He couldn't do this.
His breath punched through the air.
His damp flesh trembled.
He couldn't do this.
It was too long.
He couldn't-
A shriek errupted the small village.
He couldn't do this.
Tears flew from crazed and hopeless green eyes.
"NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!"
Jae-Ha felt light headed.
He couldn't do this-stop.
Stop.
Stop.
Stop.
Stop.
''SSSSSTTTTTTTTOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPP!"
Glass completely demolished his throat.
The pre-teen drooped to the cold floor, his sweat and exhausted muscles flinched in return.
...
...
Damn you.
...
Jae-Ha's pupils slit has they flicked up angrily.
Damn the legend.
Damn him.
Damn the fucking king who put him here.
Who gave him this power.
Damn you to all eternity.
I will, he growled.
Not.
Serve you.
I have no Master.
Go fuck yourself, Jae-Ha bared two small, sharp canines.
I am not your tool.
I am not a mindless puppet.
I am not staying here to die.
"Hey you! When are you going to die?"
"Monster."
"I will relish in your suffering for all enternity."
"Come with me."
"Why would I come with you, idot? I hate you!"
"Lets take to the skies...together."
"If only Ryokuryuu could see you now...changed to the ground like this. It's despicable."
"Taking away someone's freedom is the ugliest thing you can do in this world. People like that should die and reincarnte into roses."
"You talk alot about freedom-you must have had a bad expirence with it."
"I'm sorry but I did not want to meet you. Nor do I plan on serving you: Please go away."
"You are our avatar now-"
Stop.
"The Crimson Dragon is your master."
I don't want this.
"Protect him with your life-"
Please.
"Love him-"
I CAN'T DO THIS PLEASE JUST LET ME GGGOOOO!
"-And never betray him."
Jae-Ha shot up from his bed screaming.
His heart shot through him, his whole body trembled.
The 25 year old pirate's eyes dialated.
They stared back at curious blue orbs with the same animalistic fire had by Princess Yona.
Kija sat infront of him, his own eyes softening with concern.
"Jae-Ha-"
"Don't."
The tent was silent.
Everyone was asleep.
Jae-Ha's green bangs fell directly into his vision.
...
It didn't matter.
It was over.
It was over.
He didn't have to do this.
Didn't have to go through this.
Everything was normal.
Yona was just a silly young girl.
She was brave.
And just as every bit insane as he.
He could walk out at anytime.
Jae-Ha didn't have to stay.
He was following Yona-chan by choice.
As as a human being who could think for himself-
He could do absolutely whatever he wanted.
"Of course you can't, idiot."
Jae-Ha's head snapped up to see Kija's flawless skin warp into a nasty smile.
"Do you think you can leave? You'll die here, as a slave. It's in your blood. Our blood. You can't escape it."
It was dark.
His eyes tricked him.
Silver locks flashed into wild green.
Kija cocked his head, "I hope you die," he bit his lip, to keep it from showing his insanity, "I hope you die in each and every way you fear. In every way you killed me."
The young man tried to back away.
A white clawed hand suddenly latched onto his.
"Why did you do it? I wanted to live. I wanted to live so...so badly.'"
Jae-Ha tried to kick the other dragon away but found it was chained.
No.
...
Fear paralyzed him.
Silver hair and blue eyes melted into green.
Zeno, Yoon and the tent all disapeared.
Candle light flashed against the small room casting ugly shadows.
It just made Garou's face all the more terrifying.
"But then you came along...you...you kept me here..."
Stop.
This wasn't real.
He had his leg-
Garou snatched it up high over his head and suddenly he was 12 years old again.
"DAMN YOU."
Jae-Ha looked into the face of a man who completely broken inside.
A man, still a child in some villagers eyes-snapped a long time ago.
Someone who gave up hope.
Someone who died before he could live.
'DAMN YOU! DAMN YOU! DAMN YOU! DAMN YOU! DAMN YOU! DAMN YOU!"
The fists of a soul crying for it not to end rained down on him.
They touched his face.
His chest.
His stomach.
His leg.
It made Jae-Ha briefly wonder about his parents.
His collar bone.
Would they have hated him too?
"DAMNYOUDAMNYOUDAMNYOUUDAMNYOUDAMNYOUDAMNYOUDAMNYOU!"
He peaked out behind a swollen and crusted eylid.
The pain didn't feel good anymore.
It made him want to die.
It made him want to find his mother and die sobbing.
Why?
Why didn't anyone ever love me?
Jae-Ha's eyes opened as he startled.
A few seconds passed as he stared at the tent surrounding him.
The older man sat up softly and realized why he had zero feeling in his left arm.
A wild, untamed nest of golden hair covered it as the person attached drooled and snored into the fabric.
Jae-Ha sighed.
This was real.
This wasn't some other fucked up dream.
Zeno clinging to his arm proved that to him.
Jae-Ha's eyes searched the tent.
Everyone, including Kija was dead to the world.
The green haired avatar wiped hot tears away.
Some had slipped from his cheeks, down his neck and into his collar bone.
Hot pain flashed as Garou's hand came crashing down-he screamed as the bone snapped.
Jae-Ha quickly shook that from his head.
He was an adult now.
He wasn't going to be frightened by the memories and whims of a child.
That didn't stop his eyes from snapping shut.
Or nimble fingers brushing back his sleeves.
Or Jae-Ha drinking in the sight.
This wasn't beautiful.
What happened to him wasn't beautiful either.
Ivory wrists clashed brightly with ugly, warped scars.
They overlapped agianst eachother until nothing was left.
He just stared at them with a sad expression.
The years taught Jae-Ha pain and anguish was to be relished and loved.
Pain secretly made him happy.
But nothing but shame filled him when something slashed his wrists.
When curious eyes fell upon his hidden leg.
That wasn't beautiful.
Garou tore something into him that could never, ever be taken back out.
He was ugly.
He was twisted.
He was strange.
And he was free.
Author Notes: Aw, Geez it's already been a month? Sorry. I just started up a job a waitress, I'm gone like all the time recieving very little money in return lol. But Jae-Ha's suffering and your wonderful reviews bring me great joy. I was going to originally have Hak watching him silently but it ended before I had the chance. Tch. Well. Maybe some other time. I hope you liked reading it as much as I liked writing it! XD
