Jess went home that day contemplating the many ways Rory could react to what he was about to send her. She might not even care, she might throw the package away at the sight of Jess's name written on the envelope, or maybe she would open the package just to see what it was but then throw it away right after not wanting anything to do with him, or she would react totally different than jess would except and she would actually read it... maybe she would call, or write back. okay that was it Jess had decided that he was going to send it, he was trying to put all of the bad thoughts in the back of his head and put all of the good ones in the front... okay so maybe she would react badly and throw his package away... but he didn't care... it was just a risk he had to take... results good or bad he had to be ready for either. After Jess thought more about what he was about to do he finally put Rory's favorite book filled with all of his thoughts into the package along with a note that read "im sorry." and that was all... he didn't want to expand just incase she wasn't interested. He put all of the necessary information onto the envelope and put it into the mail box... this was it, there was no turning back now. He had to be ready for whatever came his way... for all he knows nothing could come his way and she might not contact him at all. but he just had to be ready for that.
In stars hollow a few days later Lorelai had been awaiting a phone call from Rory, she was going to call to clarify their plans for the weekend. Lorelai had been watching TV when an abrupt ring came from the phone behind her. She got up to answer it knowing it was Rory.
"hey babe, what took you so long? I was starting to think you died."
"I was 2 minutes late... if I was at least 5 minutes late.. then you should have supposed I died." said Rory sarcastically.
"Got it, so you better not ever be 5 minutes late or ill have the funeral and what clothes of yours I would keep all planned out by the 6th minute."
"I'll keep that in mind." said Rory with a laugh. "So, what's going on this weekend?"
"Uhh... well im marrying Bono this Saturday... Emily and Richard are moving to China and never coming back and we're all going to live happily ever after." Said Lorelai as serious as possible.
"Sounds fun, too bad its not happening."
"Your ruining my dreams kid. is that why you called? to ruin your mothers dream? shame on you."
"Noooo. I actually called because you told me too, ruining your dreams was just a perk."
"Evil, evil child."
"That's what they call me." Said Rory with a smile. "So what exactly is happening this weekend?"
"Well I thought we would have a movie night... filled with candy and pizza and all the movies you could think of."
"I'll be there, unless you'll be too busy with Bono."
"I think I can make room for you, Bono will have to wait till Monday."
"Oh I feel so special." Rory missed these talks with her mom. It's been a while since they really actually had an in depth conversation about random things like this. Which was sad because that's all they used to do.
"So, see you this weekend babe."
"K mom, bye."
"bye
sweets" as they were about to hang up Rory quickly started
talking again.
"wait mom, do you think you can check the mail real quick? im waiting on that skirt I ordered."
"Sure babe, as long as I get to wear it first." Said Lorelai with an evil smile.
"Well... okay as long as you don't get any mysterious stains on it that will stop me from wearing it."
"I promise." said Lorelai as she walked out the door to check. She took out all of the mail and realized there was a package along with all of the letters and bills that lie in her hands. She looked at it and saw that it was from Jess. " uhh... Ror, is this skirt that you ordered in any way from jess?" said Lorelai curious as to what he could be sending and why.
"uhh... no, why?" Rory was very curious as to why her mother even mentioned his name at all.
"Well... you got a package... I don't think it's the skirt... but it's a package, Lorelai pauses for a few seconds and finally lets it out. "from Jess.."
Rory doesn't answer for a little while and after she realizes what she just heard she says one things. "Jess?"
"Ummm, yeah..." Lorelai pauses knowing that Rory is really uncomfortable with what she just heard... believe me she was too.
"Well uhh.. what is it?" was all Rory could say...
"Oh well ill just turn on my X-ray vision... I think I see something. oh I do! It's a package!" said Lorelai jokingly she was trying to liven the moment. " Rory.. I have no idea what it is... do you want me to open it?
"uh no.. ill do it this weekend.. ill do it this weekend." said Rory still uncomfortable with the situation. All she could think about was what it could be... and why jess was even sending it to her.
"okay babe... ill see you this weekend." Said her mom sympathetically.
"bye mom." Said Rory with a smile.
"See ya hon." As they both hung up the phone Lorelai walked into the house staring at the package wondering what in the world Jess could possibly be sending her. She though Jess was completely out or Rory's life... and she was happy with that fact. but here he goes again. starting more trouble. Lorelai knew that this was going to get Rory upset... whatever it was.
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A few days later Jess sat in the living room for a while flipping through the channels, trying to read, but he couldn't, he kept thinking weather or not Rory was going to contact him... he was starting to loose hope and its only been five days. I mean she has other things going on in her life, her first priority cant be "I have to write jess back." he thought. He knew she was busy... so he just decided to let it go. If she wanted to contact him.. she would, in a matter of time. He just had to wait and not sit around like a pathetic loser wishing and hoping. At that though Jess got up and walked out the door, he wasn't going to be that guy.
In Stars Hollow Lorelai sat at Luke's waiting for Rory to arrive. But to keep herself busy she decided to torment Luke. "oh luuuke." said a flirtatious Lorelai batting her eye lashes and smiling as she said it.
"Don't do that." Said Luke annoyed.
Lorelai looked at him and smiled "But whatever do you mean?"
"Don't look at me like that... its creepy, im not Tom Cruise.. go look at him that way, that's what he's payed for."
"But Luke, he doesn't wear that sexy baseball cap of yours. You cant just tell me to look at Tom Cruise when one he's not even here.. you cant just tell a women to look at Tom Cruise when he's not even in looking distance, that's just mean. and two... why would I want to look at Tom Cruise when I can look at a dirty diner man with a backwards baseball cap... come on Luke. which would you choose?" Lorelai laughed with enthusiasm, she loved making Luke mad, it basically made her day.
"Im not sure if my opinion would be of much help." said Luke still annoyed with Lorelai's preposterous comparisons with him and Tom Cruise.
"You like Tom Cruise don't you... come on Luke step it up." oh how Lorelai was having fun... she loved watching Luke's face turn redder and redder, she giggled at the sight of it.
"Oh my god..." at those last words Luke walked away pouring people more coffee.
"Now don't you walk away from me... its okay Luke... if you like guys im fine with that."
"I do not like guys." As he said that people in the diner started looking at him and he found it necessary to repeat himself. "I don't like guys." said Luke frustrated. People kept staring weirdly at him. "I don't!"
Lorelai whispers to the crowd laughing as she did "He hasn't come out of the closet yet... give him a break."
"Unbelievable." Said Luke as he walked away.
as time passed kirk walked up to Lorelai. "uhh..Lorelai. I have this friend... and he's looking for someone."
"No.. im done with blind dates." Said Lorelai thinking Kirk was trying to fix her up.
"No.. I mean for Luke.. he hasn't really found many gay guys for him and I though since Luke's latest interest in the same sex they would be good together." Said kirk seriously.
"Luke's not gay kirk."
Kirk paused for a second and frowned. "well this ruins everything... I can't pretend to be gay anymore. this is ruining my chances with the ladies."
Lorelai looked at him wondering. "And why are you pretending to be gay?"
"I kinda told my friend I was gay... by accident."
Lorelai was on the verge of laughing, she knew kirk was weird but this was just beyond it. "By Accident..." Said Lorelai not knowing what to say.
"Come on Lorelai don't tell me you haven't done it." Kirk was very confident that he wasn't the only one that hasn't pretended he was gay.
"You mean pretend to be gay... nope.. Hasn't exactly come up on my to do list."
"Well I know im
not the only one. I'll fix this... I just have to find a gay guy...
introduce them, hopefully they will have the hots for each other. ill
pretend to be jealous and run off in a huff. it'll be great."
Said Kirk smiling as he heard his plan.. apparently he found it
great.
"Sounds like you have it all planned out."
"I do." says kirk and after a pause he adds "well I have to go.. I've got a date with Todd in 15 minutes."
"That's your gay guy?" Said Lorelai questionably.
Kirk was very offended by that accusation "He's not my gay guy!"
"Sorry kirk.. have fun on your date with Todd." said Lorelai holding in a laugh.
" At least I have a date!"
"Yes at least you have a date kirk..."
Kirk frowns and walks out right as Rory walks in. "what was that all about?" Asked Rory curiously.
"Kirks gay." said Lorelai a-matter-a-factly.
"Huh." Rory didn't want to ask anymore questions knowing kirk was kirk.. so she left it as that.
"So how's school?"
"Schools fine.. hard but fine."
"Hard? did I just hear Rory Gilmore say school was hard? is this my daughter?" Said Lorelai jokingly.
"Im not Einstein mom.. you have to stop thinking that."
"But that visual of you in that third grade play just makes it seem so real."
"Okay it was one part in the historical people play... I had two lines you have to let it go." Rory said as she rolled her eyes but also wanted to laugh.
"But it was just so true." Lorelai laughed and pinched her cheeks "you are my little Einstein." said Lorelai in her baby voice.
"How about I just drop out of Yale now... will that convince you? then ill work at a gas station.. pump gas for the rest of my life. I bet Einstein never did that."
"That's how he started out." Lorelai was getting a kick out of this Einstein bit.
"That's it im done." Rory gets up and walks out the door as Lorelai follows her.
"Einstein wait!"
When they got home Lorelai checked the messages, as she realized there were none she went in the kitchen to find Rory sitting down at the table looking at the package that she read was from Jess. "You gonna open it?"
"I don't know... should I?" Said Rory sadly but yet nervously.
"Its up to you kid.."
"I just really don't want any distractions... I mean mid terms are coming up... it might be too much." Rory didn't know what to do... she had no idea weather it was good or weather it was bad... she didn't want be thinking about whatever is in that package during mid terms... she didn't want to be thinking about him.
"It could be good... he could have good news..." Lorelai thinks and then says "and it could be bad news.."
"Exactly... that's why im not going to open it... im done with him, if he wants to talk to me he can come here himself, I hate how spontaneous he can be sometimes. Im tired of waiting around for him but just getting disappointed. I'm done.. That's it its final im not opening it." Said Rory strongly and defensively.
Lorelai knew that even though she hated Jess Rory was making the wrong decision, she knew that Rory would regret not opening this package.. but if it was what Rory wanted she didn't want to convince her otherwise, Lorelai thought about it and said "Well.. if that's what you want."
"It is." Said Rory confidently. but inside Rory knew she was going to regret it.. but she just had to let it go.
"Okay well im going to bed kid.. see you in the morning?"
"Yeah, ill see you in the morning." Said Rory still kind of shook up from the last conversation.
"Night babe."
"Night mom." As Lorelai went upstairs Rory walked into her room and grabbed a book. She sat on her bed and started to read. but as she read she couldn't help but keep thinking about that package... what was inside it? what did he want? why did he always do this to her? give her this feeling. It had to go away, that's why she wasn't going to open this package... it was for the best. After reading a little longer Rory turned off the light and tried to get to sleep.. but after about an hour of tossing and turning she got out of bed and went back into the kitchen and saw the package sitting there on the table right where she left it. She sighed and took it into her room tearing open the paper. She saw a note... before she opened it she thought to herself... was this what she wanted? did she want to be burdened with personal problems when mid terms were coming up? As she was about to put the package away something inside her snapped and she opened the letter without even knowing what she was doing. but before she realized that the letter lie open in her hand she was already reading it... it didn't take her long because all it said was "im sorry." that's it? that's all he had to say to her after all that he's done? "im sorry?" As Rory started to get angry, she took out the book that she saw was in the package, it was the fountainhead. Rory was trying not to smile, anger taking her over. It was telling her not to read it... but she did, she had to. and as she started reading it with all of his amazing thoughts in the margins her anger turned to sympathy and she knew that those two words he wrote on that piece of paper were real... this made her believe it. Rory kept reading... she read all night. And Jess's thoughts made her smile. As she did a tear rolled down her cheek. Jess understood... and after reading everything that lie in those pages.. she forgave him.
