Ok I want to add a Lola and Gavin flashback in this chapter. The flashback is based around the time they were together the first time.
After their meal Lola and Gavin decide to go for a walk along the beach "So you didn't eat much again tonight?" Gavin said interrupting the silence.
"Nah I'm not hungry?" Lola replied "Thinks its jet lag"
"You sure that's all that is?" Gavin replied.
"Yes babe why what else could it be?" Lola frowned "Gavin" Lola could see something was troubling him.
"I just worry about you sometimes, although you look incredible on the outside there is so much damage inside there and I'm scared that maybe…" Gavin finally admitted his concerns.
"Gavin look at me" Lola said as she stopped just in front of him "I'm fine, my hearts fine and my livers fine. I'm OK"
Gavin wrapped his arms around Lola and kissed the top of her head, the hug lasted for a few moments before Lola gently pulled away "Where did you get the idea for soldier?" Lola asked changing the subject.
Gavin gave her a cheeky smile before answering "I got the idea about 2 years ago, after Chicago" Lola realised exactly what the song was about when Gavin mentioned Chicago.
Flashback to Chicago
"What do you mean they've dropped her?" Gavin was furious.
"She's spiralling out of control Gavin" Karen explained as she broke the news about Lola being dropped by her record label "The drugs and drinking, Kieran has been trying to call her all day and still no word"
"Well where is she now?" Gavin wondered.
"We're not sure, apparently she has been seen at some crack house" Karen continued she had a feeling what Gavin was going to say next.
"Where is it?" Gavin asked "Where's the car keys?"
Gavin picked up the car keys off the desk and headed toward the door "Gavin stop, you don't know what you are going to find when you get there, all sorts of people go to them kind of places"
"I don't care, if Lola's there I'm bringing her back" Gavin replied as he headed out of the door.
x-x-x-x
Gavin carried a practically unconscious Lola into a hotel room, he laid her gently on the bed before turning back to Lenny "Cancel my gigs for tonight and tomorrow" Gavin said as he looked at Lola on the bed.
"Are you sure you want to do this Gavin, it's gonna get pretty messy" Lenny replied when he realised what Gavin was planning to do.
"Yeah I know, but I've got no choice. I love her Len" Gavin replied.
"OK well its going to take about two days till it gets out of her system and she'll be in a lot of pain. I'll go and get some supplies" Lenny smiled weakly as he left the room, Gavin locked the door behind him before turning back to Lola who was still out of it. He climbed onto the bed and sat next to her.
x-x-x
It had been a few hours since Gavin brought Lola to the hotel room; Lenny had been back with some pain killers and bottled water. He wished Gavin luck before leaving.
Gavin was just drifting off to sleep when he heard Lola stirring "Lola" he whispered, suddenly Lola sat up and started heaving Gavin quickly grabbed a bowl and held Lola's hair while she was sick. Lola flopped back onto the bed and grabbed her head "Why are you doing this to me?" Lola cried "I need something Gavin please"
"No baby" Gavin shook his head and tried to comfort her but she was tossing around, the pain was almost too much for her to bear.
"Please" Lola begged "Just a little bit of something to take the edge off. It hurts so much"
"I know, but it'll be over soon" Gavin replied softly he tried to hug her but Lola turned her back on him, she curled up into a ball and tried with all her might to make the pain go away.
"I can't do this Gav" Lola cried as she felt Gavin's arm drape across her waist.
x-x-x-x
Gavin waited for Lola to fall asleep before he went into the bathroom, he wanted to freshen up. He realised Lenny was right seeing her in this state was hard. As he splashed his face with cold water he was surprised to hear a floor board creek in the room next door. Gavin quickly rushed out of the bathroom just in time to see Lola trying to unlock the door, he rushed to grab her.
Lola squealed and kicked as Gavin carried her back to the bed and put her on it "Get off me" she screamed as she pounded her feet against him. Gavin laid Lola back down on the bed "Please let me go" Lola cried.
As Gavin turned to relock the door Lola threw her glass at him, it hit him on the forehead she tried to rush past him again but Gavin picked her up and returned her to the bed, this time holding her down with her arms "Do you enjoy seeing me in pain or something" Lola spat "You're getting some kind of kick out of this aren't you?"
"I just want you to get better" Gavin frowned as he continued to hold Lola's struggling body.
Suddenly Lola broke down as she saw the small cut on Gavin's head "I can't do this Gav, it hurts so much" Lola cried as tears fell down her face.
"I know baby" Gavin soothed as he looped his arms around Lola and pulled her up into him, he hugged her tightly as he felt the warm tears soaking through his shirt "It's ok"
x-x-x-x
After a few days of complete isolation Lola was finally starting to turn a corner, the drugs had left her system. Lola was still craving them though and Gavin realised this "I'm so sorry" Lola frowned as she looked at the cut on Gavin's head.
"Its fine" Gavin didn't care about his head he was just glad Lola had come back to him.
As Gavin and Lola laid quietly Gavin's blackberry started vibrating on the side he reached over Lola and picked it up "Hey Len, what's up?"
"Gavin have you seen any papers lately?" Lenny didn't bother saying hello.
"No why" Gavin seemed worried.
"If you get chance to read them don't do it with Lola" Lenny warned "They're extremely brutal"
"What do you mean brutal?" Gavin didn't want to wait to read the papers "Tell me what they say"
"Ok err…Degraw shacks up with crack whore" Lenny started with the headline. Gavin gritted his teeth angrily as he waited to hear the rest of the story. "It has been reported that the reason Gavin Degraw has missed his last two shows isn't because he is sick, like he would have us believe. It has in fact been brought to our attention by an insider that Gavin Degraw has actually spent the last few nights in a hotel weaning his girlfriend Lola B off crack cocaine"
"Who told them?" Gavin was furious.
"It gets worse, you should here the fans comments" Lenny interrupted.
"Go on" Gavin braced himself.
"Lola B has done nothing but drag Gavin down, he can do better. Gavin Degraw is really scraping the barrel with Lola, she is nothing more than a crack whore who latches on to men for money" Lenny read the list of comments that followed the article.
"Crack whore seriously?" Gavin sighed as he continued to listen to Lenny. Lola quickly stood up when Gavin said the words crack whore.
"I gotta go Lenny" Gavin said as he stood quickly and discarded his phone on the bed "Lola" he added as he grabbed her arms to stop her from leaving.
"Let me go" Lola pleaded "I can't stay here; you didn't sign up for this"
"No I signed up for you and if this is part of you then so be it" Gavin said as he grabbed Lola's arms "I love you"
"Why?" Lola started to cry "There' nothing to love, they're right Gav I'm nothing but a damaged crack whore"
"No don't say that" Gavin tried "You are not damaged and you're definitely not a crack whore"
"I need to get out of here Gav I can't breathe" Lola said suddenly, Gavin realised she wasn't going to give in so he unlocked the door. He threw his hands behind his head as he watched her hurry away.
"Shit" he exhaled, he suddenly realised his mistake and quickly followed Lola, as he arrived at the lobby he was surprised to see Lola surrounded by a group of angry girls.
"Lola" Gavin said as he pushed through the girls and grabbed Lola's arm, once he had hold of Lola he pulled her towards him and shielded her from the group "Come on this way" A voice said behind them as Gavin looked round her was relieved to see Lenny standing behind him with a door open. The door led them into a corridor Gavin quickly turned to face Lola "Are you ok?" he asked. Lola had tears in her eyes.
"Yeh" she nodded "I want to go home" she added leaving Gavin devastated.
End of flashback.
"I'm sorry I left you like that" Lola said as she remembered what happened in Chicago "I just wasn't ready for all the judgements. My career was over and the last thing I wanted to do was take you down with me"
"I know Lo but the only thing I wanted to do is protect you, that's why I brought you back here with me again" Gavin explained.
"I know and I will always love you for that, you are always there to save me" Lola smiled.
"Not always" Gavin frowned as he moved his fingers to the bullet scar on Lola's shoulder "I should have been here to stop that"
"Hey you can't be there all the time" Lola replied "You didn't know any of this was happening"
"Yeah well I might not have known about it at the time but I swear nothing is ever going to happen to you again" Gavin pulled Lola towards him for a hug.
"I love you Lola Braxton and I swear I will always protect you and be the one who defends you whatever shit you're dealing with" Gavin smiled. Lola just burst out laughing.
"Could you get any cheesier?" she giggled. Gavin's grin widened "Ok don't answer that" Lola frowned "I love you too by the way" she added with a smile before kissing him gently "Come on we'd better go the tide will be in soon and then you'd have to be more than my soldier. You'd have to be my sailor too" Gavin laughed at Lola's comment.
Gavin helped Lola to her feet before wrapping his arm around her "I still can't believe we go back next week" Lola sighed as she looked out to the sea.
Gavin picked up on the disappointment in her voice instantly, it was at that moment he realised how much Lola was enjoying being around her family.
Would he really be able to compare to them? If she went back to America with him would she be as happy as what she was now? Gavin wasn't sure if he could deal with losing Lola again, but he knew that if staying in Summer Bay was what she decided then he loved her enough to let her go and do what she needed to do to be happy.
Reviews please, I have already started on the next chapter so if you want to read it then please review. The more I get the quicker I will update.
Next time-
Gracie's christening.
Decision time for Lola, will she choose Summer Bay or America?
Gavin meets Cheryl.
