John was on the bus his head against the window as everyone chatted in front of him he sat in the back corner he looked down at his hands, they were shaking because he hadn't had a drink in a few hours because of being stuck on the bus.

People knew John liked a drink but they didnt realise how much he drank or how often it actually was, or even that he was an alcoholic, that he refused to tell himself he was alcohol dependant.

John knew he was, he didnt want to admit it because admitting it, for him would be hitting rock bottom, and admitting what he already knew, he was nothing without Amelia, she made him who he was and without her he's a shell of his former self.

He stood up as the bus came to a stop, he waited, he waited for everyone else to get off before even attempting to get off himself, he hated the pity stares towards him.

He stepped off the bus to find no one had really gone to far, John made his way towards the arena, leaving his case behind, he knew a crew member would see he wasn't there and just take it to the locker room.


John sat in the corner of the ring, he and Amelia had spent many of days sat in the ring talking on days like today when you had to come really early because you didnt have a car to come later on of your own accord.

He watched as randy walked down the ramp towards the ring looking towards him "taking the piss aren't you" randy climbed the steps and got onto the apron "making a crew member carry your bags, they have a lot better things they could be doing"

"if you've come to have a go, don't" John said

"im actually meeting someone" randy spoke as he leaned back against the ropes, randy was sympathetic to his situation but, it had been 6 months and John hadn't seem to try to live with what happened. No one expected to him to just get over something like that and forget it ever happened but they did think maybe he should try to pick himself up and try to move on in life but always keeping that memory alive.

"hey" the always chirpy Mickie James said as she walked behind randy on the apron

"well hello" randy smiled towards the women he had known many years now

"thank you" mickie smiled when he held the ropes for her

"please" John mumbled looking away from the two

"ok look" randy had just about enough of John "im getting sick and tired of your attitude like the whole world is against you John, people want to help you, we would help you if you just let us in"

"Randy" mickie said softly

"No mickie, the time for being all soft there there to him is over, he needs someone to tell him how it is"

"shouting at him won't help" mickie said softly "his wife died randy, we cant know how that feels"

"i know that, im sympathetic to his situation, really John I am, but after 6 months of your grumpy snappy attitude you get a little tired of it"

"well maybe ill leave you alone, do you all a favour" John slide out under the bottom rope

"john" randy said "dude don't push us away"

John looked at the two as he walked around the ring "your clearly sick of me and don't want me around, ill go" he spoke

Randy sighed as the man disappeared up the ramp "to tough?" he questioned his friend

Mickie shrugged "i don't know, I've give up knowing how to treat him lately, normally being polite to him would at least get him to be polite back but now, that doesn't even work"

"let's teach you this move" randy said walking further into the ring "then we should start getting prepared for tonight"


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