedly.

"Aunt B, can I go swimming after we eat?" she asked pleading.

"Of course baby! Just eat slowly okay?" She nods to what I said.

Santana and Kate jump hurriedly in the pool after our breakfast. I see them giggling and splashing water at each other. I just laid back and put my sunglasses on to relax a little bit. After I took a nap I feel droplets of water into my body when I open my eyes I can see Santana standing next to me with a smirk on her face.

"Hey! You're making me wet Santana!" I yelled smilling.

"Really? But I didn't do anything yet Britt." She said in a husky voice and the smirked on her face stayed longer that's when I regret what I said.

"I didn't mean it like that you know. You have a dirty mind San." I said embarrass.

"What? I didn't say anything Britt maybe it's you who have a dirty mind and mouth I guess" she said playfully.

"Oh my God! San!" I gasped at her playfulness.

"I'm kidding Britt. Relax." She grinned. "Can I sit beside you?"

"Sure San." I replied as I have another sip on my orange juice and glance at Kate who is now playing in her sand box.

"I thought you don't know how this kind of things work?" she asked.

"What?"

"This, I mean taking care of a child. You're really good Britt. I'm proud to say that you really make a good Mom" I blushed at her compliment.

"I guess it really helps that I know few things about Kate. And don't try to argue but you really make a good Mom too, San." I compliment her back which cause her blush too.

"I trying my best here, thanks though." She smiled at me. "Britt I'm going back to work tomorrow. And I know you also need too." I was taken aback of what she said, I almost forget about work.

"Yeah, I think we should make our schedule board later."

"I only work at 7 in the morning until 3 in the afternoon. That's Monday to Friday. I will ask tomorrow to the bosses if I can take weekends off." I smiled at her for giving an effort to take weekends off.

"Mine will be Monday, Tuesday and Friday morning I teach dance at my studio just few minutes' drive away from here I can bring Kate with me so she can't be left alone." She nods "I can go to my restaurants to check them every 5 in the afternoon until 8 in the evening during weekdays. I will also take weekends off."

"Good! That's just fits perfectly into mine." She beams. We were interrupted when Santana's phone starts ringing. "Excuse me. I'll just take this call." She said walking away from me.

I stared at her as she walks away. I my eyes suddenly led me to Santana's tone abs I gulp appreciating it. God! She's so sexy. Then I slowly turn my gaze at her perfectly round boobs, I can't help but feel turn on right now. Suddenly I hear my phone starts ringing. I exhale loudly. I didn't know I was holding my breath too long. Without checking who is calling I answered quickly.

"Hello?" I asked still staring at Santana's sexy body.

"Like what you see Britt?" I heard Santana's voice.

"Santana?" I questioned looking back at her. I gasp; she just caught me staring at her. I can feel my face starting to heat up. I look back at her again; she has that smirked on her face again.

"You drooling Britt?" she teased laughing. "Don't worry If I stare at your body right now I will drool a river too." She said winking.

I end our phone conversation quickly and make my way back to the house almost running because of embarrassment.

"Britt, wait up!" I hear her call me laughing.

I run upstairs straight to my room. I embarrass myself at her two times just this morning. Ugh! I didn't know if I'm going to laugh at myself or mop around because of embarrassment.