Chapter 3 - I'm happy for your reviews and that you like the story...thanks again to my beta reader celadeschanel!

Sorry it's a short chapter...


Next week

"Derek Shepherd?"

"Helen Crawford?...What are you doing here?" he asked

"I'm going to do an interview for a job here… I think you're here for the same reason!"

"…Actually I'm not here for a job, I'm a patient, I have a session with my therapist, Dr. Wallace, in about 10 minutes" Derek explained.

"Since when Derek Shepherd needs a therapist?"

"Since Derek Shepherd was shot" he said.

"Derek, I'm so sorry I didn't know…It's terrible" she said giving her friend an hug "if you need anything, even just to talk, I'm here for you, you're the man that saved me…and you're a good man"

"Thanks Helen!" he said with a genuine smile

Derek entered Sheldon's office. In the same moment the door of the elevator opened and a tired Addison, with black sunglasses, a violet coat and blackberry in her hand, came off from the elevator and headed towards the reception desk "Dr. Montgomery, Dr Crawford is waiting for you, she's in the hall"

Addison went to the hall of the practice "Helen, sorry I'm late, but the hospital called me at 4 am for an emergency with a patient of mine…How are you?"

"I'm fine, thanks… but you look terrible, is everything ok? you look a bit pale"

"I'm going to be fine, I'm only tired, you know with our job sleep deprivation is very common"

"Yes…I saw your ex-husband"

"Really? When did you see him?" she asked a bit puzzled

"5 minutes ago…he has a session with Dr. Wallace…"

"Wait, wait… Derek is here? In my practice?" she started asking "I need to sit!"

"Are you ok Addison?" Dr Crawford asked

"No… Why is he here? There are thousands therapists in this damn city…why is he here in my practice?"

"He told me he was shot" she looked at Addison "hey, why are you crying?"

"I'm sorry, Helen, it's just too much for me… If you want the job it's yours, you can start tomorrow if you want…I have to go now!" she said trying to don't cry and headed quickly towards her office.

"Addison?"


"Derek, I'm happy to see you better…" Sheldon said

"Yeah me too, I think I should say thanks to the medicines…and maybe to my family, they're wonderful and they're really help me, my mother, my sisters, my nephews and my nieces… I don't know how I could live without them for 3 years, they're a great source of love… yesterday my little niece Annie invited me to have a tea with her fluffy toys, I spent more than half an hour sitting on this tiny table with a fake cup of tea in my hand, it was the best thing I did in the last 3 months… and I thought that I could have a kid like Annie…My wife and I…"

"the first one or the second one?" Sheldon asked

"The first one… We thought about the idea to have kids, and we did, but we decided to terminated the pregnancy after the villocentesis results, the baby had a major mutation for cystic fibrosis…"

"I'm so sorry Derek" Sheldon said with compassion

"Yeah me too… we were a great couple, people looked at us with envy…but we weren't solid as we thought so we went down like a sand castle… She didn't come to Seattle after I was shot, like my mother and my sisters did…She only sent me a letter, not an email, a real letter, maybe the beautiful letter I've ever read, I think she cried when she wrote it, because the ink was faded…she wrote me that she couldn't be near me, because she wasn't strong enough to leave me again, even if she should be, because she lost the right to be there for me in a situation like that… she wrote also that she regretted every day what she did to me, after years she still felt bad for cheating on me, but she could live with this regret only because she knew that near me there was a woman that I really loved and she really loved me…" Derek was crying "Poor Addie…"

"Did you write her back?"

"No I read this letter 3 months after she sent me… it was on my desk under a pile of books and junk mails… I didn't write to her that she was the only woman I wanted near my side in that situation. Meredith tried, she really tried hard to be there for me, to be strong for both of us, but she was too much for her…"

"You're doing a great job, Derek" Sheldon said to his patient

"I'm doing that for my family…They want me back!"


What do you think? Do you want a pregnant Addie or not? Suggestions or advices?