chapter 3
2nd March
i was having fun with jasper i mean maybe edward wasn't my true love after all I mean Jasper hadn't done anything
to make me feel he liked me but I had felt something for him. He was miserable though. Alice had already got the
divorce papers Jasper had signed then already. Now though Ava was set to go back to Alice and Jasper wanted me
to take her. He didn't want to see her and I was sure she didn't want to see him either but I didn't want to be
in the middle and I hoped Edward wouldn't be there with Alice.
I wasn't looking forward to this but I had to be on my own bringing Edward would have made everything worse. I
was now travelling on a plane to New York ready to bring Ava home I didn't want to see Bella or Jasper but Ava
was mine too. I arrived and made my way to the house we planned on meeting. Carlisle had done it up ages ago and
we occasionally came here Now though I sat in the living roomm waiting for Bella. She knocked and came in.
"Hi Alice." She said clearly uncomfortable. "Can I have ava please?" I wanted this over with as soon as possible
they could run off together I didn't care. Then Jasper stepped in. "Alice." I just nodded at them feeling awkward.
"Bella can you give us a minute?" Bella left and we stood awkwardly in silence. "When do you next want Ava?"
"I don't." He replied. I got angry and was ready to punch him. He didn't give any other reason but he wanted to
spend time with bella. "Alice this is all your fault you caused all of this." He yelled at me.
"Actually it is your fault you made me feel like shit you just let me cry your never there." I said. He shook
his head. He never liked confrontations it made me so angry.
3rd March
I was still angry with Alice why did everything have to be an was waiting for me. I fell into her
arms and we kissed. I needed her I needed to feel better so that night we
10th March
We were dyeing our hair for our wedding tomorrow purple especially Edwards. I had extensions in because I was
pregnant but tanya had dyed her hair and so had Edward. I couldn't wait to marrry him and finally be happy. I knew
Jasper would be angry about it all.
11th March
I was walking down the aisle with Tanya We both had wedding dresses on all with purple flowers and edwards tie
was purple. We reached him and we all held Tanya and Edward were married already it was basically me
joining their marriage so they both said vows to me and I was married to them I had two rings and we then went to party.
I got extremely drunk I mean worse than before. I started an argument with both of them saying I hated them. I stormed off before puking.
Alice was laying in my arms. "I am so sad." I hugged her tight. "I know Alice I am sorry about all of this."
"He didn't want to see Ava again." That made me angry I mean I had Connor and Alice was pregnant now I would never
do that to my kids. Alice though was huge like seriously big. "My feet are killing me." She chucked her heels away
and a stumbling Tanya came back. "Take me home." She said. I threw her over my shoulder and headed home. Alice followed.
12th March
Jasper had called me to meet up as much as I didn't want to but we met and sat down to talk. This was the only
time since we had split that we were getting on. Mostly for Ava who wanted to spend time with both of us and
was too young to be in the middle of this.
13th March
We had all stayed their over night not with Jasper and Bella but in the house not faraway. Edward was angry about Bella
"I can't believe the bitch just jumps into bed with the first person she sees." He was so ready to fight Jasper. Tanya
wasn't helping either she was encouraging them. I couldn't really fight anyone but I went with them.
Edward burst through the door attacking Jasper. Jasper and Edward were hitting and punching each other Bella was
trying to help them but Tanya fly kicked her out the way. After they had finished Edward squared up to Bella.
"You are such a tramp I never ever loved you." They stormed out I followed and Bella was crying.
14th March
Tanya had left us alone for a bit and took Connor out while Alice was in pain she had alost fell over in pain luckily I caught her and took
her to bed. She was crying all night. It felt like a long night but by the end of it we had a son. Alice was aslep
and Tanya came in as I was holding the baby she also put Connor in my arms.
16th March
we were back home again. I had gone to the meadow where me and Edward used to go before I was turned. I felt sad that
great moments were now sad. I heard the trees rumble. "Who is there?" I asked. Edward stepped out of the trees.
"Bella." He breathed making me weak again. I had missed him so much and now my anger was gone. I rushed into his arms
and he held me. "I love you Edward." I said. "I love you Bella." I looked around. "Where are Alice and Tanya?"
"I left them for you." He said. I was so happy everything was exactly how I wanted it to be. I managed to strip off edward and climb on him.
Then Alice and Tanya stepped out of the trees, "Get your hands off our man." They said. I looked at edward.
"As if I would leave them for you you are desperate look how pathetic you are. Tanya and Alice took my arms and legs and
dragged me into the trees. I hid my face as they attacked me crying alone in the trees they walked off.
17th March
I was having breakfast when Jasper came in. He didn't see me the other night he didn't know I was there. "morning." He said
I smiled. "do you want to come swimming with me?" He asked. "Yes." I knew Edward would be mad about this but oh well.
I cleared up and we walked outside together. "I know a lovely lake." I said. I led him up hills and through trees until we got to the lake.
It was a warm morning so swimming was ideal. I started getting undressed and Jasper copied until we were naked and jumped in.
we both swam around until we had enough then we stood in the water close together. Our lips getting closer until we kissed.
I felt happy again but I knew edward would see it.
17th March
Alice arrived home unusually happy. I searched through her head and found out why. "Why did you do that Alice?" I asked.
She was akmost crying. "I still love him Edward I'm sorry. She cried into my arms and I sighed. I was happy to share but was he?
I was in the kitchen with Alice when Edward came in with Tanya. "Look Jasper I want to stop fighting now." He said.
We shook hands and made up. Bella also came in hugging Jasper. "Bella can I have a word?" They walked off.
"What is it Edward?" She wasn't having any of it. "I do love you I am sorry for what I did I was just angry seeing you
with Jasper."
17th March
we had all had a few drinks and so we ended up naked. I was kissing bella and stripping off her clothes while Jasper
and Alice were already on the bed naked. We joined their group I helped make Alice feel good while Jasper also helped make
Bella feel good. When the girls were satisfied we all fell asleep.
18th March
I woke up hungover feeling sick and yucky. The boys were still here and Alice was asleep. I looked down at myself naked
and could see a tiny bump forming. Oh shit. They had a wild night she had sex with both of them and was now pregnant with
who know whos baby. Alice had also woken up hungover. "Alice look." I whispered showing her the small bump that had
formed. Alice looked down at her stomach. "Shit." She also had another bump. We were both in big trouble.
20th March
I was ill in bed again fine yesterday but this morning woke up like i was dying. Edward was with me with Tanya complaining silently
to him. Edward wasn't having any of it and Tanya stormed out again. I had lost a lot of weight and my bump was getting bigger.
I was getting like Bella was and I was terrified so was Edward who had this twice now. Bella however was having a normal pregnancy
she looked great.
28th March
Alice was huge she was almost dead her face was skinny and she was all bones. Jasper hadn't even bothered to be here
for Alice he hadn't helped her at all he was too busy with Bella the perfect pregnancy and less hassle. I kind of wish he had
helped because I was stressed. Alice's body hadn't broken at all she was kind of strong. Later that night though after
what looked like an agonsing birth our daughter was born. Alice held her and ethan in her arms. "We need a dna." She said.
I didn't know if it was going to be mine or Jaspers.
31st March
I was drunk yes and Jake was doing my head in he was constantly whinging on and on so I got him drunk. No wonder Lilly wasn't
around my oldest daughter was with this pathetic excuse of a man and they weren't having my blessings to get married.
As the evening went on he was unwinding more and urm we had sex. Shit Lily was going to kill me.
31st March
I had taken tablets to settle myself but the pain came. I was rocking and moaning as the pain worsened. No one was around
to help me.
