Edward POV, The Cullens house, four days later
It was getting harder every day to look Bella in the eyes knowing she would soon die. It hurt so much I wanted to look away but, never could knowing I didn`t have much time left to look in her beautiful eyes, feel her warm touch, to hear her laughter…
Her stomach was visible as a bump now when she was standing up right. Rose was always with her. Carlise, Alice and I had been trying to convince Bella to let the baby go. And we would have don it in her sleep if it hadn't been for rose and Esme. They were always there if not rose then Esme and the other way around. Make sure the Bella and the baby was fine. But Bella wasn't fine. She had gotten a litter paler and her fat moved from everywhere on her body to her stomach more and more. I wanted to cry but, couldn't. One month ago I taught to myself as I what`s her sleep. It was before the wedding and Bella hadn't been this way. I remembered that day. Alice had been driving Bella crazy with wedding talk so I had taken her to the meadow. It had been a warm day and, Bella had told me things. Things she wanted to do. She had told me she wanted to drink tea with an English man, travel to Scandinavia, be in a egyptish pyramid, walk on a red carpet pretending to be a movie star, walk in central park, bath in the red sea, bet on horses and be happy she had said with a laugh. Now that I sat here watching Bella sleep I regretted so much. Now she could never do any of those things and its all because of me. Her eyes started to open slowly and she stretched waking up. Rosalie how also was in the room at the time(of course) were now smiling. She told Bella that Carlise being the doctor needed to check on her and the "baby". That fucking thing was not a baby. It was a monster killing my wife. And she wouldn`t let me stop it. Rose said that she would get her some food and there I was alone with Bella. Rose had slipt up. I hadn't been alone with Bella since the honeymoon. She jawned and pushed her self up on her elbows. She looked up at my like a little kid seeing an hurt animal.
-Are you alright, she asked slipping in a yawn in the middle.
-You're the on two ask. Bella-
I took her face in my hands staring into her eyes.
-please don't do this, I begged. –I can`t lose you
-Edward you have to understand, this is what I want, she said looking down at her stomach.
I quickly let go of her and stood up from the chair I was sitting in. I ran (vampire speed) to the window crushing it whit my fist.
-What about me? What I want? Doesn't that mean anything to you? Because I sure as hell don't want this, I said jumping out of the window.
Bella POV
Oh how I wished he could understand. But I just felt like this baby in my stomach was the most precious thing in the world and I would do anything to help it. Even if it killed me. I was even beginning to get a little mad at Edward for not caring what I wanted and what I meant was right. He acted selfish. So guess what Edward the world is not your playground where you make the dictions.
