Chapter 3

Disclaimer: I in no way own Fairy Tail, even though I did invent my original character.

Speechless

Brooke's POV

I sighed while looking at the beautiful moon peacefully, wondering what I should do with my life. After all I have really nothing to do with my life, with no parents and no annoying instructors teaching me this and that… I am just a free mage in Fairy Tail. I sighed again for like the third time since I woke up. Why do I keep thinking negative thoughts? I'm fulfilling my father's wish by seeing a little more of the world, aren't I? I mean just like three days ago Gray and I just freaked out a whole bunch of punks. I saw how different people can be. Like the ruler being a sexist, and those punks who were wusses, that only cared for themselves. I learned that not all people are good, but I have a feeling my father wanted something more for me to figure out… but what? I don't even know anymore, all I know is that I'm thirsty. I walked to my kitchen I think, maybe I should write in my poem book. After all, it's not like I'm gonna fall asleep anytime soon.

I sigh and whisper "Dad how yah doing?"

I open my poem book and took out a pen. Flipping to a new page I wrote This Night.

The moon tonight was so bright,

Was it because it was full of joy or was it full of sorrow?

As though it was going to explode out of pain.

Do we really deserve this kind of torture?

So many questions to ask and such little answers are given.

Is life a mystery?

Is life an adventure?

Or is it something that fails in the end no matter how much you try to succeed?

No one knows the answers, but yet why do people wander these things even if they know it will not be answered easily?

I wish I knew, but I am human, and as much as I wish.

I'm never going to know what is going to happen in my life.

Especially, this night.

I sighed, I wonder what's going to happen today? Why did I have to be so damn serious? I really have to loosen up I feel like I haven't let go, I just feel so stiff, inside and out. I need to do something that will let of this pressure. I grabbed my pillow and screamed,

"AHHHHHHH!"

"Plegh, too much feathers. Cough Cough."

Seriously why can't my life be easy, huh? Just live a normal bumbed out day like everyone else in this friggin world. I looked at my clock, it's already 8:30 in the morning now, I was having an inner conflict for like four hours... I may as well take a shower, it's not like I'm in a rush. I stepped into the shower and started to think as the warm rushing water soothingly sprinkled on my skin . This is my first real normal day at home or at least my new home without mom and dad for once… I guess it's not so bad although this is only my first day and it has barely begun.

All I can think about was how the first mission went with Gray. It was alright I guess, I mean all we did was spar a little and the stupid wusses went calling to their mammas in no time. Gray. That's a cool name. Hmm, he was tall, had jet black hair that's a little bushy, pretty built, and was kind of hot I guess. My type? Eh, don't think so, he's too flashy. Literally the boy got too many striping problems... all well atleast he's kind of hot. Stepping out of the shower, I took out some new clothes I had bought with the money from my first mission. I got a nice black T-shirt that looked ripped on the bottom and had a design of calligraphy with my name. And I got some nice jean shorts too. They were like 3 inches higher than my knees, and they had roomy pockets so I can put my rewards there or just have some room to put my hands in there. I changed into my new clothes, tied my curly black hair in a nice comfortable half pony tail and set out for Fairy Tail. When I arrived there everyone greeted me so easily and I liked it that way. It felt like I really belonged. Then when I'm about to say hi to Mirajane and Erza, Natsu and Gray were at it fighting like crazy calling each other everything in the book,

"I'm gonna kick your ass so far that you'll have to turn ass around to see how far you go!"Natsu screamed. Wait does that even make sense?

"You idiot that doesn't even make sense! Stupid, when you talk at least make some sense."Gray screamed back, well at least he knew a little bit more... although he probably doesn't.

Jeez! How in the world are they going at it this long? It's been like a long ten minutes straight, and they still haven't shut up yet! That's it I cant take this crap anymore,

"YOU DUMBASSES SHUT UP ALREADY!"

But they couldn't hear me from all the shouting they were doing themselves, seriously everyone else in the guild just acted as though this was an everyday thing. Well, not for me at least…

I was always alone, my parents were too paranoid to let me go outside with the rest of the kids, so I spent my time in our backyard garden most of the time. I remember how quiet and peaceful it was, and how the flower petals were a rich, waxy pink. The garden was always beautiful, even in the Winter time when the fountain was frozen. When the water of the fountain was frozen along with the frozen pond, the lilies would look like a beautiful light pink crystal wrapped around in the ice. Back then, my parents were always busy with work and trying to make me the perfect daughter. It wasn't bad at all, they never pressured me into doing all that much, but they never played with me much as a kid either. Most of my company were horses that I fed and cared for. It was a peaceful life, but it was also a lonely life. It life that I thought was full of dread, but now that I think about it. Those lonely peaceful days came in handy, after all now that I'm actually alone with no one I really know and trust… it's just me.

I looked up and realized everyone in the guild was staring at me, it was kind of embarrassing. I felt my cheeks burn up a little as I heard Natsu ask,

"Hey, are you okay new girl? Sorry I don't know your name but you kind of…"

This time I felt my face get even warmer and stumbled,

"Y-yeah I'm fi-ine."

Struggling to keep my composure, I stared down at the floor. Why are they all looking at me? It's making me really uncomfortable. I've never been so stared at before. My train of thought was broken and I was brought back to reality once again when I heard Natsu cautiously say,

"Are you sure? 'Cause when you zoned out, you sort of cried. A tear fell on your face…"

I fell frozen at that moment. My eyes opened as wide as they can go without my eye balls falling out and just sat frozen like that. Did I really tear just a second ago? That's when I felt the tear slide down my cheek. The truth was I felt empty inside, and I was just trying to ignore that fact by acting like it was a normal day without my parents. But it was a new and hard day without my parents. These people wouldn't understand though, they have gone through pain I do believe that. After all everyone goes through pain, but I couldn't explain my pain in words. It was all too much for the first day so I lied and said,

"Yeah, I just had something in my eye."

Neither of them looked pleased with the response I gave them, but they didn't bother me about it. Huh, I like these guys already, although Gray is still looking at me. As though he expects me to say the truth. I shudder and get back to my water trying not to think about his expression.

Gray's POV

Okay, this is total CRAP! Seriously, "something in my eye" that may have been the most lamest excuse I have ever heard! While me and Natsu were yelling our heads off Brooke tells us to shut up, then we ignore her. Then, Mirajane tells us to shut up only to see that Brooke was zoned out. So while Natsu waved his hand in front of her face, we saw a tear come out of her eyes. And then she tells us it's "nothing" BS! All I can do now is really stare at her, giving her a look that says "You suck at lying, what's the real deal?" Geez I know she's been here only for only a little while, but everyone KNOWS she's lying to our faces. And it's seriously annoying me…

She looks away from me and I decide to drop the subject for now. Maybe I'll ask Gramps what's up with Brooke later. For now I may as well just hang out with Erza and Natsu. I sighed, I feel so tired ever since yesterday. I just couldn't fall asleep, I just stared at the moon the whole entire night just staring into space… Crashing my train of thought I heard Gramps announce,

"We're having a camp out tonight guys so bring your sleeping bags and tents! Because we're gonna have fun tonight!"

Everyone in Fairy Tail screams in joy screams out of joy including me even though I'm still bummed about Brooke. But that didn't matter because we're all going to have fun tonight at the forest for the camp. Whatever, I need some time to have fun anyways, after all relaxing is the best therapist…

Brooke's POV

Well, I've got no choice but to go to the camp out tonight because dreadfully Mirajane just wouldn't take "No" for an answer. And I was afraid that Erza would put a blade against my throat if I said I didn't want to go. All well, it's not like I can say no now since I already said yeah. It'll be good to have some camp, it's not every day that I go camping especially with other people. After all Dad said to go out in the world to have fun. I may as well just enjoy having friends with me, because one day I'll regret not feeling grateful.

Time flied, and I was back to Fairy Tail in no time for the trip. We had to walk into the forest because Makarov was getting letters from the council complaining about breaking stuff. Geez, this guild sounds scarier and scarier every time I hear rumors. When we got there it was nice and piece full. We got fire wood, marshmallows and of course really good hunted food that Natsu roasted. It was really nice, comfortable and I totally free to laugh. I loved it tonight, but wasn't I too cheerful without Dad? With that thought, I excused myself and went only ten minutes away from camp but I felt as though someone was following me. When I stopped walking I saw that the person who was following me was Gray. Weird…

Gray's POV

By the time I realized I was following Brooke it was too late, and she had stopped walking. And all I could really do was stare at her blankly when she asked,

"Gray why aren't you with the others?"

Okay, I may not know Brooke all that well but I'm also not a total idiot. I could tell that there was something bothering her from the beginning, and for some reason I couldn't help but feel on edge.

"Brooke, what's up?" I saw her eyes widen a little bit and quickly recovered, wearing an unreadable mask upon her face just like the last time I saw her on the mission.

"I'm fine, there something you need to tell me?" She croaked. I knew it, she may have the look down but her voice sounds all broken. I sigh and responded,

"All right that's enough, your hiding something from all of us. It doesn't take a genius to figure that much out. The only question is why? You're family to the guild now. There's nothing you have to be afraid of."

I congratulated myself for that excellent speech but at the same time I noticed that she stood silent and still.

Brooke's POV

I didn't know what to say, for I was frozen. I couldn't look into his eyes because I was afraid. Afraid to shed that first tear because I am afraid that the tears will not stop. I felt his stare look through my soul. I was on the verge of tears; I closed my eyes scared to look into his deep, dark, all knowing eyes and scared to shed a single tear… It was a long five minutes since I had closed my eyes, but I could still feel his gaze on me. Looking at me observantly. Then that's when I couldn't take it anymore, my first tear had fallen and I couldn't stop the next one from falling. More tears just kept on coming and coming, they just wouldn't stop. I felt a cold hand gently smooth away a hot tear that had fallen. I opened my eyes only to see that his face was so very near mine and I only heard him say,

"Don't keep your feelings locked up in a cage. Let them go and I promise this conversation between us doesn't go anywhere else. So please, I'm begging you tell me what's wrong."

He was pleading me to tell him what was wrong? But what was the point of him knowing? He'd probably end up laughing at me for being so weak. But when I looked into his onyx eyes, I couldn't help but tell him the truth.

"I was upset at the fact that I was happy when my father was gone, I should be grieving about his death. I should be at his grave with flowers. I should be praying, but instead I'm having a great time with everyone, smiling, laughing like nothing in my life has changed…"

I wanted to say more but I couldn't. I wouldn't admit it to anyone but now that I had told someone what was on my mind I felt as though I could feel a little bit more at peace. I looked at Gray, there was more to him that meets the eye… then I looked up at the sky, breathless and amazed at how many stars were in the sky, shining brightly.

Finally when the silence had broken. He said,

"I'm sorry, I never would have guessed something like that. But my parents died a long time ago when I was a kid, and I guess back then I wasn't as emotional about punishing myself because I didn't realize all these feelings. I'm sorry."

But before I could even say a word, Gray had wrapped his cold arms around me. And I stand there hugging him back, crying yet again, not because I was upset about my father's death, but I was crying because I was overjoyed. Overjoyed at the fact that I had made a new friend that had me almost all figured out, knowing when I'm depressed or excited, he would know. We looked up at each other, stared in each other's eyes and laughed so hard that we fell on the ground. It was strange, we didn't even know why we were laughing. But it was as though we had made some sort of connection. We had just found each other staring at the stars in a comfortable silence. After a couple of minutes of staring at the stars they headed back to camp. But right before they were about to enter I said,

"Gray, thanks… a lot"

I felt my cheeks get a little hot but he just chuckled and gave a good hearted,

"No problem." And gave a gentle smile.

We went back to the camp and no one questioned us because everyone was tuned into Loke telling a scary story. We sat down to hear the story and at the end all of us were terrified, especially Natsu, that idiot. He got so scared that he burned like six marshmallows that were heating up from the camp fire. But then everyone started to crack up, including me. It felt nice knowing that I could life and smile again without feeling any sort of guilt. Then I mentally whispered " Dad I miss you a lot. But I have a new family, what do you think? They're an interesting bunch, huh?

SOOOOOO SORRY for not updating sooner

I had writers block for days

Too many projects

SOOOO SORRY but please review I worked really hard! I hope you enjoyed it!