"I'm such a screw up!" Maya sighed with tears in her eyes as she and her mom sat on the couch.
"Your not a screwup."
"I'm pregnant at 15! What else would you call me?"
Katy didn't know what to say.
"Your silence speaks volumes mom." Maya deadpanned.
"Maya," Katy sighed, "you have to tell me what happened."
Maya looked away from her mom.
"I'm not going to judge you baby girl, I just want to understand."
"It was before that party. I was stupid." Maya took a deep breath. "You know when I told you about that new girl who transferred to school? Yea, well she got inside my head. She was always all over Lucas, touching him and laughing at every stupid thing he said. She told me one day she was gonna take him from me, I'd didn't believe her at first, but then things took a turn. Basically I thought I was losing him so I stupidly slept with him momma. I thought we'd be happy. I thought-" Maya choked up.
"You thought it'd fix things?" Katy finished.
"Yeah." Maya said tears brimming her eyes. "But it didn't because he still chose Riley." Maya finished. "God how could I be so stupid!" She scolded herself.
"Your not stupid! You're a teenager, you make mistakes."
"Well this is a big mistake!" Maya cried.
"Maybe, but it's not the biggest mistake you'll ever make. Baby girl, your not alone in this. I'm here."
"Your not grounding me? Or kicking me out?"
Katy smiled some. "Of course not! What kind of mom do you think I am?"
"I just thought- I don't know. Are you disappointed in me?"
"Of course not? Upset? Yeah a little. But that's because we've talked about this. If you thought you were even a little ready you were supposed to ask to go on the pill, remember?"
Maya didn't say anything. She just fiddled with her hands.
"Oh Maya."
Maya started to tear up again. "I didn't want to lose him."
"But that doesn't me you needed to lose yourself. Is this why you've been distance these past couple of months?"
"I just- I thought that if I did it - it wouldn't matter about my first time, that being ready wouldn't matter." A few tears dropped into her cheek. "It was so bad momma." She started to cry somewhat harder. "It hurt and was gross and-" Katy cut her off by pulling her into a hug before she could finish her sentence.
"Shhhh." Katy cooed to help Maya calm down.
"I just feel so dirty!" Maya cried.
"What about Lucas? Did he know you weren't ready?"
"I told him I was."
"You shouldn't have if you weren't Maya. He would've understood."
"No he wouldn't. He chose Riley."
"Lucas loves you. It's always been you and Lucas baby girl. Ever since you two were little you've been together. You got married when you were 5!"
"We were pretending." Maya said.
"Yea, but he's loved you since."
Maya shook her head. "He doesn't love me."
"I know that you're a teen and you're gonna think what you want, but I know what I see."
There was a silence between them.
"How am I supposed to tell him?"
"That I can't help you with."
"Momma!"
"This one is all you baby girl. But you do have to tell him. He's the father and has the right to know."
"We haven't spoken in months."
"Well nows about time to start. It's going to be a long 18 years if you two aren't getting along."
