Seeing What can't be seen

Chapter 3

I Don't Need Eyes to See It

Nanoha's POV

I came to the conclusion that I was in love because that was the only way of explaining the feelings that I had. She was my first friend. She was the only one that cared, respected me, and loved me with all my flaws. I wanted to tell her that….to show her what she meant to me. I could tell that she had feelings for me, maybe even loved me. I may be blind, but I'm not stupid. I knew for a fact that Fate and I were on the same page, but something was going on. I could tell that something was bothering her. I didn't need eyes to know that either. I was sure that asking for a kiss, or my actions would have told her that I was okay with everything….that I felt the same way. But she never saw it. She kept on pushing herself away and distancing us even further after we kissed. Yes, she still walked with me to work and hung out from time to time, but she was different with me. She seemed like she was too afraid to touch me or even come near me. I can't help, but want to know what she's thinking. And it makes me frustrated because how do tell someone who clearly loves you that you love them to, if they keep pushing you away? I don't know, but I do know something. I'm going to tell her how I feel because…..I refuse to let this love slip away.

I called Fate up to see if we could meet up or something. I needed this to happen quickly. I wanted Fate to know how I feel so we could be happy together. After I few rings, she picked up the phone.

"Hello?"

"Hey Fate! It's Nanoha. How are you?" I said trying to sound like I usually would instead of how I was feeling now.

"I'm fine. So what's going on?"

"Is there any way that we could meet up? There are some things that I need to say and it really can't wait"

"I've been a little busy Nanoha. I don't know if I have time"

"Fate! I need to speak with you now. This is something very important to me and it should have been said awhile ago. So can you just meet with me please?"

I was really getting annoyed by this and I know it showed in my voice. She was trying to do everything that she could to not be with me and this wasn't the first time. I needed to talk now. I just hoped that she would meet me.

"Where do you want me to meet you?" she said after taking a deep breath

"I don't care"

"Okay. Come over my place. I can talk with you here"

"Okay. See you in a little bit"

"See you in a few" and with that said, we both hung up.

She wasn't going to get away from me this time. I quickly called for a cab and ten minutes later, I was on my way to Fate's house. I was surprised that I wasn't even nervous. I guess I was too fed up with the way that Fate had been acting that being nervous was the last thing on my mind. I just wanted her back…..my Fate back and I would do anything to get it.

When I finally arrived to my destination, the cab driver escorted me to Fate's door and left once he did. After taking a deep breath, I knocked on Fate's door and after five seconds, I heard the door unlock and open.

"Hey Nanoha. Come on inside" Her voice sounded sad. I hated it when her voice was like that. I was determined and I wasn't leaving this house until I knew what was going on with her. After I stepped inside and Fate closed and locked the door, she guided me to one of her couches.

"So what is it that you wanted to talk to me about?" Fate said taking a seat next to me, but with some space between us.

"What is going on with you Fate? After we shared that kiss, you've been acting differently…..differently….towards me" By the time I got to the end of my sentence, I was already on the verge of tears. Fate's actions towards me had been really hurting me. I needed to know why.

"I'm sorry Nanoha for the way I've been acting, but you wouldn't understand" I could tell by the way Fate was talking that she was hurting to.

"Then make me understand Fate" It seemed like my voice echoed through the room. "Please" I was begging. Even pleading for her to tell me. I needed to know, so that we can fix our relationship.

"Nanoha…you don't know how it feels to have everyone that you've been with leave you because you were incompetent in some way. You….You don't know what it feels to have your heart broken over and over again by the person that you loved. In order to stop being hurt, I gave up on love. I never wanted to experience it again. I wanted to stop the pain in my heart from spreading any further…. but when you came along, I knew that you would be different from everyone else and you are. You made me happy like no one ever could Nanoha. Your smile, your beauty, your laugh, everything about you warmed my heart. And I fell in love with you, but…I knew that you didn't love me back. I'm your first friend, but that's it. Every time I thought I wanted more, I backed away in fear of hurting you, but by me doing that, I ended up hurting you anyway. I never wanted to hurt you Nanoha" Fate had gotten off the couch after that.

I could hear her pacing across the floor. I knew that Fate was hurting, but I didn't know that she was hurting like that. She was right. I've never dated someone and had them leave me because I was incompetent in some way. I can't imagine the pain that she felt because I had never experienced it before, but all I know is that I wanted to take her pain away.

Without really knowing where she was, but just knowing that she was nearby, I removed myself from the couch. With my hand reached out, I tried to feel where Fate was. Once I felt and grabbed her shoulder, she stopped pacing and turned towards me.

"Fate…." I said grabbing her hand. "You're right. I've never been with anyone that's told me that I was incompetent. But since I'm blind, I was already incompetent in other people's eyes and so I was lonely my whole life. What we went through is the same isn't it? I've always wanted someone to love me for me just as you have and I never found that until I met you Fate"

"But you don't love me the way that I love you Nanoha. Everything you've done with me are just friendly gestures or out of curiosity"

"Now that's where you're wrong Fate"

"What do you mean?" I could hear confusion in her voice.

"You've never wondered if I wanted the same things that you wanted? Why do you think that I was okay with being so close to you? Or why I wanted you to be the one I shared my first kiss with?" She didn't say anything. "It's because of this" and I placed my hand over her heart. "This is the heart that has shown me kindness, respect, happiness, and the love that I always wanted to experience. This heart, Fate, is the heart that showed me what real love is about. I've known for a while now that you were in love with me Fate and all I wanted to do was return it"

"Y-you knew?" I guess she thought she hid it well.

"Fate, I'm blind not stupid. I could tell by the way you acted and you did hurt me. Not because of the kiss. It was because you were scared of sharing your feelings with me. I thought that you would have noticed sooner that I loved you, but you didn't and you kept pushing me away. Fate….I know that you've been hurt, but I'm not like the other girls that you've been with. I love you for you and I don't expect you to be anything other than yourself. Now stop being scared and love me okay?" She still didn't say anything. I could feel her body shaking and wet drops hitting my hand. She was crying. Did I say something wrong? "Fate did I say something wrong?" I was a little scared. Soon I was engulfed in a tight hug.

"Nanoha you didn't say anything wrong. You've just made me so happy"

I pulled away from the hug. I was looking up at her even though I couldn't see her. I lifted both of my hands and placed them on her cheeks in order to wipe her tears away. Once they were gone, my fingers began to caress her cheeks. Fate placed her hands over mine, kissing both of my hands, which made me smile in return.

"Fate…..I love you" I said with my smile never leaving my face.

"I love you to Nanoha"

I was so happy. I finally had love and I wasn't ever going to give that away. Fate's exes were really stupid to give her up and I wasn't going to make the same mistake. I slowly pulled Fate's face towards me, which ended with the kiss I had been wanting to finish since our last one.

Fate's POV

Words could not express the joy that I was feeling at the moment. I finally had the girl of my dreams in my arms sharing a kiss. This kiss was even better than the last time and ever so addicting. I could hear Nanoha moaning in my mouth, which caused me to stop.

"Fate why are you stopping?" Nanoha said with a confused look on her face.

"Well um…" I didn't know how to say what I wanted to say.

"I know what you're thinking, but I want this. I want to show you how much I love you and I want you to do that same. So don't be afraid" I didn't get the chance to say anything because Nanoha pulled me back into a kiss, which I definitely wasn't complaining about.

I could feel Nanoha unbuttoning my shirt and when she was finished, she ran her hand slowly down my front. I could feel shivers going down my body under her touch.

"I wish I could see you Fate" She said in a sad voice.

"Maybe one day you'll be able to" I said before resuming the kiss.

This kiss was definitely different from all the others that I had experienced. Yes, I've had rough ones, sloppy ones, good, bad and perfect ones but….those perfect kisses were one sided kisses. This kiss that Nanoha and I were sharing displayed love that we both had for each other. That's the best kind of kiss….to have a kiss where both people love each other and before this night was over, I would show Nanoha exactly how much I did love her.

I picked her up bridal style, but never breaking the passionate kiss that we were sharing. I made my way up the stairs and to my room, where I put her down so that she was on her feet again. She pulled my shirt off, leaving sweet kisses on my exposed shoulder. She then slowly moved her hands up my back until she came in contact with my bra, which was taken off as well. Nanoha's hands made its way to my front, descending between my breasts down to my pants. The whole time she unbuttoned my pants and unzipped them, she was looking at me with a smile on her face. With nothing holding my pants in place, Nanoha began to pull my pants and panties down. Once they were at my ankles, I stepped out of them.

"It's not fair that I'm the only one naked here Nanoha" I said with a slight giggle.

"Well come and undress me then"

The way she said that was so seductive that I could have sworn that I had orgasmed right then and there. But I did what she said. I started unbuttoning her shirt, which revealed an orange bra. I discarded the shirt. I removed the straps to Nanoha's bra from her shoulders leaving kisses up to her neck as I placed my hands behind her back and unclipped her bra and removed it. My hands then removed her pants and her orange panties leaving herself exposed to me. Her body was even more beautiful than I thought it would be. I could see that she was blushing. I would be to if this was my first time with someone and never had been naked in front of someone else.

"You're beautiful Nanoha" I said as I picked her up again making my way to my bed.

Once I laid her down, I positioned myself between her legs as I continued to kiss her once more. This was it. This was the moment I had been waiting for. I pulled out of the kiss, my and Nanoha's breaths faster than usual. I could see stray hairs over her eye, so I removed it and placed it behind her ear.

"Are you okay Nanoha?" I just wanted to make sure that she was okay with what was about to happen again.

"I'm a little nervous. I've never made love to someone before. I'm scared that I won't know what to do"

"Well I'll teach you and we can go from there okay?"

"Okay. So what do we do now?"

"Well…first I'm going to kiss you" and that's what I did. I kissed her as passionately as I could. "Then I'll leave a trail of kissed until I meet your mountain tops"

"Fate!" I couldn't help, but laugh because it seemed like her blush spread across her face.

"Sorry. Just playing" But I did what I said I would do. I left a trail of kisses from her neck until I came face to face with her peaks. I then placed my hands on each breast beginning to massage them and as a result, Nanoha began to squirm.

While still massaging her left breast, I sucked on the right. Nanoha's breath started to pick up at the sensation. If she thought that this was something good then she was in for a surprise when I made it to her most private area. After giving her left breast the same treatment as her right, I made my way down her stomach leaving more kisses behind.

Before me was her most private area. It was covered with little brown hairs and was just as beautiful. I began to lick and suck on the outlines of her sex.

"Fate….what are you doing?" Nanoha asked through her moans.

"Making love to you Nanoha" and I said nothing else as I descended my face to her treasure.

Nanoha's breath seemed to stop as I began to suck on her clit, but as I continued to work more, her breath picked up. As I let my tongue do its job, I looked up at Nanoha. I could see her grabbing the sheets tightly, her head was thrown back into the pillows, her breasts were rising quickly due to her quickened breaths, and continuously letting out soft moans. I began to quicken my actions. Nanoha tasted better than any food, candy, or anything that I had ever tasted before. It was as if I was hungrier than I had ever been before because I wanted to suck, lick and nibble on every inch of her sex. And that's exactly what I did. Nanoha was close to coming, so I continued to have my way with her as her legs tightened around my head and a loud moan erupted through the room. After sucking the juices she left behind, I positioned myself on top of her once again and placed a kiss on her lips.

"Wow Fate. I've never felt anything like that before. What was that?"

"The sweet making of love baby" We both laughed. "It just means that I pleasured you really well and I have more that I want to give you Nanoha"

"Well give it to me" Nanoha said as she pulled me into a heated kiss. It wasn't long before my hand made its descent for the place that I had just left. Nanoha let out a soft moan as my fingers began to run up and down her slit. I stopped everything that I was doing, so that I could look at Nanoha once more before I did what I was about to do.

"I love you Nanoha"

"I love you to" and with that said, I kissed Nanoha once more as I slid my fingers in her opening. I knew that it was probably going to hurt since it was her first time, so I went slow enough so I wouldn't hurt her.

"Are you okay Nanoha? Does it hurt?" I asked still moving my fingers inside her.

"At first it did, but I'm fine now. Please continue"

I still continued to go slow until I was sure that she was okay. And when I knew that she was, I quickened my pace. Nanoha moans picked up as she tightened her arms around my neck and kissed me harder. She was close again. Still with my fingers inside her, I used my thumb to rub her clit and it didn't take long before I felt Nanoha's walls closing around my fingers.

"FATE!" Nanoha screamed/moaned as she climaxed. She continued to shiver under me as I continued to slowly move inside her. She pulled me into a tender kiss. "Oh man. That was something out of this world. I didn't know that my body could react like that"

"Well if you stick with me, you'll be reacting like that forever" I said before placing a kiss on her lips once more.

"I would love that, but it's only fair that you get the same treatment" and before I could say anything I was already moaning after Nanoha flipped me over so she would be on top.

The way she sucked on my breasts was nothing like all the other women that I let do it. It was sensual and loving. I was in heaven when I felt her mouth on my sex, sucking me hard yet gently at the same time. And when she entered me while still sucking my clit…OH MY GOSH. I felt like I could have died and gone to heaven. I think I had to have cum like thirty times and I loved every moment because it was Nanoha, the love of my life that did it to me. Once we had finished, I held her in my arms.

"Nanoha are you sure that you've never had sex before?"

"Yes"

"For you just to be starting off, you're really good"

"Well, I learned from the best"

"You sure did" we both laughed.

"I love you"

"I love you too"

This was the best day of my life. I just made love to the woman I love, I get to hold her all night, but what I'm most happy about…is that she loves me too.