Er... THIRD CHAPPY :D well.. i'd like to thank Honhiry and The Lone Cinder for liking my story and pushing me to continue on it.. mwahaha oh how i torture you two.. :D

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I stood outside of my hotel room and waited for someone to come out. When they did, it was Cindy, who was blushing again "Nothing happened, we just wanted to lay together, away from prying eyes." she reassured me. I sighed thankfully and grabbed my necklace. The longer i had it, the more i held onto it when i was nervous. I decided i would leave them alone and let them sleep in, so i walked back to CB's hotel room. Only Yu was there, he told me everyone else was getting breakfast. I was slightly shaking, still shocked. It had cooled down since i found out nothing happened between them, and nothing would, but nevertheless, iw as still shaking. "Do you like your necklace?" he asked me. "Yes, very much." I replied. Lately, all the things i had been fainting over, became very dear to me. Yu was happy that i liked it so much, and he motioned for me to sit down next to him. I hesitated, scared of what he was going to do to me, but i went anyway. He wrapped his arms around me and stared out the window, lost in thought.

Forever, is how long ill be there for you.

Forever, is how long ill love you.

Angel, where are your wings?

They left me when i came down for you.

They will return.

Angel, where is your halo?

It left me when i reached up for you.

It will return.

A Few Hours Earlier (from Cindy's View)

I woke up with kiro holding me. It was nice to be so close to someone. Kiro.. more and more that name had more meaning to me. He stirred and whispered to me "Lets go to your room, its too crowded for comfort in here.". I smiled and got out of bed. Before i walked out, i asked him "Does it bother you that we haven't known eachother for very long?". "Not a bit." he grinned. We walked out into the hallway in our pajamas, and i led him to my shared hotel room. We climbed into my bed and fell back asleep. Not too long later, kiro woke me by kissing my shoulders, and up my neck to my jaw. I chuckled and smiled, making kiro smile as well. We began to talk a bit, and froze when we heard someone open the door. Kiro looked up, and so did i. It was Taii. I could feel my cheeks heatitng up, and i popped out from under the blankets. Taii had ran out and shut the door behind her almost as fast as she had come in. I went out, and sure enough, she was standing by the door. I reassured her that nothing had happened, and she seemed convinced, so she left and i went back in to kiro. "She thought we.." Kiro flinched. "Yes, but i told her what actually happened." he seemed to relax when i said that. He stared at me as i got back under the blankets "Do you find it frightening the way Yu looks at Taii?" he asked me. I looked at him softly "The one who should be frightened by it, is Taii. Its like every time he sees her, every once of anger, sadness, and fear just melts away.. Why?" I answered. "Because you stare at me that way.". I froze and looked away, he was right, i did. But the way he said it made me feel slighttly alienated, like he wanted me to stop. But there was no way she could just stop. It burned through her now, and it was renewed by every heartbeat. I looked back at him sadly, and gasped. There it was, he was staring his heart out right in front of her. I began to wonder what was with the stares, but i couldn't think of anything then him for too long. He pulled me against him and pressed his lips against mine. I responded with enthusiasm, and lost myself to him.

11 AM Germany Time (Taii's View)

The food in the hotel was horrible, and i found myself wishing i had a big burger, and a shake. Its a miracle i don't weigh five tons... I laughed. I tossed the cereal and went outside. I was surrounded by tall buildings, fast driving cars, and people rushing about. It wasn't exactly the most peaceful place to be, but there was nowhere else, so i began to walk. I looked at my feet the whole time, and barely noticed it. I put my hands in my coat pockets, and felt around for my sunglasses. I snapped them on and continued walking. Some people, if this was happening to them, they would never leave Cinema Bizarre's sight. They'd be squealing and screaming and would probably smother all five of the band members. Why does Yu love me? Im nothing special.. Why.. Why.. WHY? I tripped on the curb, and fell face forward onto the sidewalk. Oh wonderful.. i hope i didn't break my nose or something. Well, here i go again.. unconscious.. this is getting on my nerves. Ugh.. i hope someone finds me. I could feel myself though, and at one point my back started aching realllyyy bad... But then i was transported to a soft surface.. Ahh.. much better... Oh god.. i hope im not being kidnapped by some freak or something.

I woke up in a hospital bed. How ironic. There was a needle jabbed in my arm for the IV. I looked at it and screamed my lungs out. Fear.. of.. needles... A nurse came running in, and started scrambling about trying to figure out what was wrong with me. "GET IT OUT OF ME!!" i shreiked at her as loud as i could. All she did was repeat nervously that i needed it. She looked concerned though, but it wasn't enough to keep me quiet. Finally, a doctor came in and took it out gently, and i calmed down. The doctor looked at me worriedly "You nearly gave yourself a concussion.". "Well im lucky i didn't!" i snapped at him "How did i get here?". "A strange looking young man brought you here and told us what he thought had happened." he responded. "WHAT DID HE LOOK LIKE??" i interrogated him loudly. "Um... He had black and red, weirdly styled hair. He was wearing makeup and had a bunch of peircings. He seemed really worried though, he was crying." the doctor told me. "Is he still here? Tell him to come in!" i didn't wait for a yes or no. "Yes he's still here, im going to head off, tell the nurse to get him." And the doctor walked out. I quickly told the nurse what i wanted, and she went out to find him.

Almost a few seconds later, she opened the door and let in a messy looking Yu. "How did you find me?" I asked. His makeup was all over, apparently he had been crying. "You didn't come back for a long time so i went to look for you in the direction the others pointed you had gone in. I found you on the ground, with a bloody forehead. And i think you know what happens after that." he laughed nervously. He put his hands in his pockets and stared at me, like he was hesitating, holding back. "What's.. wrong?" I began to panic. "Im going on tour with CB for two months.. I don't think it would be so good for you to fall in love with someone who isn't going to be there for you.." He backed up a few steps. He looked like he was dying to tell me something... "No... You cant leave me.." I started to cry. "I want to do what's best for you.." his eyes began to tear up. "No! Thats not what's best for me! You don't know what you're talking about!" I was sobbing fully now, and yelling. He looked like he would either run out, or flood me in a wave of kisses and forget he just said that. And then he walked out. As soon as the door shut i began screaming and wailing and sobbing, while choking on my tears. The nurse came in again and tried to calm me down, but nothing worked.. Nothing could make me happy again.

They said it would be two more days before i could go home, and my mom wanted me to fly back to America, with Carly and Badger.. Cindy too. I spent both days crying, not once i stopped, even if i tried to, i couldn't. Carly visited me, and nearly broke out crying from seeing me in this state. Badger was afraid to visit me, because she was more susceptable to waterworks then most. She told me what had happened with cinema bizarre lately, but they said they had to go back to their hotel because they were leaving to go on tour. I just laid there and listened to her, still crying. "I haven't seen Yu though.." She continued, making me sob violently. "What happened to make you so sad?" she asked, worried. I closed my eyes and bit my lip hard enough to keep me from screaming. "Ask.. s-strify.." i sputtered and began weeping again. Carly looked at me like if i continued, my eyes would dry up into little raisins and my face would soon fall off with the tears. Normally, i would have laughed at that thought.. I emptied my mind, after a long struggle, forcing myself to forget about everything. I held back the tears and laid there on the hospital bed, waiting to be taken home.

I woke up in my hotel room, which was strange, because everyone had made plans for my mom to come and go with me on the flight home.. I was happy to see i was still here though, i had learned to love germany. I was surrounded by gifts, and very happy looking Carly and Badgers. "What is going on.." i groaned and closed my eyes again. I heard Cindy speak, i hadn't seen her.. "We made arrangements for you to stay in germany. Well, all of us to stay in germany. We bought a really nice apartment for all of us to share in a building a few blocks away.. Its in the same building as Cinema Bizarre's!.". I felt sick, like i was going to vomit or something. Me, as young as i am.. Living in the country.. no, building, that the love of my life who had left me lives in. Oh god.. this was going to be hell. I would have to restrain myself with chains or something to keep myself from going to his apartment and attaching myself to him. After all he had said to me.. I clutched my necklace. He didn't actually love me. It was too good to be true, and therefore, it was all a lie. "Thank you.." i was glad i would never have to go back.. Though it would be hard living in a country where you cant understand anyone. I will have to learn German. "What are the gifts about?" i wondered outloud. "Cinema bizarre dropped of gifts, they heard you were in the hospital. We also went shopping for get well soon gifts.. And here they are." Carly looked proud. I grabbed a bright green one and ripped it open. It had a tag that said 'from strify' on it, and i frowned. I really didn't want to be reminded of them.. I never wanted to hear their music, see their names.. Nothing that had to do with them.

I popped the lid off of it to reveal an experts art set. It included pastels, different varieties of manga markers, pencils, paint brushes, erasers, everything imaginable. I felt tears well up, and i fought them back as i shut the lid and set the box to my side. Next was a blue and pink one, which i found the wrapping paper quite repulsive. It was from Badger. Inside, was a T-shirt that said Cinema Bizarre on it. I kept back a sobbing snarl, and smiled while telling her thanks. There was an ironically black one, from luminor, and it contained fingerless gloves. I put them on and reached for the next gift. It was from Kiro. It was a big fat sketch pad that i immediately loved. Cindy got me a video game, Carly some manga's. Shin got me a gift card to barnes and nobles, the book store, and i finally got to the one that mattered most. It was a poorly wrapped box from Yu. I took it slowly and carefully opened it. There was a letter, and a smaller box inside. Inside the box was a silver ring, with diamonds stretching around it. It was incredibly beautiful, and only made me cry again. I rolled open the letter and read,

Dear Taii,

Im so sorry.. I just cant stand seeing your face every time i walk away from you for one of our concerts.. I cant keep pulling away, and coming back just to be pulled away again. It's not fair to you, and not just that.. I don't feel like i know how to make you happy.. You deserve someone who can do that, and more. Anyway, i hope you like the ring. It reminded me of you, so i got it for you.

My sweet, im sorry i had to tear us apart..

Oh god what have i done..

I would have hurt you more if i'd have stayed.

Im sorry..

When i finished reading, i found myself crying just as hard as i had when i was in the hospital. "No.. No! No!NO!" i began yelling. Cindy shook me and calmed me down, all three of them were beginning to stress out. "Calm down. It was all an illusion. Forget about him, and come with us to our new apartment. Taii, forget about it.. For the sake of your well being." She was right, i needed to calm down and focus on other things. He never really loved me, so just get on with life. "We will help you carry your gifts." Badger said, and grabbed a few, Carly and Cindy following after. I grabbed the last one, it was of course the one from Yu, and i clutched it tightly as i followed them. We arrived at an incredible apartment, that was spacious, had lots of windows, and as they said, way too cheap. I smiled and called the biggest room. We all set down the stuff we had been carrying, and i retreated to my new room as they went out to cook something. I fell asleep on the bed, and when i woke, there was a wonderful smell in the air. Like a zombie, i wafted out of bed and into the kitchen. "What is that smell?" i groaned. Cindy laughed "Spahgetti!" she handed me a plate of delicious looking noodles and sauce. I ate happily, and rather quickly, and when i was done, if i ate another bite, i would explode. "mmm good" i smiled and patted my full stomach. Carly chuckled and turned on the TV that they had bought for the apartment. It was uninteresting and bored me to death, so i retreated back into my room.

Dear Yu,

I know you think that was the right, and honorable thing to do.. But you are just tearing me to peices. It takes everything to keep from cry--

Scratch that.

Yu,

I love you, i love you, i love you--

Er.. Scratch that too.

Dear Yu,

I love you so much.. I would be perfectly fine whenever you went on tour.. Im not as fragile as you think i am. Do you really love me? If you did you wouldn't have left... Its true, you are just a one night stand kind of guy. You cant handle love.. Just don't lie.

-Taii

Cindy agreed to mail it for me, because she was the only one who knew where their apartment was, and i was too upset to go mail it myself. She said she'd slide it under their door and they'd get it when they came back from tour. I had nothing to do, was too tired to read, and TV bored me. I shuffled through my mound of gifts and pulled out the ring. I slipped it on my finger and stared at it. "Yu.." i started crying again. I grabbed the art set, and the sketchbook and went into the living room to draw. What came out, was a picture of Yu. I hadn't specifically intended to draw him, i just let all my feelings out on the page.. And my feelings were of Yu. I sighed and slapped the sketchbook shut, not wanting to see his face. Carly turned on a movie, she had chosen a romance, of all things. I watched it anyway, and thought about how addicted to love i was. I frowned, and went into my room to fetch my notebook. I had thought of a few things, and i wanted to write them down before i forgot them.

I wrote a song for you.

You do love me..

To the point that I'm killing myself without you.

Why the hell are you doing this then?

To protect you..

You aren't protecting, you're destroying.

I wrote a song for you..

You already mentioned that.

Do you want to hear it?

More then you know.

Here goes..

"Yu!" i shouted, and began sobbing all over again. I really was getting good at the waterworks. I laid on the bed, and stared at the ceiling. I knew i was waiting for something.. Something that would never come. I waited for one week, and the whole time i never left the apartment. My friends began to whisper about things, and i caught 'Cinema Bizarre is back!'. I froze on my way to the kitchen, dropping my book. Why are they back so soon?? "Oh my god..." i managed to say, before running out. I practically flew down four stories of stairs, and stopped at CB's apartment. I held my hand at the door, and swallowed. What am i doing... They're going to think I'm desperate.. Oh wait.. i am desperate. I bit my lip again Im getting Yu back. And i knocked fast, and roughly. Strify opened the door, looking put out by the loud knocking. I shoved past him and searched for Yu. Strify looked like he completely understood, and he pointed to a room at the end of the small hall. I stood there for a few moments, and ran for the door.

This moment, me opening the door.. It was such a movie moment. Either he would be there, and want me back, or he would be making out with some other girl. Either i would be content for the rest of my life, or exist with a big fat hole in my chest until the day i died. How strange it was, like in a book. The delaying.. What would be behind the door? I saw my hand on the knob, and i was exerting energy to open it, but nothing was happening. I felt my hair in the air behind me, because i was running. This was strange.. Being frozen like this, and being fully able to think. Maybe i was just thinking incredibly fast.. It felt just weird at first, but then suddenly, full blown panic fell down on me. My hair let gravity take hold, and i pushed open the door. I could feel myself sweating from the panic and nervousness. I blinked, and i never realized before how incredibly long they took. There he was.. alone, with his guitar. I ran forward and pushed us into a crushing kiss. He wrapped his arms around me.. and he kissed me back. He's kissing me back.. Thank you, i cant believe this.. Thank you.. He still loves me.. When we parted for air, he managed to speak "I cant believe i did that.. What is wrong with me? I love you so much..". All i could do was look at him, and focus on holding back more of those damn tears. He chuckled, apparently he had dropped his guitar when i attacked him by kiss.

Life is painful, and life is sweet. Right now, it was being unbelievably sweet. Plain old me, in love with the band member of Cinema Bizarre. That was such a weird concept to grasp. Yu leaned over me and stared at me.

Love, i see it in your eyes.

Im not surprised.

Don't ever do that again.

I wont, i promise.

I drew you a week ago..

My sweet.

You get easily distracted..

You stray from subject too often.

Well, its hard to keep speaking of one thing for too long.

We aren't exactly speaking..

Thats true. But its a form of communication that involves subjects.

Forget logic!

He leaned forward and kissed me, erasing whatever snappy comeback i was about to shoot at him. It was impossible to think when he was practically tasting my stomach... A urge in the back of my emotions wanted to vomit, but i ignored it. I put my hand on the back of his head and continued to kiss him, he showed no signs of stopping. With my back on the bed, there was no way to pull back either.. Great, now that I'm at his mercy we could be at this for hours.. If i could, right now i'd be scowling. I tried to say something, but it came out as a series of grunts, which Yu paid no attention to. I feel a hand.. no, two.. What's he doing..? Then it dawned on me.. My sanity snuck away when i wasn't watching, and left me to Yu. Well.. this is about to get graphic isn't it..

Calm down..

You expect me to be calm?

No, thats why I'm telling you to calm down.

And as always, you're right.

Of course i am, I'm older.

Older has absolutely nothing to do with this.

Haha, but its a perfectly good weapon of words.

Oh just shut up and finish what you started..

Yu laughed, and continued. This was going to be different..