So hey guys! I'm so sorry it's been ages since I last updated, feel free to kill me if you must.

Anywho here's chapter 3! Enjoy!


Chapter 3

Beck's POV:

I didn't understand what was going on between me and jade lately. All I knew is that our relationship was falling apart quickly and I hate it. She would just go crazy over every little thing and that 'little thing' usually ended up starting an argument between us. I had just gotten in from dropping Jade off home. I sighed, running my hand through my hair. I knew I shouldn't have called jade a bitch, I really didn't mean to and now I feel extremely guilty. I checked the time to see that it was 10:00pm. I grabbed my phone, opening a new text to jade.

To: jade

'Jade, I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to call you what I did. Please forgive me. Goodnight babe, I love you x'

I pressed the send button, praying to god that she forgives me, I wouldn't forgive myself is she didn't. I changed into some pyjama bottoms and got into bed. Call me cheesy but my bed felt empty without Jade here to cuddle up next to me. I knew this time that it was my entire fault. Well fucking done beck. Well fucking done. I mentally slapped myself for my stupidity. I got back out of bed to get my phone off the floor across the room. I walked to the couch and sat down, opening up the .

Beck Oliver:

'Sometimes I truly hate myself'

Mood: wazzed off

I checked my messages, seeing that I had none of jade. It was now 10:30pm and I still didn't have any messages off her. In this moment In time, I really hated myself. I said things to her that would hurt her but I didn't mean to, it was all out of anger. I walked back towards my bed and lay down, chucking my phone somewhere in the room. I lay and just thought of everything that happened the last couple of weeks. Sure me and jade argued anyway but it had never been as bad as it has been for the last few weeks/months. I thought of when jade nearly got hit by the car and winced. She could have died and she wouldn't know how much I loved her. Tomorrow, I would try to speak to her. Hopefully she'll listen, but then again it is jade I'm talking about…that could end badly but I don't care, I'll make her listen. She needs to know that I love her and that I didn't mean anything that I've said to her.

A sudden thought came into my head.

'She's gonna see how much of a jerk you are, she's gonna break up with you soon and find someone better'

I started panicking as I thought of that. I didn't want me and jade to break up! I loved her! No I would try and talk to jade again, this time I'll apologies and tell her how much she means to me. After all, all of our arguments aren't always her fault, they are mine too. I felt so guilty. Maybe I should call jade? Then again she'll either ignore me or not listen to me and that could cause another argument .I sighed and thought about when things all went downhill between me and jade. I still love her; I've never stopped loving her. I thought about all our happy times. I mean gosh I can't even remember the last time I kissed her. Wow, I'm a crappy boyfriend.

I had a text come through; I jumped out of bed, hoping that it was jade. As soon as I got my phone, I saw that it was Andre, asking if I wanted to go out with the rest of group tomorrow after school. I sighed and ignored it. I decided to call jade, of course I knew her phone number off by heart. It rung out and went straight to answer machine. I groaned and left a message.

"Jade, look I am so sorry for everything. Please, I need to talk to you. Just please message me back or something. I love you"

I hung up, throwing my phone onto the couch, not bothering to put it on charge. I stood up and punch the nearest thing to me. Which happened to be the wall. Let's just say my hand now really hurt and was bleeding. Fabulous. Oh well, I deserved it. I wondered what she was doing now. Probably sleeping knowing Jade.

All this had started since the day Tori had started Hollywood Arts. Jade kept getting more jealous which led to more arguments between us. I don't understand this whole situation. I mean, if I wanted to be with Tori, I would have by now and if I wanted to dump jade, I would have by now as well. So why couldn't she understand that I didn't want to break up with her? I've told her I loved her multiple times so why did she still have trust issues with me? I would never do anything like that to hurt Jade and I was hoping she knew that but apparently she doesn't. I think about all the times she's said that I flirt with girls. Why would I flirt with girls when I have someone like her standing next to me? She's way more beautiful and talented then the rest of the girls I know. She's unpredictable, smart, funny, talented, and beautiful.

I decided to tell her all this tomorrow and show her exactly how I feel about her. I started worrying now, she might not listen to me. She might break up with me. Oh god, I didn't want that happening! I know I'm just a teenager but Jade… she's literally my life. She's what keeps me happy all the while, the reason I want to go to school, the reason I want to actually wake up on a morning and the reason why I live every day. She's what keeps me going. She keeps my life interesting and always keeps me on the feet, wondering what she's going to surprise me with next.

Basically, I'm in love with Jade West.

So what happened?


So there's chapter 3! sorry it's shorter than the others but please review! tah byebye, i'll update soon x

-fullofsurprises'xo