Disclaimer: I do not own InuYasha.
Warning: This story may or may not contain sexual content in later chapters.
Xxx SesshomaruxxX
Twilight is approaching.
I can hear Rin scampering about a few steps away with a merry tune in her throat.
Why did she decide to come? Had she not grown attached to the ways of the villagers; I thought for certain she would.
I peer behind my shoulder at the girl twirling a small Sakura flower in her fingers. Her eyes reading with the unspoken words of the little child inside of her: 'So pretty.'
It amazes me how she can see all the wonders in things so small…
As a child, Rin would often venture into the forests with me; picking flowers as she padded after my longer strides.
"Sesshomaru-sama isn't it pretty?" childish excitement bubbled from the girl.
She only held a mere weed; a Dandelion with a putrid faded yellow color.
I traded a glance to it, nothing more. "Come along, Rin." I said restarting my trek back towards camp.
I remember that time well; my head had been so full of question in how that girl's mind worked.
One of the many mysteries of humans, I think broadly, halting to a stop in the flat area of land in which I have searched.
Jaken; grumbling, absent minded, and stupid as usual fell backward in collision with the back of my calves, "Lord Sesshomaru! Please forgive me! I did not mean to—!"
"We will settle camp here this night Jaken."
AhUn, with a moan drops to the ground. Rin stops to tenderly rub its scaly back.
I don't stay long enough to watch them as a comfortable fire is lit and they prepare for rest.
I decide I will take a walk. Think.
Without a word, I start off towards the heavily brushed forest, with the serine knowledge of a certain girl, staring after me with wary eyes…
Xxx RinxxX
"Rin!" hum…what is that? Who's there?
"Rin, where are ye!" Is someone calling for me? I wonder who it could be…
"Answer us, Rin!" Oh please, do go away? I'm much too tired.
"R-R-Rin-chan," And now you take the voice of a sniveling child? You are much too cruel.
Shifting against the damp earth that I have made my bedding for the night, my still heavy eyelids peel open to see if I may find the one who seeks me.
"R-Rin, are you here? Please, come home!" I recognize, through the quivering, the voice of little Emi, one of the identical twins of Master Miroku and Lady Sango… What could she be doing way out here? She could get hurt!
"Rin, are you out here? Can you hear us? Rin," Is that Lady Kagome? She's here too? Where is Lord InuYasha? He should be watching her! The night is full of dangerous youkai; she risks losing her unborn child.
"Kagome, take it easy." Ah, there he is.
"I j-just, w-we need to find her!" she sobs. Am I the cause of this?
"Hey, I know. But all this stress you're put'n on yer'self aint gonna make us find 'er any faster, Kagome." He says tenderly to her. I can almost see the sweet image of the half-demon caressing her flushed face and then pulling her close for a light embrace. Yes, it's a routine with the pair and oddly I (as well as many others) have it committed to memory.
"We'll find Rin. Count on it." He says determined.
So is this what they're all here for; in blind search of me? How foolish. I can't be too surprised, for the thought had occurred to me only minutes after the restarting of my journey with Lord Sesshomaru, yet I merely brushed it off. Am I really that important to the village?
I rise slowly to a sitting position, my breathing picking up with the weight of worry and guilt lulling in my chest.
I'm looking frantically around.
I don't want to leave Lord Sesshomaru… yet at the same time, I-I can't leave them behind; my village. Can I?
Lady Kaede; the old frail woman whom has cared for me all these long years… Would I leave her?
And Monk Miroku and good Lady Sango, with their beautiful children, Ani, Emi, and little Koji; All of which I had helped bring into the world…them as well?
And then there's the ever sweet and annoying Fox Demon, Shippo… Will I?
And not to forget the kind heart of Lady Kagome; training at my side with Lady Kaede in the tricks and advantages of medical herbs and spices with also of course in how to perfect archery skills.
I would miss talking with her and laughing as she teased Lord InuYasha as he followed us, on occasion, through the woods while we gathered various species of herbs for assignments given to us by Lady Kaede .
Do I have the heart to turn my back and detach my strong bond with these glorious people?
But then I think of Lord Sesshomaru… He is just…
Give up, Rin, he thinks of you as nothing but a mere child; his ward.He will never accept you as anything more. My thoughts invade me with negative words. Ward. Not companion; just a small village girl in attachment with the wonders of a high-classed demon lord.
Perhaps my subconscious is right. It is a silly thing to believe that my guardian would accept me as something more than a helpless child. It's understandable really; he knows me as such so why would I change?
But I made my choice didn't I? Isn't it final; I stay with Lord Sesshomaru and no one else?
But I cannot help it; people in the village are looking for me. I cannot let them wander into the woods with not the slightest clue as to where I am. And being the night of the new moon, InuYasha is no help to them.
I rise slowly only for a pair of eyes, golden to the description of burning embers on a dimming fire, bore somber holes into my own, even from their distance.
"L-Lord Sesshomaru!" my words slip on my tongue, like walking on ice.
He stares at me for this moment; examining me from the top of my scalp to the tips of my toes with a hard look of personal question etched on his divine face.
With a disregarding huff he turns away; the long snowy locks of his silver hair playing against his bare back in the late evening breeze. "Go to them, Rin." He says nonchalantly, "They're looking for you,"
A fresh curve of guilt rots my insides. "My lord, I…" What can I say? I'm sorry? I'm having second thoughts? No, I'm almost positive he knows that already.
"Go." His growling outburst makes me jump. Is he angry with me? Most likely; his tight posture, I can take for a clue. Can I blame him? I lied, for Kami's sake! That's not like me. No not at all. Why am I so selfish!
Walking tenderly to the mouth of the forest, stepping gracefully over the sleeping Jaken I whisper low, though I know he can hear. "Forgive me…" and I sprint off in the direction of the voices that desperately call my name.
Xxx Sesshomaru xxX
So she was having second thoughts.
I suppose I understand. I had a feeling that she was not ready to make her decision final.
I understand and yet…
Xxx
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