PBB 3

She walks into the house and Steven Lars is feeding Cameron. She runs up and takes Cam into her arms apologizing to Steven telling him she was with a friend.

He says, "I know. I am so sorry about the baby. I understand. But I need to get to work."

Elizabeth takes Cameron upstairs and changes his diaper. As she is rocking him back to sleep, she thinks about Jason. She knows exactly where he is but wants to give him time to blow off steam. She looks at her beautiful baby boy wonders what she would have done if this was Jason's baby. Jason has always tried to keep her safe, but by association, she has been in danger. A bomb almost went off in her studio as a warning to him. Just by being his friend now, she could be targeted & she didn't want that for Cameron. She knew she had to do what was right for her son, more than her renewing feelings for Jason. Grams is at GH, so she calls Betty.

Elizabeth heads over to Jakes. Jason's playing pool & drinking a beer. She looks at Coleman and he nods over to Jason's direction. She walks up and asks, "a game of pool?"

He replies, "no, I'm not the best company.

She says, "well, I have seen you at your worst, so I'll take my chances." He stands there, pool cue in hand shaking his head. She offers up a solution. "You win I leave you alone, I win, we talk."

Jason shakes his head chuckling, "we've played before and I can barely beat Carly and sorry, but you are not as good as she is."

Elizabeth says, "well, I've honed up a little since that time Zander & I spent in your PH. Besides, it will take your mind off things.

He racks them up & she breaks. She clears the table before he can even shoot. He grabs two beers from the bar and says, "well a deals a deal."

He offers her a bottle and she shakes her head. "I'm nursing," she says.

He replies, "you have until these beers are finished & then I'm going to the hospital.

Elizabeth admonishes him. "You know Jason sometimes you can be a real shit! One moment you have this amazing tenderness & sometimes with me you actually show your fear and love; but the next you have this icy stare and act like nothing, nobody matters. I think you are very afraid of being hurt, let down. Afraid to show people you really care. You feel if you let your defenses down you will lose not only your perspective but your edge. What the Quartermaine's did to you was wrong, but you don't allow anyone in based on that. You put a wall up so no one can get in. You let down your defenses sometimes with Michael and Morgan, but then you stop so it's easier to be lost than to lose."

"Elizabeth I know you didn't come here for a pep talk and I have one beer left before leaving."

"Fine, I came here to tell you that you can still have that edge, that persona, but you have to allow yourself to feel. Go see Robin, Anna. This is your child, and if you can walk away knowing you may never see them again because of your life, then do so. But if you want a chance, a real, true happiness than cut this crap out or nothing matters. Stay with Sonny and lose what could be the greatest joy of all…a child. Or take a chance at being hurt but know what it is like to have your own family with risks you have no control over, risks that may include dangers you have never faced. All I can tell you is you will always be my friend but my being associated with you is dangerous to Cameron & I need to think of him first. Are you going to do that with Anna?"

She gets up to leave and he asks her to stay. She says she can't. He takes her hand and says please. You told me you wanted me to be in the now. I am."

"Jason, you are still angry, and I can't make that go away, nor can I allow myself to be with you no matter how much I want to."

He stands up, brushes her hair away and bends over to kiss her. "I'm not angry. I know what I am doing, and I will have no regrets. Will you?"

"Jason, this won't change anything."

"I know." He starts to walk upstairs holds his hand out…

Elizabeth looks behind her, back at Jason and places a call to Betty letting her know she will need her to keep Cam until tomorrow. She follows him to his room and as she shuts the door she says, "what happened to you going to the hospital?"

"Sonny can wait. There's not much I can do now and I'm tired of Sonny's beck and call."

Elizabeth gasps and says, "I can't believe you said that!"

Jason slumps on the bed and says, "I can't do this anymore. The only ones I've ever felt comfortable with is you and Robin."

"You can't do what anymore?", Elizabeth asks.

"Lie, be stoic, be evasive. I never wanted to lie to you or to Robin."

Elizabeth says, "What about Courtney?"

"Courtney was different. I couldn't talk to her the same."

"What do you mean? You were married to her."

"You wouldn't understand, I just can't tell you."

"Okay, here you are being evasive again, but, you want me here for what comfort? Jason, I just can't do this. I never know what you really want, and you won't let me in. I can't live my life that way. I won't!"

Jason rushes to the door and blocks her from leaving. "Don't, please….", he takes her head in his hand and leans over giving her a deep kiss. She responds and he lifts her into his arms carrying her to the bed.

She opens her mouth, but he puts his finger on it. "Shush. I'll tell you everything you need to know later. Please, no more questions, no more demands, just let your feelings be."

The sun shines brightly into Elizabeth's eyes and she raises her hand to block out the glare. In the middle of the night, Jason woke her up to tell her things he's locked up inside himself for the last eight years. They spoke for several hours with Elizabeth mostly listening trying to hold in her shock but letting him cry it all out. Later she falls asleep in his arms, sure he was awake the entire night.

Jason walks into the room bringing coffee and a bagel. "Sorry, but Jakes really isn't the place you want to have breakfast" She smiles and asks how he is. He replies, "relieved I can actually share this with you. I do trust you, but you need to be careful. Slipping up could cost you your life and I don't want anything to happen to you or to Cameron.

Elizabeth replies, "I know there is still a risk, but I'm glad you told me. It explains a lot. I need to get home to Cameron. Besides if I can leave before Coleman arrives then maybe he won't be blabbing to Carly and I can still have my hair all in one piece. Jason smiles & leans over kissing her. She says, "you know, I really love it when you smile. You need to do that more."

He laughs and says, "get home to your son now, or I'll be keeping you here a little longer."