Disclaimer: I Own Nothing
Warnings: Rated M - AU - OOC
I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away
Just So You Know by Jesse McCartney
Ages/Grades:
(Remember, Sasuke skipped a grade, and so did Hinata)
Juniors
Sasuke - 15
Hinata - 15
Neji - 16
Kiba - 16
Sakura - 16
Ino - 16
Seniors
Itachi - 17
Naruto - 17
Gaara - 17
Suigetsu - 17
Rock Lee - 17
Chapter 3
Pale hips bucked up desperately, wanting add more friction as a tan body grinded up against him, moaning and crying out in pleasure, smacking noises sounded out, sweat dripping down a tightly muscled chest and down the tan chiseled abs.
"A-ah!" He could feel the muscles in his stomach tighten, his body tensing as he neared his orgasm, so close, so god damn close, and so good.
"N-Naruto I'm cum-"
A frazzled teenage boy shot up from his bed, panting and heaving heavily, his body covered in sweat, gulping, the raven lifted his large comforter and groaned when he saw the mess in his pants, sighing pitifully, he threw the dark abyss blue blankets off his body, climbing out of his rather large bed before padding over to the bathroom, removing his pajama bottoms and throwing them into a hamper.
He leaned into his shower and turned the nozzle, jets of cold water spraying onto the cold blue marble shower floor from the shower head.
Groaning the raven sat at the edge of the shower, not getting wet while he waited for it to warm up, planting his face into his hands.
It was the third time he'd woken up since he'd gone to sleep last night to find his pajama bottoms and boxers to be covered in semen, the dreams had started becoming more frequent and frankly, although they were some of the best he'd ever had, it was frustrating, he wished he could just tell the blonde of his dreams (a/n: literally) how he felt about him, but he just couldn't, for more reasons than one.
Shaking his head stubbornly to rid himself of his thoughts he stepped into the shower and hissed as the warm water spattered all over his body, taking a deep breath to calm himself he let himself relax, letting the warm water slide over his tense muscles until he felt like mush.
Eventually, his thoughts drifted to the blonde who'd been causing the frequent dreams, he truly did love the blonde, and the idiot, of course, had never noticed, though Sasuke couldn't say he hated that fact or not, but when it came to everything else the Uzumaki could pin point what was exactly wrong with the youngest Uchiha almost as well as his elder brother.
Bashing his head against the marble wall in frustration he let out an irritated whimper, he hated feeling so helpless and lost with his feelings, but there was nothing he could do, he'd tried to just forget and burry his feelings for him and just act like a friend, but that didn't work, and when he'd wanted to tell the blonde how he felt, it had ended with the Uchiha's hope to confess his feelings being crushed and buried deep within himself.
Letting out a mournful sigh, he finished lathering himself and shampooing his hair, he turned the nozzle off and stepped out, grabbing a nearby blue towel, wrapping it around his waist, while he dried his hair, making it spring to life in its normal fashion, he'd honestly tried to tame the wild locks but they'd just spring back up not matter how much gel and hairspray he put in it, so finally he'd gotten fed up and let it be.
Walking into his closet, he stopped in front of the full length mirror, starring at his pale skin, the scars from years ago had started fading away with time, there were just a few left that hadn't faded, but they were mostly places he could hide with clothes.
Setting his towel on his dresser, he opened the drawer and pulled out a fresh pair of boxer, before going to dress into his school uniform.
Sasuke sat in the back of his third period class, bored out of his mind, he was close to falling asleep but he was startled out of his daze when a slightly larger and broader chest heaved onto his back, causing him to grunt as his breath was momentarily knocked out of him, he growled and turned around, prepared to make a comment on the persons mother but any insults that he'd been prepared to spout out died in his throat when he faced light blue fascinating eyes.
"What's with the sleepy face?" The blonde asked enthusiastically, grinning his trademark charming fox smile.
"Nothing."
"Well, Sakura's having a get together later tonight at her place, and we were wondering if you were gonna come?"
The obsidian eyed raven paused before he answered, wondering if he should go, it was hard enough being around the pink haired menace, but when Naruto and her were flirting or hugging or just sitting next to each other a little too closely, he went insane with jealousy.
So he tended to avoid going anywhere where the two could be together, he knew he should just get over his crush but he couldn't, he'd tried and when he'd avoided the blonde it had ended with the Uzumaki forcing him to tell him what was wrong, he'd lied through his teeth just to get away from him, telling him someone had rejected him and he didn't feel like talking to anyone, which wasn't entirely untrue.
The idiot still had no idea that the raven had been litsening the day he'd been talking with Itachi when they were younger.
"N-no, I'm just gonna head home after school."
"Awe, come on Sasuke, it won't be the same without you, Kiba and Neji are gonna be there and so is Itachi." He clasped his hands together, sticking his bottom lip out in a mock pout, trying to convince his best friend's younger brother.
"Naruto, no-" The bell rang before the Uchiha could finish and for that he was grateful, he grabbed his backpack and sprinted out of the class, he wanted to but he just didn't want to be there with the blonde and pink-haired freak there.
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"Sasuke, catch!"
Said raven caught the basketball that was thrown at him, dribbling it past the opposing team's members easily, before passing it to an expecting Neji who caught it swiftly before dunking it into the basket.
Their team cheered as a whistle was blown signaling the game over, his team had one, of course that was to be expected of a team that had Kiba, Rock Lee, Neji and Sasuke on it.
"Wonderful game! You may all go to the lockers!" Gai cried joyously, waving off the students who sighed in relief and headed to the locker rooms.
Sasuke sighed, walking beside Neji and Kiba who were bickering as usual, today's debate was about Neji's feelings towards the ever so aloof Gaara, but the brunette insisted that he had no feelings for the red-head, which is when Lee bounded to the long haired Hyuuga's side.
"Neji! You have feelings for Gaara-san!? How wonderful! You must tell him at once! One must not keep such feelings of youthful love hidden within the heart!" The youthful teen yelled excitedly, while Neji starred at him in horror, before gripping the older teen's shirt at the neck.
"Lee, I swear to god if you ever repeat that again to anyone, I will castrate you." He growled, his lavender white eyes blazing, telling the darker-haired boy he wasn't joking, but of course Lee just grinned. completely oblivious to the long haired teens murderous aura.
Sasuke held back laughter while Kiba howled; holding his stomach as he laughed at the brunettes flushed face.
"Come on Neji, give him a break, he's just trying to help." Kiba chided, patting the angered boys back, who released the still smiling Lee.
"So Sasuke, are you gonna come with us to Sakura's?"
The raven scrunched up his nose distastefully, "I'd rather not suffer for three hours watching Naruto and Sakura necking." He replied, Kiba and Neji were the only ones who knew about his feelings for Naruto, and he'd made sure they swore never to tell anyone.
"Ah, come on, it'll be fun, you don't have to watch them, you can just talk with us." The short-haired brunette whined, hooking his arm over the ravens shoulder good-naturedly.
"I don't know..."
"Come on Sasuke, you can't just avoid the fact that the love of your life is dating someone whose been pining for and molesting you since kindergarten and doesn't appreciate the guy you love which pisses you off and makes you hate her more, for the rest of your life."
Sasuke starred at the brunette quietly, his dark onyx eyes narrowed before he rammed his fist into his gut violently, causing the dog-lover to fall to his knees, but the Uchiha paid him no mind, walking to his P.E. locker.
"Wow, I think your punches have gotten stronger, he hasn't gotten up like he usually does." Sasuke turned to stare at the long-haired teen blankly before undressing, putting on his uniform quickly before grabbing his things, Neji followed, Kiba catching up while he held his stomach in pain.
"For god's sake, it was just a joke, you're too sensitive." Kiba grumbled, huffing, but the raven paid him no mind, rolling his eyes as they walked to their final class.
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"Sasuke!!! You came!" Sasuke stepped aside as the pink-haired girl leapt at him, missing as he hid behind Kiba who laughed,
"Back off Sakura." Neji mumbled, rolling his eyes at the pink-haired idiot.
"Sasuke! You came, that's awesome!" All four teenagers turned to the rough husky voice to see Naruto leaping at Sasuke who didn't move, blushing as he was embraced tightly.
"I knew you'd come! Come on in, Itachi's here too!" The blonde exclaimed, grinning like an idiot as usual.
Sasuke nodded, shrugging out of the loose embrace, heading over to one of the large couches in the living room, sitting beside Gaara and Itachi.
He glanced to his right as Neji and Kiba sat beside him, Neji glancing at the sea-foam green eyed red-head.
Sasuke smirked, leaning closer into the brunette, lips at his ear, "Would you like to trade seats?" The brunette shot him a glare, shaking his head, a light blush dusting his cheeks.
An hour into the party, Sasuke felt his self-control slipping, Naruto and Sakura had been flirting and necking and it was taking its toll on the poor raven, but he refused to look at them, because he knew that if he did, the possibility of going berserk and attacking the pinkette was very great, so sighing he stood up, planning to go to the kitchen but he stopped when he heard a knock.
"Oi, Sasuke can you get that?" Naruto yelled, Sasuke nodded, going to the door and opening it, seeing a silver haired man on the other side of the door, dark emerald eyes staring at him intensely before pink lips formed into a smirk causing the raven to frown.
"Hello there," Sasuke's frowned deepened as he was eyed up, feeling oddly uncomfortable, he held back a sigh of relief as when Naruto walked up behind him, greeting the platinum blonde-haired man happily, glancing between the small raven and the now leering guest.
"Suigetsu, it's about time, come on in!" He gestured with his hand for the man to enter, opening the door wider to let him in.
"It's good to see you again, how've you been?" The blonde asked; unaware of the nervous stare Sasuke was giving the tall teenager who was staring at him with a predatory look his eyes, before turning back to the equally as tall teen.
"It's good to see you too, I've been great, and how are things with Sakura?" As they began to talk Sasuke walked away and to the kitchen, all the while feeling the intense gaze on his back.
Something in his gut told him that he'd better stay away from him.
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Sasuke served himself a glass of coke, dropping ice cubes into it bored as he watched the gas rise up into bubbles and dissolve.
"So, Sasuke was it."
Tensing the raven turned around, gulping when he saw a cheerfully smiling Suigetsu in front of him.
"U-um...hi..." Why am I stuttering!? I'm an Uchiha for god's sake; this is not how an Uchiha acts!!! Shoving the thoughts to the back of his mind, he picked up his drink, walking past the older teen, yelping when he felt a pinch on his bottom.
Whirling around, he starred at the sliver-blonde shocked, his dark onyx eyes wide, though you'd think he'd be use to getting groped with all his rabid fan girls.
"Did you just-"
"Sasuke! Come on, we're playing twister!" The raven tuned to the entrance of the kitchen to see Kiba grinning widely, he nodded towards the brunette, taking his drink and fast-walking out, passing by the older who smirked at him.
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"Bye Sasuke-kuuun!"
Said raven felt his eye twitch, he didn't reply, following Neji and Kiba to the Hyuuga's car, he had endured enough squealing to last a life time; no seriously, it was like the girl didn't know when to shut up!
He entered the front seat, sitting down gratefully when he didn't have to listen to the constant jibber-gabber of the pinkette.
"Sooo Sasuke, was I seeing things or did Suigetsu actually pinch your butt?" The youngest Uchiha sent a feral glare at the brunette in the front seat who was grinning coyly at him, while Neji glanced at him amusedly from his mirror.
"You were seeing things dog face, now drop or I'll tell Shino you like him." He growled out, satisfied with himself when the normally tan boy paled.
"Y-you wouldn't!" He screeched, causing the Hyuuga and Uchiha to wince, shaking his head Sasuke sent Kiba a look that answered his question, 'Yes I would'
Huphing hotly, the dog lover sat back down on his seat, crossing his arms over his chest while grumbling quietly, "Stupid stuck-up bastard, I never get to have any fun..."
The raven rolled his eyes, leaning back into his seat, watching the passing scenery bored his dark eyes dazing.
Why did it have to be Naruto that he fell in love with, anyone else would have been fine, but nooo, he had to fall for the gorgeous, un-available, best friend of his brother, and most straight popular guy in school, why did life have to be so cruel? Really, he would've preferred to fall for Rock Lee...well...maybe not Lee...but you got the point.
He knew his chances of actually getting together with the blonde would be slim to none, but he couldn't help but dream, he wasn't even gay...well...then again...there had been that time where he'd declared himself bisexual...but honestly he'd been drunk of his ass, stupid Kiba had spiked his drink without telling him and he'd ended up singing kareoke all night long, if it hadn't been for Neji he'd have declared his love for the blonde that very night.
Sighing he leant his head against the window, his eyes beginning to droop as he felt sleep begin to take him.
Maybe...maybe one day I'll be able to tell him...
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(2 Years Ago)
Sasuke took deep breaths, attempting to calm his haywire nerves, he'd been a wreck since yesterday when he'd decided he would finally tell Naruto how he felt about him, this year he would finally be entering high school, the same one as his elder brother and his current love...
He'd finally gotten the guts to confess because of his friends encouragement, so now he was attempting to calm himself, he didn't want to act like a girl would, but what if that's what Naruto wanted?...maybe he should've asked around for more info...shaking his head he headed to his Aniki's room, he needed to do this before he lost his nerve.
Walking out of his room, he fast-walked to his brother's room, it was close to his, so he didn't have enough time to talk himself out of it.
'Okay, I can do this, I can do this...oh who am I kidding I can't do this...ugh! What kind of Uchiha can't even confess his feelings...Then again...Uchiha's aren't supposed to show any emotion what so ever....so....
Sighing to himself, he stopped in front of his brothers room, getting ready to knock, freezing when he heard the blondes familiar voice, he didn't know why, but he couldn't move...
"Aaaah! What the heck is this!? Another love letter!?"
There was 'hn' in reply, he automatically assumed it was his brother, he peeked through the crack of the door, they hadn't closed the door all the way so he could see his brother at his desk, Naruto sprawling himself over Itachi's bed.
"Whose it from?"
"I don't know, does it matter, I mean don't get me wrong, it's flattering and all, but don't they get that I'm dating someone already, I mean really, I don't like rejecting them, but it's so pathetic when they start to cry, saying 'okay, I understand' and then I feel guilty, honestly it's better to just not reply."
Gulping past the forming lump in his throat, Sasuke kept on litsening, knowing that he should just go back to his room, but he couldn't.
"Well what do you do when they tell you to your face?"
"That I have a girl friend, I mean how dumb is it to ask someone out when they're with someone!?"
"If your not even going to date them theres no point critizing them."
"Aah man, thats so wrong, he's on the wrestling team!? Oh no, he's waaay to big, and I do not bottom.'
"Mm-hm." The raven replied absentmindly, focused on his book as his best friend babbled on and on about lord know what.
"I say no, I mean don't get me wrong I don't think this relationship with Ino's going to work out but I'm sick of relationships, I don't need to be tied down, I'm only a freshman, I'm gonna be a sophomore next yearm, I'd rather sleep around and just have a good time!"
Gulping heavily, the young raven walked back towards his room, closing his door behind him and locking it, going to his bed and falling face first, feeling tears fall down onto his blankets, eventually the area became damp, but Sasuke couldn't have cared less.
'Why....why after I finally decide to tell...why did I have to hear him say that...?'
Gulping, the Uchiha sat up, wiping away his tears, he got off his bed, walking towards his bathroom, going to the sink and washing his face, the water felt good against his face, he'd been uncomfortable breathing into the fabric of the blanket, and crying had made his face puffy.
Shaking his head, he headed back to his bed, sprawling on his back, looking up at the ceiling, thoughts running through his mind a mile and minute.
'I'm so stupid...'
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Sasuke bolted up screaming, gasping for air, eyes wide while tears ran down his face, his nightmares had been occurring more and more lately, especially after he'd begun avoiding Naruto, it's been almost two weeks since he'd last even talked to the blonde.
Shaking his head, he flopped back down, thinking about everything that had happened, Neji and Kiba had tried their best to console their friend but the raven was refusing to talk to anyone, including Itachi.
He glanced at his door when there was a knock, but he didn't move, just starring at the white wood door in fear.
Eventually the knocking got more persistent and Sasuke became annoyed, he let out a frustrated growl and walked to the door, slamming it open, his eyes widening when he saw Naruto standing on the other side, stormy blue eyes narrowed
"Damn it Sasuke, I'm sick of-" The blonde's harsh words died in his mouth before they could be formed and he rushed towards the raven, taking his flushed face into his hands, starring into the reddened onyx eyes.
"What's wrong?"
"N-no-nothing, I'm fine, thank you for asking." He replied quietly, pulling his face away, not even blushing like he normally would.
"Sasuke...did someone do something to you?"
"...no, can you just leave me alone?"
"But Sasuke-"
"Look, I told you I'm fine, so just back off!" He pushed the blonde out of his room, slamming the door in his face before he could say anything and locked it, sliding down to the floor, feeling the door vibrate as Naruto pounded his fist onto it, calling the ravens name, but he didn't reply, leaning against the door.
The pounding didn't cease for around another 10 minutes, eventually it stopped and he heard something slide down the door after the ruckus stopped, and knew the blonde was leaning against the door.
"Sasuke?"
The raven didn't reply, pulling his knees up to his chest, litsening.
"Remember when I stayed with you when you were in the hospital, you were around 7, right?"
"...hn..."
He heard a chuckle, "I remember telling Itachi and your mom to go home and that I'd look after you...and you'd wake up a lot in the middle of the night screaming..."
The raven remembered all too well, he'd scream and cry and thrash around, but Naruto had never gotten frustrated with him, holding and cooing to him that everything was alright until he'd eventually calm down.
"I used to sing you a song to help you relax, remember it?"
The raven didn't reply, starring down at his blue carpet, biting his plump bottom lip.
"It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop"
The raven smiled at the familiar verse, it was the song Naruto had used to sing to him, it was pathetic how well the song fit his current situation, shaking his head, he stood up, opening the door, watching amusedly as the dope fell backwards, groaning.
"Owww." He whined, rolling onto his stomach before standing up, grinning at the raven, 'Knew the song would work' He told himself, his grinning forming into a soft comforting smile as he embraced the boy.
"Now, will you please tell me what's been up with you? Neji and Kiba have been saying you've been down, you won't hang out with anyone and you look thinner, Itachi's really worried about you too..."
The raven nodded, "I...I know..." He felt tears start to fall down the corner of his eyes before racing down his flushed pale cheeks, sniffing lightly.
Naruto tightened his hold on him, cooing and humming the tune of the song he'd been singing, rocking himself and his companion back and forth.
"Sasuke, what happened?"
"...."
"Sasuke?" Said boy felt his chin lifted up, forcing him to look into the blue eyes he so desperately had been trying to avoid.
"I...I g-got..." What was he supposed to say...he couldn't confess, no...That wasn't it...he wouldn't....not any more at least.
"I got rejected...."
The Uzumaki starred at him in disbelief but didn't comment, seeing how torn up the raven was about it, wondering who the hell wouldn't have wanted the Sasuke Uchiha, the only other Uchiha other than his mother that was even remotely approachable.
"Who?"
"Doesn't matter..." He replied, pulling away, causing the older to sigh.
"I'm always here for you Sasuke..." He whispered, holding the raven tighter, not knowing the affect of his words...they were tearing up the poor ravens heart to pieces...
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A/N: Ohayou Gozaimasu...I Think...Well It's 4am, So I Think Thats Appropriate, So I Hope You Liked This Chapter Though I Myself Felt Like Slapping Sasuke And Naruto...Anywho...I'm Starting To Get Some Idea's For Step Brother's In Love, So I'm Thinking I Might Update It Sometime Between September and November, Then Again It Might Just Possibly Be Sooner, But Knowing How I Am It'll Probably Be Between Those Three Months, So Please Wait Patiently For Those Of You Who Have Read It!!!
Ittekimasu
