-JPOV-

I was already in the classroom when the boys finally came in.

"Get your computer, you can do some homework"

We didn't have any things to talk about.

The girls came in, and they were all bouncing and talking and noisy except Robin.

She was looking down al the time, and she sat down on the last table in the class.

What's wrong with her?

I heard that a couple girls asked what they had to do, so I repeated what I said.

When she heard my voice her head turned to my so I could look directly in her eyes.

They were full of tears that she blinked away all the time.

She's going to tell me what's wrong after the class, there is really something.

We are going to schedule her homework after this class so we can talk about it after that.

I looked to her several times to check how she was.

I hope she trust me this time, she need to talk.

Finally the bell rung, and I watched her when she did her stuff in her schoolbag.

She toke a deep breath, forced a smile and looked at me.

Like always her smile didn't reach her eyes.

"Are you coming?"

She nodded when she followed me.

-RPOV-

I was about to leave when we were done with that homework thing.

"Robin what's wrong?" Jantien asked.

Fuck, I can't lie this time, she saw me.

I looked down when I answered

"erhm, well one of the tings is that I'd discovered how my grandmother died."

This was hurting more than the real reason, but the real reason was so selfish.

Besides this was also true so I wasn't lying right?

"Oh, I'm sorry" She said

We talked about it, but she didn't asked how she died.

I think she knew that it would hurt too much.

Monday.

My mom drove my to school that morning.

I couldn't stop thinking about Friday and Jantien because I wanted to trust her, but I was afraid she would also leave.

That midday I made may decision.

After my classes I saw a teacher, who helped Jantien a lot.

"Hello, do you know where Mrs. de Jong is?"

"Yes, she is in her class, you know: 001"

"Erhm, right thanks"

I walked towards the class.

"Mrs. de Jong, can I talk to you?"

"Yes, sure! Now?"

"Well, my mom is coming to pick my up, so can it another time?"

"Yes, sure, how about tomorrow"

"Ok, see you than"

"Bye"

Tuesday

-JPOV-

The bell rang, and the students began to pick up there stuff.

Finally

I picked up my stuff quickly and walked slowly to the teacher room, so maybe I would calm myself.

It didn't work, so I quickly left my bag there and walked towards the class were Robin was.

"Hello, can I barrow Robin a minute."

I smiled nervous.

"Yes of course"

The teacher didn't sound surprised, Robin probably told her.

When we sat down in a small classroom, I began to speak.

"Where you wanted to talk about?"

"Well… about Friday"

She's quite nervous

"Yes, you were very sad"

Her eyes met mine for a second but she immediately blinked down.

"Erhm, yer, well, that came because Jolein visited us"

What? Jolein? Why was she so… panicking? And why she winced when she said Jolein?

She blinked up and saw I didn't understand.

"Well.. it was quite… erhm… unexpected"

So that's it… I know she can't handle unexpected things because of her autism, but panic..?

We'd talk about it and I tried to solve her problem but then I saw that she maybe didn't want me to solve it, but just listen…

I'm so sorry for the boring chapters, I'll promise that the next will be better!