Stop and Think

Playlist for this chapter:-

Stop Crying Your Heart Out by Oasis

How To Save A Life by The Fray


Stop Crying Your Heart Out by Oasis


Troy woke up bolt right sweat pouring down his face the rest of those events not wanting to be relived as they were only a harsh reminder of what had happened and confirmed the truth.

He had been having dreams like this for the last two years and at the age of eighteen he knew he had to try and stop them but somehow he couldn't, he needed closure, closure he couldn't seem to get.

He had many ways in getting closure for a period of time, now it included drinking, smoking, shouting and screwing girls. All his life was a one big party with a few basketball games stuck in between and for now he was happy enough.

Walking to the bathroom he thought how this was his last year in High school then he could break out of this hell hole and finally start his real life away from the hurt and the pain. His mother walked past him and he grunted hello.

"Morning my darling" she whispered barely audible.

She could remember when he would walk up to her and hug her good morning and they would sing to each other.

Troy hadn't sung since the funeral.

The funeral had been the last straw and killed them all. They weren't a family anymore they were inhabitants of the same house. Her and her husband were still together and felt like a separate unit from their son.

Her death had destroyed him inside and his mother knew that.

He had lost all hope and seemed to be waiting for his death and not caring what happened in between. She had cried endless nights trying to think of ways for him to become the old Troy the sweet sixteen.

Troy had never seen his mother cry at night. He was always out till 12:00 at the earliest drowning his sorrows in one of his guilty pleasures but every night he would come home and find the house empty, his parents in bed as they had ran out of conversation.

He would go upstairs and kiss his mom and dad on the forehead praying he could do that when they were awake one time but knew he had too much too hide to do so.

The old Troy was crawling around inside scratching at him to come out but after enough pints round at Chad's he was soon drowned out and new Troy would flourish.

New Troy was simply a bastard.

He was a drinking idiot who had almost gotten three girls pregnant and didn't care.

He had done drugs and smoked regularly not caring who he hurt.

He saw Chad his best friend and yearned for what Chad had.

Chad had been his best friend since birth their moms were friends since high school and they had set up the bakery. Chad was shorter than Troy but had a huge curly afro that everyone loved and was his signature look including his flawless chocolate brown skin. He had been dating Taylor McKessie for almost six months.

She was Afro-American and had black hair going just past her shoulders she had a rounded cheery face with deep black eyes. She had rather large boobs and a definitely bootylicious bum as Chad loved to point out to Troy.

Amazingly he still hadn't slept with her. Troy admired Chad for his patience because he knew he would have dumped her after a month of not sleeping with her. He was also pissed at Taylor wanting her to hang up her panties and shag so Chad would finally get it over and done with. All he heard from Chad now was:

"Taylor's so cute"

"Taylor's so funny"

"Taylor's so sweet"

Jealous as he was of this relationship he didn't care about how cute, funny or sweet Taylor was as she was one of his close friends but she never opened up to him after he shagged her cousin.

O well you can't have them all was Troy's opinion but deep down he was mortified as he trusted Taylor like a sister.

Stood in the shower he felt the water run down his body and brought him back to the times when his sister had stood in that same spot the same shower head pointing on him, the same familiar objects surrounding him. Smacking the shower he ran the shampoo through his hair and carried on with his thoughts.

They rushed back to the day she died he knew he could run away from this thought so he went with it


How to Save a Life by The Fray


And with her last breath she sang

I will be there

Next thing Troy knew everything went black and he became unconscious, he flickered like a candle between consciousnesses, not sure what was going on.

He felt things being clamped and moved around him he felt his sisters hands being removed and people shouting, he felt his body being moved but couldn't signal them to stop as a electrical pulses went shooting through his back and neck.

He heard the words "donor card" and "move them both quickly" next thing he was being wheeled down a corridor as the lights flashed above his eye lids.

This was the last thing he knew two weeks later he woke up.

The first thing he saw was his mom. See smiled softly and angelically.

"Hi Gorgeous" she said softly.

Her voice was hoarse and rough her eyes were red and puffy he looked at her taking in all of her features. She stroked the hair from his face and stroked part of his cheek. The only part that wasn't covered by tubing or gauze he tried to move his head and she stopped him.

"No my darling" she whispered tears flooding down her face again.

Confusion rushed across his face for a second till his father came into view. Why could he only see straight ahead of him?

"Son" his father began. "You have been in a coma for almost a month you have had serious spinal injuries we are so happy you are awake." A small smile sprinted across his fathers face.

Troy still remained confused not about his sister being dead but

Why did they say donor cards?

Meanwhile a whole other life was at far more risk than Troy's…