A/N: Song used in this chapter was written for the non-profit To Write Love on Her Arms, which is an amazing organization. If you have never checked out their website please do so especially if you are struggling with a Mental Illness (It's nothing to be ashamed of, I do), self-harm, suicidal thoughts, an eating disorder. Please reach out for help and please know that you are not alone.

Sit back, you're not so different. Drop the gun, don't hurt anyone. I know the pain inside, just look into my eyes. Cry. It's just you and I, We've got through everything and everything's alright. Look into my eyes, don't say goodbye. I'll be your friend, turn the lights off baby, think again. Don't say goodbye, I'll be your friend. I'll keep on saving you over and over again.

Olivia stood by the glass. She watched as they grabbed the paddles to try and get rhythm back to her heart. Everything before her was falling apart. How could she have missed this? Why didn't she say something sooner? These questions rattled her brain. She looked up at the heart monitor and seen they got a beat and watch as they quickly intubated her. She looked up to the ceiling 'Please god be with her and wrap your arms around her. Please let her know she is loved and cared about. Please help her make it through this and help her battle. Amen.' After the doctor was done he came out to talk to Olivia. "Detective Benson the next 48 hours will be severely critical. There's no saying what could happen. She is stable for now and we are going to run her labs. Her heart is very weak. She was covered in scars and fresh cuts. She has lost a lot of blood. If and when she pulls through this she is going to need a lot of support and help." Olivia nodded. She really didn't know what to say. She was just grateful the doctor was able to bring her back even if her life was dangling by a thread at this very moment. "Can I go in and see her." The doctor turned to Olivia. "Yes you can, she can hear you still. Just be here for her. Through my many years of practice patients have a better survival rate if they have love and support around them when they are in this condition and so critical. She will be in the ICU for a while until she is stable enough and able to breathe on her own." Olivia nodded as tear streaked down her face and mascara began to run and stain her soft olive complexion skin. She walked through the door and seen just how lifeless Amanda was. She barely recognized her. This was not the same woman she once knew.

She sat next her bed and grabbed her hand. She started to talk to her and pour her heart out. "Amanda please don't leave me. You can't die. I am so sorry I didn't see this. All the signs were there. I should have said something, done something. I feel so terrible. I love you Amanda." She circled her thumb in soothing circles on her hand. She looked up to Amanda and tears began to fall. She cried harder than she had for anyone since her own mother passed away. "Amanda baby please don't die. I promise you we will get through this. I am here for you and I am not going anywhere. I will be your rock. Nothing bad will happen ever again to you." Olivia wanted more than anything for Amanda to pull though. She wanted to curl up next to her on the hospital bed. She wanted to cradle and comfort the woman she had started to fall for. Just then she heard a knock on the door. It was the nurse doing round and checked Amanda's vital and looked up to the heart monitor and wrote everything down. "Mam would you like me to bring a cot in here for you to sleep on tonight." Olivia looked over to the nurse. "That would be great, thank you so much.' The nurse walked about and Olivia turned back to Amanda. She was never going to let her down again.

Tonight could change your life and tonight I'll be here my friend. I'll keep on saving you over and over again. Tonight could change your life and tonight I'll be here my friend. I'll keep saving you over and over. Sit back, you're not so different. Drop the gun, don't hurt anyone. I know the pain inside, just look into my eyes. Cry. It's just you and I, We've got through everything, and everything's alright. Look into my eyes, don't say goodbye.

Olivia settled in to the chair next to Amanda's bed. Never once letting go of her hand. She continued to silently pray for Amanda and the strength to be the support she would need to recover. She kept vigil all night and didn't sleep a wink. When the morning nurse came in to make her rounds and check Amanda's vitals, Olivia decided to step out to stretch her legs and get a cup of coffee. She knew it was going to be a long day since she didn't get any sleep.

She walked around the parking lot. She couldn't get her mind to stop racing. She wanted for Amanda to make. She had to make it for without her she would be lost.

I'll be your friend, turn the lights off baby, think again. Don't say goodbye, I'll be your friend. I'll keep on saving you over and over again. You've got nothing to die for, so live it up. You've got nothing to cry for, forget it all. You've got nothing to die for, so live it up. You've got nothing to cry for, forget it all. Tonight could change your life and-tonight I'll be here my friend. I'll keep on saving you over and over again. Tonight could change your life and-tonight I'll be here my friend. I'll keep saving you over and over.

A/N: Again if you feel like you are alone please know that you are not. There are several resources out there. There is hope and light at the end of the tunnel.