Part 2
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desire:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night
To know the pain of too much tenderness
To be wounded by your own understanding love
And to bleed willingly and joyfully
~ Kahlil Gibran ~
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Previously
"Are you sure it's him?"
"Easy, Elena, no need to rush, we have plenty of time..." but Elena kept staring at her with lots of hope. "...or not, well, yes, I've spotted him in Atlanta and I can help you get him back"
Lexi?
It was definitely Lexi, he wouldn't have mistaken but what was she doing here? What was she up to? Damon thought while he looked for a place to keep him distant.
Elena & Lexi
"Hi Elena, I'm sorry I'm late, I tried to call you anyway.." Lexi greeted her with a big smile on her face.
"Uhh, maybe I didn't hear it, so, are you sure it's him?" Elena didn't even realize that she left her phone at home, she insisted to satisfy her curiosity.
"Easy, Elena, no need to rush, we have plenty of time..." but Elena kept staring at her with lots of hope. "...or not, well, yes, I've spotted him in Atlanta and I can help you get him back"
Elena didn't want to believe but it happened. She was thinking for a moment whether she did really want this or not and she found it hard to think, to choose between the better and the best.
"Dammit, this isn't a joke! I mean you're real, how can you even be here?"
"I'm here to help you to get him back, Elena and I will do that.. Ohh, look at you two.. You are meant to be together.." Lexi said it casually and enjoy the bourbon she ordered.
Elena thought that Lexi was misunderstood and she was trying to make it clear.
"I just need to see him one last time and I will come back to my life with Damon"
"You're kidding, aren't you.. After everything that you've been through, you just gonna give up? Where's the Elena that I used to know, who never give up in Stefan and believe in herself?"
"I guess she's gone when Stefan came back threatening her to stay away forever"
"Okay, now tell me why you meet me here?" Elena didn't answer, only looked her in the eyes and waiting for her to continue. "Because you're not giving up, deep down you're still waiting for him to come back, you always will, 'cause you're meant to be together, that's why, Elena.. and that's exactly why I'm here to help you"
"I have new life, Lexi, I have Damon and Nasya, our daughter. I hope you understand my decision"
"Damon.. Your daughter.. Now tell me, did you expect that to happen?" Lexi lowed her voice down and once again, Elena was being pushed to the edge and as much as she wanted to argue there was nothing come out from her mouth. She did miss Stefan but she can't just forget what he'd done to her in the past.
"I know that you were missing Stefan very much and you are still now and that's why you seek comfort from someone who's the closest to Stefan, and it's Damon, his brother.."
Elena was shocked to hear Lexi's reaction.
"No, no, Lexi, that's not true. Damon was always be there all the time, he never left me when Stefan did. Damon was there to help me bring Stefan back, he almost got himself killed to get his brother back and we're married, I love him..."
"...or you use him as a replacement when Stefan's not around but you never thought that vampires can procreate.. Frankly, I'm surprised, too but it happened and you had no idea about that, had you.. C'mon, Elena, look at yourself, we all know that bringing Stefan back won't be that easy, sometimes we need to sacrifice to get something that we desire... "
Elena hated the way she talked about Damon, like he was nothing but she can't blame her. Damon did kill her, so she just tried to focus on finding Stefan thought it hurt to hear that.
"You knew you shouldn't be around Damon but you still did it anyway and now this is what you got. How old are you when you found out about that? 17? 18?" Lexi sighed, she was here to bring Stefan back to Elena 'cause she knew Elena did still love him.
"I understand, Elena, you lost someone who's very important in your existence, the true love of you life, I lost someone too, but when it's real you can't walk away"
Elena swallowed hard, she remember when Lexi was playing matchmaker but now everything changed.
"What I have now is real. I can't and I won't walk away from my family now.."
"Listen to me.. you are so young, you should enjoy your life, go to college, explore the world, or whatever you wanna do.." Lexi took her hand and continued. "Damon is a mistake, Elena, and so is she.." she didn't have to say her name to know who she refer to. "..but I can help you change it, you can fix this.."
Damon
I clenched my fist tightly 'till I scratched my palm but I didn't care. It was nothing to compare with the most painful conversation I'd ever heard in my entire life. Never crossed in my mind that I had to face something like this, something that ripped my heart out.
Elena sneak behind my back only to meet Lexi who would help her to bring Stefan back. Why didn't she just tell me? Did she still love Stefan?
Of course she still loved Stefan, he was the love of her life, who was I kidding? I was just a replacement when my brother wasn't around and I'd never be her first choice, 'cause it'd always be Stefan. I was fool to think that I finally can replace my brother.
I should've known this from the beginning, ever since everything had started. Hell, she should've let me died when I tried to find Stefan, that way she can continue what she had to do.
I took off as fast as I could, using my vampire speed to get to my car. Once inside of it, I tried to calm myself. I knew I shouldn't have calmed, that was not vampire thing, damn, I hate myself. I felt things that I shouldn't and it hurt. I hated myself that I was so stupid and let everything started in the first place when I could have stopped it. I was sad because I failed her as a man who had promised her to always bring happiness in her life but in fact she still tried to find him.
God, what have I done to deserve something like this? Was it because I was so selfish? Was it because I took her from my brother? This was too much, I wasn't sure if I can handle it. Did I deserve this? I let the guilt ate me alive, maybe I did.
I needed to be somewhere to clear my head out or I should just kill someone tonight, but I can't. As much as I wanted to do it, I can't.
Maybe what Lexi said was true, I was just a replacement when my brother wasn't around. Maybe I was just a man who had ruined everything in the first place but strangely I never regret it. I never regret to marry the woman I loved and to have this life.
"Damon is a mistake, Elena, and so is she.."
No, I should've come back and rip her heart out. How could she say my daughter was a mistake?
I can accept that every single creature on earth hated me, I even hated myself sometimes because of who I was but not my own blood and flesh. She was love, she was my humanity, she was everything to me and I would never let anything harm her.
He looked down, reminiscing about his past. How they could get here? Remembering his sweet moment with the woman he loved the most, unsure where he'd go after this.
Flashback
"What do you want, Stefan?"
"Am I not welcome here anymore?" he took another step inside her house and walked passing her.
"You're not Stefan that I used to know but I know you're still in there somewhere.."
"Still believe in that? Have you ever thought of letting me go, Elena, because Stefan that you know is gone, forever. So here's the deal, I will forget that you've ever had a place in my heart and so do you.." he said it like it wasn't a big thing. "..beside, you have my brother to keep you company, isn't that good thing..?"
She only shook her head in disbelief, it wasn't Stefan who was talking now, it was the devil, the ripper who had no heart.
"You know, 'Lena, he's been in love with you since he first saw you, trust me, I can see that.." he smirked before walking pass her.
"Ohh and don't bother to find me again if you don't want to see your friends get hurt"
Now that she hated Stefan for threatening her friends' life, but she didn't know why she believed that she can change him. The Stefan that she knew would come back someday.
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Elena panicked when she can't find Damon everywhere since Stefan had came to warn her. He did ruin everything, he made Elena crying all over again.
Why he had to come back to this town if it only to hurt Elena?
She finally found someone lying on the ground with a stake punctured in the chest. She fastened her step to get to him and when she turned him, hot tears ran freely across her face.
"No, no, this isn't happening.. Damon! Wake up, Damon!" she hoped that he could survive. He looked paler than ever but he didn't turn gray, which was a good thing.
The next thing she'd done was pulled the stake out of his body but he still didn't show any sign to regain consciousness. "Please, don't leave me, you promised.."
She took his head on her lap and ripped some part of her shirt and pressed it to his wound. He wouldn't stop bleeding, why didn't he heal?
"C'mon, Damon, don't leave me like this, wake up!"
Something crossed her mind, vampires needed blood, he needed blood. She took her pocket knife that she always carried and slide her palm. Blood oozed from her wound and she didn't waste time to place it to his lips.
1 minute, 2 minutes, but nothing happened. He still didn't move. She had to massage his throat to force the blood but why wouldn't he wake up?
"Damon, you have to wake up, please, I have no one else. I love you, Damon, I'm so sorry it took me so long to realize that.. Please wake up.." her voice cracked, she can't continue, she wasn't sure she can continue her life if there was no Damon.
His eyes fluttered and once again she was drown in those blue ocean eyes.
"Did you mean that..?" his voice was weak.
She nodded her head. "I thought I'd never see you again, please don't scare me like that anymore.." she placed her forehead in his.
He used his hands to straighten up. Looking down at his chest where the wound started to heal.
"Hey, look at me.." he waited for her respond and finally met her doe brown eyes. He wiped away the tears and soothed her. "You don't have to see that again, 'Lena, I'm here now and I will never break my promise, remember that.."
"I know.." she brought herself to hug him and buried her face in his neck. Damon caressed her hair and think about her love confession that she'd just reveal, was it real?
"So do you really need to see me dying to confess your love for me?"
She pulled herself to meet his eyes. Cupping his face between her hands, she started to speak. "I'm sorry, Damon, I guess I've been in love with you, I'm just too coward to admit it.. With this whole Stefan thing that's been blinded me but now I realize who I want to be with, where my heart truly belong and it's you. You're the one that I want, Damon, I love you.."
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"I now pronounce you husband and wife, you may kiss the bride" soon after the priest finished, he didn't waste time to kiss her as his wife for the first time.
That was the happy day of their life or at least he thought. He can remember fire in her eyes, they were twin flames, forever.
"I love you Mr. Salvatore.."
"..and I love you too, Mrs. Salvatore" he kissed her again, on the forehead, on the nose, and the lips. "You make me the happiest man in the universe.."
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He was sitting on the edge of the bed with book in his hand when Elena entered. She looked so worried yet there was something that she hide.
She wasn't sure whether she should tell this news or not but she decided it's the best time.
"What makes my queen look so worry tonight?" he asked as he mark the page and put the book back on the nightstand.
Elena placed herself in the middle. She didn't say anything, too afraid of the reaction she might get.
"Damon, do you ever think of having a real family? I mean family with children around us, a boy or a girl who will need our love.."
He looked down for a moment, realizing that this was what Elena wanted. A family with children that he can't never give.
"Back in my life when I was human, I had a dream that someday I would have kids, not just two or three but I wanted to have 5, with the woman I love. They'd take my time to take care of them, I'd love them more than my own life and see they grow up.. I think it would make my life worth something" he seemed distant thinking about how beautiful his life if there was no vampires.
"...and then Katherine came into my life, well and my brother's life, ruin our relationship, you know the rest.. and I lost my chance to be a father.."
She took his hand and kissed the back of it.
"I'm sorry about that.."
"It's okay, you already make me the happiest man.. hey, you're the one who look so worry, now tell me what's wrong?"
"Well, this is still about your dream, I..uh, do you still want to have one?" he knew something like this would come up eventually.
"Yes, I do, 'Lena, if I could give you I would.. but I can't and I'm really sorry that I can't make our life perfect but we can always try to adopt.."
She was relief to hear that Damon still wanted to have kids. The test pack that she hold for was being shown to Damon but he didn't get it.
Damon took it from her hand and he saw 2 red lines on it.
"What's this? Is this..?" he asked doubtfully afraid if his dreams would be just dreams.
"I'm pregnant, Damon.."
She guided his hand and place it in her stomach. Her hand rest on his.
"It's our baby there.." her eyes searched for his. "You're gonna be a father, congratulations.."
Her eyes now was full of tears, she couldn't believe herself but it happened.
"but, but how? vampires can't procreate.."
"Well, Damon, apparently you can.."
He hugged her tightly to let her know how much he loved her.
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His mind was brought back to reality when his phone rang. He read the caller and picked it up.
"Hey, Damon, I, uh, don't mean to interrupt your time with Elena but your daughter is asking about you all the time.."
"Daddy, I want my daddy! Where is he?" he could hear his daughter calling for him in the background.
"Can you put me through, I'll talk to her.."
"Sure"
"Daddy? Daddy, is this you?" her cute little voice called him and he can't believe that this voice can bring peacefulness in his broken heart.
"Yes, sweetheart, it's me.. How's your night with uncle Jeremy?"
"It fun, daddy, we play together but he try to make me sleep. I told him you will put me to sleep, right daddy..?"
His promise, he almost forgot his promise to go home soon.
"I'm so sorry, sweetheart, daddy will be home soon.." he looked to his watch and since he lost of track. "it's late, you should listen to uncle Jeremy, okay..?"
"Okay, you promise you will be home soon?"
"Yes, my princess, now could you give the phone to uncle Jeremy?"
"I love you, daddy.." he smile silently, letting tears fall down and happiness possessed his heart, at least someone still loved him anyway.
"I love you too, princess.." you have no idea how much you meant to me, he added silently.
"So, will you be home soon, daddy..?" now it was Jeremy who talked.
"Yes, I'll be home soon, big baby.."
"Good, 'cause your daughter can be trouble when she wants to"
"Hey, be careful with that, I, uh, I'm on my way back, thanks for taking care of her, Jer.."
"Sure, no problem! kay then, I'm gonna put my all effort to make her sleep, cya!"
He saw their photo in his phone's screen. He took it a week ago before they left Italy. Elena was hugging their daughter and they both smiled on the camera. They were his life, his treasure that he'd protect and love until the end even with a wounded heart.
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A/N: for you gyss who thguoht that Elnea chteas on Dmaon, well, I cna't say she's not but she has a rseaon taht you mgiht wnat to read in the nxet cahpetr whcih also the lsat part so you might won't msis the flfufy bonidng ddady-daghtuer in the nxet part :)
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