Chapter Three
AN You asked for longer so you got it. ) I hope you like it. This was originally going to be two chapters but I didn't want to stop writting so I hope you like it. R&R And thanks for everyone who did review! 3 Again I tried my best but i don't have spell check on my computer.
I feel to my knees immeditly, hugging my sides. The pain was unberable. I heard piercing screams and moans. It was me. Why did I want to make this longer? I was so stupid. Oh god this hurts. I can feel the blood spilling out of me. I could smell it too.
"Bella? Oh no Bella! I found her Carlisle! Were too late!" I'd recognise that voice anywhere. It seemed so real. Was it?
"Alice?" I mumbled. It was so quiet but I knew if it was her, she'd hear me.
"Bella! Oh no Bella. I told him this was a bad idea. No. No. Carlisle hurry!" Was she real? Was Alice really here? I wasn't that creative, was I? But crazy people do have pretty good imaginations.
"Alice, grab her and run to the house now!" It was Carlisle. There voices almost sounded as good as he sounded. I felt cold hard marble against my skin and wind. Lots of wind. It lessend the pain slightly but I could still hear moaning and screams. I couldn't have imagined this. Maybe they were really here.
"Bella, Bella stay with me! Do you hear me? Please Bella, please talk to me!" Alice demanded. I could hear her tearless sobs. If should could cry, I knew she would but why?
"I'll try." I paused. It hurt too much to talk. "It ... hurts." Maybe I shouldn't have told her that. She might feel worse.
"It's okay. Im so sorry. I told Edward. I shouldn't have listened to him! None of us should have. He was so stupid to think you'd be okay! I mean you're you! It's a good thing a came."
Why was she here anyways? I thought she didn't love me anymore. I thought none of them ever loved me. Why are they even bothering. I wanted to die.
I had nothing to live for anymore. He was my everything and now he's gone. The wind stopped and I could feel something underneath me. A bed?
"Bella, this is going to hurt. I am so sorry but there is no other way." It was Carlisle. Was he going to change me? Oh please do it. Nothing could be worse then this. I managed to nod slightly and I could feel my shirt rising slightly.
Then there was pain. When I thought I could never feel so much, more came. And it never decressed. If anything it increased but I knew he didn't bite me. I didn't feel a burning like I did when James bit me. This was a different kind of pain. I thrashed and kicked. I wanted it to stop but it didn't. It never did. I could feel arms holding me down.
"It's okay Bella. Just breathe. You'll be okay. How could Edward be so dumb!" It was Emmett. I wanted to talk to him. To know why they were there but I couldn't. It hurt to much. I could hear my screams getting louder and harsher.
Wait, if Emmett was there, did that mean the rest of them were? Probably. I wonder why they even bothered.
The pain increased. My screaming got louder then ever before. "Kill me! End this hell!" I screamed. I just wanted it to stop. And it did, gradually. It lessened and lessened. And even though it never stopped, my screaming did. It didn't hurt as much. The hands that were holding me down were released.
"I'm so sorry Bella. I had to take the bullet out but it's over now. Just sleep, you need your rest." It was Carlisle I think. I couldn't sleep though. Not yet. Not until I was sure they weren't going to be gone when I woke up.
"Please don't leave me. Not again." I whispered so quietley I could hardly hear it myself but I knew that they would hear it. I could feel my mind going fuzzy. My eyes hadn't opened once since I shot myself. I needed to see them to make sure I wasn't dreaming but I couldn't open my eyes.
"Don't worry Bella. We won't." That was the last thing I heard before I blacked out.
"Bella, I don't love you anymore. I never did. I can't stand you. You're a pathetic human. I promise, you will never see me again. Just promise you won't keep acting stupid and recless." Edward said, facing me in the forrest near my house. I couldn't say anything so i nodded.
"Please don't go." But it was too late. He was already gone.
I emerged from the black whole which was my life to a paniced Alice. "Bella, what's wrong? Are you in pain? Why were you screaming?" Her worried voice demanded.
"Oh. It was just a dream." I said. I felt the whole in my heart open up. I could feel it over the pain from earlier ... was it still the same day? I held onto my sides and started gasping for breathe. Alice noticed this quickly.
"Carlisle come here." She sounded paincked. Better reassure her but how could I do that without annoying her? I didn't want her to leave.
"Don't worry. I'm okay, this happens alot." I said. Carlisle was here now as well.
"Well it never happend before. I sounded like you couldn't breathe. Whats going on Bella?"
"Why don't you tell me? Six months ago your brother comes and tells me hes leaving. That everyones leaving because he never loved me. That he couldn't stand me because I was a pathetic human. And I tried to get over him but he was my life and he tore it away so I was going to make it final. And then the people who don't love me and probably never did came and saved me. I think you have some explaining to do." I felt the tears rolling down my cheeks and I waas once again gasping for breathe. I was sure they were going to leave now. Before Alice could respond I started up again. "And now that you came, I know when you leave that it will only make things worse. Can you leave now and spare me the heart ache of what little heart I had left?" The tears were going down harder and faster and I could hardly breathe, trying to gasp air. I hadn't relised that everyone was in the room now, all of there faces holding nothing but shock.
"Bella. We will explain everything but just calm down. You've been through so much. I don't think your body can handle he added stress. Okay? Once we all settle down, I promise we will tell you everything." Carlisle's calm voice didn't sound the same. It sounded like he was talking to someone ... crazy. That's what it was. I wasn't really here. I was dead right? I must have gone to hell though because right now, this is all I could call it. I was a crazy person. Might as well play along with there little sheraid though. It might be fun. And maybe I wasn't dead, I would be just as well when they leave. I'll do it again but this time they won't have a chance of saving me.
"Isabella Swan, never even think of that. We would never leave you." Shoot. Alice must have seen what I had planned on doing.
"You say never now, but what about in a week? A month? A year? Soon you'll be with Edward again. Wishing you hadn't saved me now like he wish he never saved me with James." I said, or rather screamed. I think I heard them growling but I was too into my thoughts to listen. I didn't want to. I just wanted to end my life.
"He would never wish that. Neither would we. Bella, you look like hell. If he saw you like this ..." Alice's voice trailed off. They were hidding something from me. I needed to know everything.
"Just please, tell me the whole story. From begining to start. I need to hear it all." I said. Carlisle was about to protest but I inturrupted him. "Don't worry, I'll stay calm." Accutally I really wanted to know if I was dead or not but I couldn't ask that.
"Okay. After your birthday party, Edward said that he didn't want to put your life in danger anymore. He said we were leaving. He was doing it to keep you safe. And trust me, we all tried to tell him to stay. That he was making a mistake but he wouldn't hear of it. He thought we were the ones putting you in danger and he loved you too much to make you go threw something like that again. We left and I told him I wanted to say good bye too but he said he wanted to make it as quick and easy as possible and he thought that was how. He thought that you would never belive him. He thought it would take hours but it didn't and you did belive him. He must be a good actor.
"Anyways, he told us we could never talk to you again. I couldn't see your future but not because I didn't want to or I couldn't. He forbidded it. And then he left. He comes and checks in every few months but he's misserible. I knew he would give up and go see you sooner or later, weither you knew or not, he would want to see you. We all did, but it's too bad that he chose later rather then sooner. And then I saw your future unexpeditly. You killed your self. I told everyone and we left and searched for you. We knew it was in the medow but we were all the way in Alaska and we didn't know how much time we had left.
"When we got to you, you'd already shot yourself. We thought it was too late but we heard you scream. We grabbed you and ran you home. We would have taken you to the hospital but we couldn't think of a resonible expanition as the why you were shot and we were back. Carlisle had to take the bullet out and fix you up. We would have drugged you but we didn't have any with us. We did give you tylenol, weither you rember it or not. Jasper went to your house and took the note you left Charlie and left him another note saying you went on a trip by yourself to clear your head. It said you'd be back soon and not to worry. It would be better then him finding out that you tried to kill yourself.
"So you see? We never wanted to leave, but we were doing it to keep you safe. I see how that turned out. We are trying to get a hold of Edward but he won't pick up his cell. Don't worry though. He will eventually." Wow. Everything made scence now. But I wasn't that creative to think it up my self and hell didn't have happy endings all tied up in a pretty bow. I guess this was real.
"So you're not leaving?" I asked. Everyone shook there head no and I let out a sigh of relif, which made them laugh.
"But now it's your time to explain some stuff. Like your screaming, and not being able to breathe. Oh yeah, and attempted suicide." It was Emmett. It felt good to hear his voice, I missed my big brother.
"Not yet. I still have one last question." I paused, trying to have a dramatic effect, which turned out pretty retarded instead so I continued with my last question. "How could you guys stand the blood?"
Nobody said anything. "It was like with James last year. When you truely love someone, you care more about them then the blood." I was surprised that Emmett awnsered like that but it felt good to know I was loved like that. "Now awnser our's."
"When ever I think about ... him, it hurts. It gets harder to breathe. Like theres a black whole in my chest. The dreams happen every night. I dream him leaving. I killed myself to finish what he started." I said. I hopped that awnsered everything.
"I'm sorry Bella." Esme's sweet voice said to me. How I missed that voice.
"As am I, but Bella. You need you rest." Carlisle said. Who am I to argue with the doctor.
"Fine. Good night." I said and closed my eyes while everyone left.
I dreamed of Edward coming back.
Yay! Okay well I'm not sure how many chapters I'm going to have. If you don't mind, can you tell me if you want me to end this in the next chapter or two or if you want me to continue. Please review! Thanks. xox.
