Simplicity
Author's Notes: Thanks for all the reviews! I enjoyed some of the prompts you've given. This is going to be my summer project! Which means I'll be updating quite a lot. I want to write 128 chapters!
Anyways I think this one will be the last of my own prompts before I start writing stories in response to the prompts and challenges given to me by my reviewers. Again thanks for all those who review, whether or not they leave a challenge or not. I still enjoy reading the reviews. =]
Summary: New Divide
Notes: Songfic: "New Divide"- Linkin Park are in Italics
He has hidden himself up on the roof. He had come home late, suffocating with thoughts. A storm was coming because the skies were darker, full of dark clouds looming over him. The clouds were gathering but through the cracks of where they were weak, Cloud could see small streams of moonlight.
He blended in rather well. He was wearing his black sleeveless cable knit turtle neck and baggy black jeans. The darkness of the night seemed to be where he belonged. The only thing that struck out was his spiky blonde hair that ruffled a little in the wind and his strange beautiful blue eyes.
Cloud stared out in front of him. He could see the broken city beneath him, stretching until it disappeared into nothing but a desert. Lightening broke the silence of the night, sending a blade of light throughout the night.
I remembered black skies / the
lightning all around me
I remembered each flash / as time began
to blur
Like a startling sign / that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve
Thoughts began to filter its way to his conscious, forcing him to be aware of the thoughts that once suffocated him. It has been so long, everyone could see that. Years has passed, and with that everyone has begun to age. It's been so many years since Aeris passed away. However many more years has passed since he started to realize the feelings Tifa had for him.
Cloud was tormented. Each time he has made his resolve to finally fall into his feelings, his love, memories flash before his eyes. Aeris died because he failed to protect her. He knew that he could never let Tifa die, especially if it was because it was his lack of competence in protecting her.
But her voice, her beautiful voice, invaded each doubt his mind tormented him with. Cloud has heard her say it time after time, and he wondered when he could start to believe what she said. He wondered if the truth, the deep sincerity she said it with, could finally reach him to break him free. How many more times?
So give me reason / to prove
me wrong / to wash this
memory clean
Let the floods cross the
distance in your eyes
Give me reason / to fill this hole /
connect the space
between
Let it be enough to reach the truth
that lies
Across this new divide
Cloud hasn't been able to face much of Tifa lately. How could he when all he wanted to do was kiss her but run away at the same time? It takes so much of his effort to even stay here and to come home each night. A coward, that's what he was.
Aeris's death has scarred him. It has built a thick wall, preventing all healing. It was a self imposed wall because he believed he deserved the torment and the guilt for letting her down. He needed a reason now, to get over the high wall he has built around himself.
It became a wall that he has lost sight of where it began and where it ended. It became so tall he felt it consumed his whole world. It was cracked but always rebuilt, so much so that he was blinded to the things outside of it like other people's emotions and thoughts that could affect him.
There was nothing in sight / but
memories left
abandoned
There was nowhere to hide / the ashes
fell like snow
And the ground caved in / between where we were
standing
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I
deserve
However each time she said that particular statement, he found bigger cracks in the wall around his heart. They became cracks he could not build over and heal. They became so big that he could see through the holes of a world he has tried to cut himself off from. He could see Denzel and Marlene and the sadness each time he left because they always believed that he would not be coming back.
Through those cracks, he allowed himself to think and feel when he remembered happy moments he had, at the time, been emotionless at. Through those cracks, he could vividly remember events that he had stood on the sidelines. Events such as Yuffie turning twenty, the wedding of Cid and Shera, birthday parties, and so much more that he feels he has missed living in.
Through those cracks on his wall, he could see how far Tifa and he has become. She was so far away from him. She seemed as if a star in his skies, galaxies away but still visible to him. Before, Cloud might've guessed that there was a bridge built between her world and his. But through those cracks in which he has stayed in the walls of his heart for so long, he could finally see the destruction his negligence has brought upon.
The bridge was cracked. It was old and broken like his wall. It seemed so fragile that Cloud wondered if he had managed to tear apart the path that lead to his happiness and the healing of his heart and the fulfillment of his dreams. And the bridge only seemed to lead to a star that was slowly losing its shimmer and glow.
So give me reason / to prove
me wrong / to wash this
memory clean
Let the floods cross the
distance in your eyes
Across this new divide
It was odd. The sight of this only made him more hopeless but it always gave him a surge of hope. It was because it seemed that the bridge to Tifa was still intact and opened was because she still wanted him. It seemed strong, despite its decayed state, because it was strong enough to endure.
And many things in Cloud's life could not endure the whirlwind of his life.
So caught up in his thoughts, Cloud did not notice the reopening of the window that led him to the roof.
In every loss / in every lie
In every truth that you'd deny
And each regret / and each
goodbye
was a mistake to great to hide
And your voice was all
I heard
That I get what I deserve
A presence beside him shook him from his thoughts. Ironically, it was the woman who had been keeping his thoughts focused on her. Each time he saw her, he felt as if the walls were breaking in an earthquake. His legs felt the desire to run but his heart wanted to stay where he was: next to her.
Tifa looked at him only briefly before staring at the sky. Thunder cracked the sky again. They sat in a long pause. They sat side by side, Cloud looking at Tifa from the corner of his eyes. It was as if the world was holding its breath, just waiting for the moment when the two of them would open their mouths to talk to each other.
The earth must've lost its patience because it began to weep. Still, Cloud and Tifa sat side by side. The earthquake in his mind did not stop. It continued to shake and shake until he could see more and more of the road to Tifa. He wondered if it was enduring.
Suddenly, Tifa turned to him. A shot of lightening in the background reflected in her eyes as he turned to stare at her. She leaned forward and he held his breath. Rain was kissing her skin and lingered on her lips, as if wanting to kiss them for much longer. She was so close to him that he could feel the warmth of her breath on his cool wet skin.
She smiled at him and he felt like the sun had come out. "It'll be alright one day, Cloud." She said. Her eyes softened. "One day, you'll stop hurting because you'll be able to forgive yourself."
And finally, he knew it was coming…that statement.
"I love you." Tifa said to him.
And in a blink of an eye, Cloud had plunged forward through the cracks of his divide. In a blink of an eye, his lips met hers in a wet but passionate kiss. Because the road to her was old and broken and fragile, but it endured.
So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this
memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason / to fill this hole / connect the space
between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new
divide
Notes:
Requests so far:
If Not Lilies, Would They Be Just As Sweet?
Something as Complicated As War
New Divide
QueenAhems- Household pests
xXxAutumnRainxXx - Coming home by Stratovarius
xtearsdontfallx - Early Morning by Alesana
